jezelle

.✦ ݁˖ hii, you can call me Jezelle ! which isn't my real name, im way too shy to write on my main blog.. im 18!

♡ :: I will mainly write for boyliife and nettspend, but my requests are always open!

♫ :: You can always catch me listening to .. 2hollis, charli xcx, bladee, ecco2k, jane remover, blood orange, frost children and nettspend

Masterlist (wip)

@luvvrafey @luvvconceal @punkceal @suxyio @whitetiger2crush2 @sophi-ii @dyanara2diary @all2-s @internett-archive @kingoveverything @zzombiiac

wc :: 700

!! :: smut , suggestive

♡ ₊˚‧ ♡ ₊˚‧ Thinking about Nerd Roman and Reader..

Nerd!Roman who couldn’t keep his eyes off of you the second you stepped into class. These days he’s barely paying attention to the professor, he’d much rather spend his time admiring you.

Nerd!Roman whose mind starts to wander each day he watches you gently tuck your hair behind your ear. He focuses on the way you bite your lip when you’re really focused. 

Nerd!Roman who “studies” in the library more often. Hair messily tied into a pony tail, propped up right beside the window watching you work at the cafe across the street. Wondering if a girl like you could ever want a guy like him.

Nerd!Roman who swears he forgot how to breathe when you approached him after lecture. Your top low enough to flaunt what’s hidden underneath. You’d missed the past two lectures due to being sick (which he noticed and was heavily worried about) and was wondering if he had the notes. 

Nerd!Roman who stumbles over his words. “Y-yeah, you can take a picture of them” he scavenges for the page in his notebook. Suddenly, a genius idea falls upon him. “Or I-I could send them to you, there’s a lot of pages and I kind of have to run”. The corners of your lips begin to curl, catching on to the game he’s playing. “Okay, sure” you agreed, he was kind of cute.

Nerd!Roman who can’t help but feel nervous around you. His palms are now home to pools of sweat. He clears his throat every time he begins a new sentence in an attempt to drop his voice to a lower octave. That causes you to giggle. Which results in him feeling his jeans become a bit tighter.

Nerd!Roman who was finally able to get your phone number. He could feel the incoming erection as you turned on your heel and walked away, turning back at him once more to wave goodbye. 

Nerd!Roman who walked home with his laptop in front of his crotch, embarrassed by how hard he was. That night all he could think about was you. He adored the way you refused to wear any color that wasn’t pink, the way you always had a cute accessory in your hair. He could only imagine how your soft voice sounded echoing his name. 

Nerd!Roman who kept checking his phone hoping you’d text him back. It’s been 3 hours since he sent you the note. Did you give him a fake number?

[4 Attachment’s] 

name: you’re such a sweetheart! tysm💗

roman: No prob :)))

Nerd!Roman who shuts off his phone and tosses it somewhere in his messy room, stomach attacked by butterflies. His room which has posters of Maps and old scientists, and can’t forget the shelves of figurines. 

Nerd!Roman who notices you wearing shorter skirts and tighter tops. Damn it now he’s bound to fail this course, he can’t give anything else the grace of his attention. All he wants to know is how good you’d feel around him. Probably so tight an- 

He missed 60 minutes of instruction, you’re his pretty distraction after all.

Nerd!Roman who can’t help but check every corner of the internet for your instagram. His search came to an end when he went through the following list of the cafe you worked at. Perfect.

Nerd!Roman who uses his treasure as material to jerk off. head thrown back as he runs his hand up and down his cock, gasping quietly as if there’s anyone else in the apartment. 

Nerd!Roman who reaches his climax to a photo of you on the beach wearing a tiny pink bikini. Chanting your name, moving faster as if his hand was yours. Your voice replays in his head, causing him to squeeze tighter. 

Nerd!Roman who finishes with one fina grunt of your name. Now stroking his length slowly, opposite to his previous pace. white pearls run down his member, beads of sweat kiss his face. 

Nerd!Roman who can no longer take it. He lies there semi-satisfied but it wasn’t enough. He just had to have you!

Nerd!Roman who decides to shoot his shot. You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take, right?

roman: you’re hot.

Nice one, Roman.

wc :: 1k

a/n :: drabble. not proof read. star symbol instead of y/n

Gunner never asked you out.

But you two acted like he did.

You were always together, when he’d come back from long studio sessions the first thing he wanted to do was be wrapped in your arms. You two stayed up late baking cinnamon rolls that would turn out being burnt to a crisp. He even had songs written about you.

