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it’s been such a fucking weird day i didn’t think i’d be back on this website but here i am

hey how’s everyone doing long time no see

i wrote in my notes app and i feel 10000% better who needs anxiety meds!!!

but like the fucked up thing about all of this is that he could decide he wants to stop seeing me at any moment and i literally just read this script about one of the most emotionally intense periods of his life and i feel like he doesn’t know me at all but i know some very important parts of him? like it feels unbalanced and that makes me extremely nervous because i’m getting way too into my feelings about him and he doesn’t know me super well yet and i don’t know if he’ll like the kind of person i am

i for real might go through my likes and reblog stuff until i pass out from exhaustion because i NEED to fixate on something instead of letting my mind go into full on silly billy mode

i’m soooooooooo fucked like he’s so sweet and he has a two year old son which is so cute and he’s a good writer and i’m so loud i talk all the time and i’m an emotional wreck and i think my anxiety is going to give me a full on panic attack

ugh i never get on here any more but i like a guy and i wasn’t prepared to get emotionally attached to him and i don’t know what to do now

my life is so chaotic rn like i stayed up watching this french horror show and then harry’s video dropped and i’m seeing superm soon and i got the job i wanted at work and i kind of have a boyfriend but it’s complicated and i hate boys like 50% of the time and i just turned 25 and i have the most amazing wife and i need to sleep soon