you're huddled together in bed with your husband. a lazy day spent in bed cuddling and watching trash tv sounded the best after spending four months away on a grueling mission. simon has only one week off before he takes off again. so you plan on making the most of that time while you have him to yourself.
you turn on your side, gazing upon his face that's illuminated by the soft morning sunlight streaming through the linen curtains, a fond smile forming on your lips. simon's laying on his back, one arm stretched out under your head while the other rests on his abdomen. his eyes are shut, yet he's still wide awake. just resting his weary body and mind. he always says that your presence calms him down. it soothes his wounded soul. and only you can do that.
you lean closer, resting your head on his shoulder. you don't look away. you can't. it's like you're hypnotized. his unique beauty captivating you like no other.
your eyes move across his face, drawing imaginary lines as you go over the creases on his forehead, varying in shape and depth as the emotions that created them. the slight furrow between his eyebrows that seems to never fade. the crow's feet on the corner of his eyes that he claims has been forming because of you. because he never laughed as much before you.
your heart clenches as you find the copious scars scattered across his face, hurt and wonder taking over you as you think over the stories behind each of them, your eyes tracing along the lines, shallow and deep, colored and faded, going over his cheeks, eyebrows and finally, his lips. your mind brings back the feeling of his lips pressed against yours. you always feel the scar when you kiss him. the thin sunken tissue, thicker in the middle and slightly faded on his lips. you smile. you wouldn't change it for the world.
a tender warmth settles in your heart as you gaze upon the man before you. the man who has captured your heart and held it so gently that no one would think possible from someone like him. in that moment, it's like you can feel everything all at once. all the tales of pain and torment he had told you, all the fond memories you have created together over the years flash before your eyes.
simon shifts slightly in his place, pulling you out of your trance. he moves his free arm, resting his forearm upon his eyes as if trying to hide.
"stop looking at me like that."
his deep voice cuts through the silence of the room, bringing your mind back to this world. it's still gruff from sleep and not being used for a long time. he tries to sound stern but there's no severity in his tone.
his eyes were closed the whole time but he must have sensed your unwavering stare.
the adoring smile never leaves your face as you speak.
like i'm worth something. simon wants to say but stops himself.
the silence stretches again.
"like you're my whole world?"
you ask softly, lifting your head and resting your weight on your arm. you lean closer to him, gently caressing the side of his face.
his arm doesn't move, still shielding his eyes.
an uncontrollable heat spreads across his face. as much as he wants, he can't hide the redness forming on his cheeks.
"please don't hide from me, si."
you grab his arm, slowly removing it from his face and placing a kiss on the back of his hand.
finally, his eyes flutter open. dark turned into honey brown under the faint flow of sunlight veiled by the thin curtains.
your eyes meet. his gaze immediately softens. and his heart nearly melts under the loving look in your eyes.
a moment passes, your eyes locked onto one another.
suddenly, simon grabs your waist and turns you on your back, his muscular form hovering above you as you giggle. he locks your lips together immediately, stealing your breath. your lips move together harmoniously, burning with a silent devotion that's present all throughout your relationship. never spoken. but always felt.
you pull away out of breath, panting heavily and grinning widely.
"you're my whole goddamn world too, you know."
he speaks with a wholehearted sincerity. you nod, giggling softly before pulling him in for another kiss.
"after all these years, i still have no fuckin' idea why you'd even look my way, let alone be with me."
"simon, you're the greatest man i've ever met. scars and all. everything that's happened to you. everything that you've done. it's all part of you. i love all of it. i love all of you."
"i don't deserve you. at all."
"you deserve the whole world, si. and more."
"i don't give a fuck about the world. i only want you, love."
you chuckle at his words, kissing him again.
simon has never figured out how he got someone like you. and still thinks he doesn't deserve even an ounce of the love you give him. but he doesn't care. he decides to be selfish.
"never letting you go, love. you're mine. and i'm yours. always."
"that's right, si. all yours. and you're all mine. forever."
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