Voidsy

I am a plural system, we have about 6-7 (shut up) alters.

We have one fictive: Tf!PrinceZam. She's brand new and awesome, and we love her (and we will be interacting with the flight community frequently because it's kinda awesome right now)

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--Summary 1:

Zam is encouraged by Sausage to join up with the group of girls they briefly talked to with Juniper because she mentioned she was jealous/disappointed that she wasn't invited. So, after some convincing, she turns back around and excitedly goes to join the group. Once she actually gets there, she gets awkward again, and no one really acknowledges her even being there for a little while.

As someone who has difficulty speaking in large groups, social anxiety, and a naturally quiet voice, this gave me so much second-hand embarrassment. I literally had to skip ahead in the vod. I genuinely felt like that was me in that situation because I have actually been in similar ones so many times throughout my life, and each time sucked so, so bad.

--Summary 2:

Before she was finally acknowledged by someone, Zam was awkwardly following behind the group. She was then officially kind of invited to come along with them. Excited again, Zam stopped lagging behind a bit and tried to join in on some of their conversations! Multiple times! And stopped each time! Because not a soul heard her! ... after that, she had mostly kind of given up on speaking, especially during the storytime on the tree stump. Zam had instead taken to just watching, sitting the farthest away from the others on the stump.

Again, this is literally my life. Thanks, Zam, for being too real or whatever. Ugh.

She was never actually accepted into the group but was more just... allowed to be there with them out of kindness. None of the girls there had it in them to purposely exclude someone who wanted to be there with them. So, they include her just enough to make themselves not feel guilty, but not enough to actually include her.

--Summary 3:

Zam reluctantly follows the girls into the cave where captain sparkles and such were kidnapped and where she killed two wraiths. Yaknow, the place that gave her a whole lotta trauma. Anxiety attack #1. Yada yadda the girls find a "there are 2 impostors (spys) among us" book that Celestial Metals had thought they had the only one and was keeping a secret from everyone else. Anxiety attack #2. Multiple times throughout this scene (and I believe when they were traveling to the cave as well), Zam says while muted that she wished that Graecie was there with her.

Oh, my starbells 💔💔💔

Zam is hit with the choice between trying to make friends and going back into the cave of evil and trauma. Then one of the girls (I think it was Juniper. She said she was in a similar social position, but i didn't watch her perspective) came out and told her it was okay if she didn't want to join them in the cave. Of course, that only makes zam feel worse and rushed, and even though she had good intentions, juniper had accidentally reverse psychology peer pressured Zam into joining them. Or that's just how I interpreted that. Cause that's exactly how I would react in that situation.

Zam hadn't really hung out with many people other than the celestial metals group for a pretty long time. Zam seems to have grown a dependence on them, especially in traumatic times such as that. Not to mention that the fact that she was already incredibly uncomfortable being around the girls who were pretty much strangers to her.