i would die for naegi

I wish someone cared for me

my fantasy is to go missing but in the most loving romantic way. It’s silly, but really. I’d love to be kidnapped and forced into a ransom’s house. It’d probably be far away from where I live. Maybe in a different country. In a small town. But it’s all done out of love. And I’d love back. I’d care for the place. And I’d finally have a life I could love.

speaking of murder, it’s funny how the world works. I swear the less you want something the more you’d get it. Like have you ever heard of a depressed person getting murdered? Me neither. It’s always the people who loved their life and had loved ones who die. I swear I’m in a similar boat. I want to be killed. I want to be stalked. I want to be kidnapped. I want to go missing. But none of that ever will happen to me. Why? Cause I want it. That’s it.

I think no one can understand the pain of living 20 years with no friends. I have never had a friend. I have never had a person who genuinely liked me. I actually need to get murdered

I wish I could meet someone who could get as obsessed with me as I get obsessed with other people. But I am unable to even find a normal partner so I think that’s just something I’m going to have to keep in my fantasies instead lmao

I just realized even meds won’t help me. Not that I could even get them. But how tf would they help

it’s funny how everyone always gets sign not to do it, and that everything happens for a reason. While I get signs to kill myself. I already gave up on believing that I should be here