He’s the fool for telling you he didn't want to be tied down or whatever. And you respected him and his whole “I’m not looking for anything serious” speech, because at the end of the day he was a really good boyfriend. You’re sure you’ve spent more nights at his place than your own. But still, he just wasn’t able to commit.

So why was his chest tightening at the sight in front of him? He dragged you here. He brought you to HIS listening party. The least you could do was respect him. 

Now he’s watching you laugh a little too hard and bat your lashes a bit too much for his liking. With disgust on his face he stares, for a little too long. “Yo, you good?” a deep voice calls out. Xavier.

“Yeah I'm fine” He lies. He could tear the whole building apart

“Alright bet, the djs looking for you”

“Okay cool ill be there in a sec” He feels like he cant take his eyes off you, If he does you’ll be gone with the mystery man and into a random bathroom.

But you feel it. His eyes all over you.

You don’t care. You love gunner but you wanted something real, something assuring. And he sure as hell wasn't giving you that. You guys shared intimate moments, sometimes you’d ask him to go stargazing and he’d just stare at your face as you rambled on about the Orion’s Belt. He loves how much you talk. But obviously not enough.

You eventually get bored of the guy you're talking to, you’ve been fake laughing at his horrible jokes for 10 minutes and he still wont get the hint. You scan the room looking for gunner, who seems to have moved from his hawk position. You find him over at the djs booth just finishing up whatever consultation they have going on.

He begins walking up the stairs of the rented mansion to watch the party over from the second floor indoor balcony. You excuse yourself from the conversation before swimming through the sweaty bodies to follow. 

“Gun!” You call out smiling, as if you weren't just purposely trying to piss him off.

He glances at you, substituting for a verbal greeting. He’s leaning on the balcony watching the party taking place beneath him. 

“Why so quiet?” You ask resting your chin in your palm.

You bat your lashes the same way you did to that guy. It makes his stomach turn that should be preserved for him and him only.

“Where’d your boyfriend go?” Jaw clenching and he avoids the way you look at him with those innocent eyes.

You fake confused, “what do you mean gun?”

“Don’t act oblivious” he shoots back.

“Gun I don’t know what you're talking about, plus this is YOUR party you can’t just be up here moping around.” 

“You know what I'm referring to, and it doesn’t matter if it's my party when you’re flirting with every guy in a 3 foot radius”

You’re now starting to get annoyed although you were waiting for this reaction. 

“Gunner you don’t get to be upset about things like that when you repeatedly tell me you don't want anything serious with me”

The air is heavy between the two of you.

“☆ that was a long time ago-” His grip tightens against the railing. “I want you ☆, I only want you.” 

Silence swallows you both. You can tell he was surprised at the words that came out of his mouth. You were as well. 

But you needed to hear more. It wasn’t enough. You scoff. “Gunner you don’t want me and if you did, why’d it take another man talking to me for you to tell me?!”  you argue “You just don’t want anyone else to want me”

“I’m sorry ☆. I have a lot on my plate right now. I wanted to be able to give you my 100% and I wasn’t sure if I could do that. I didn’t want to let you down”

Your eyes soften. You don’t even care if he’s bullshitting right now. “Gunner, you didn’t have to shy away from me. I will take as much as you can give. You know me. That’s why I'm hurt. 

You feel water begin to pool in your eyes. You don’t blink just in case tears fall. The overly loud music and crowd drowned out. It's just you two in this space. 

You continue “You always confide in me, you tell me whatever’s on your mind. Yet you can never be clear about how you feel about me.”

You see him relax from his once tense self, as if he’s applying breathing methods he’s learned from a long therapy session. 

“I know. And seeing you with him just confirmed that what you said is right. I don't want anyone else to want you and I don't want you to want anyone else.”

You could break out in tears. 

“I want to continue to spend my days with you and devote all my love to you”

You tread closer to him, the atmosphere around you has now completely faded away. It’s as if you two are the only people to exist.

“I love you ☆, This is a forever thing.”

And without hesitation, your lips crash onto his. Softer than you remembered. You missed his touch, his hand cupped your face kissing you slowly and passionately. He felt like he could breathe for the first time in forever. 

You slowly pull away, his hands still frame your face. 

“I love you too gun, just wanted to hear you say it.” you whisper softly

“I’ll give you the world.” he replies, kissing your forehead. 

He wraps an arm around your shoulder then turning to look down at his listening party that he abandoned.

Oh shit. 

You see phone cameras pointed up towards you both. 

Great.

an :: IF U MENTION ANY SPELLING ERRORS I WILL BANISH YOU also i need a perm taglist im so lay zeee

ex!nate x photographer!reader

tattoo artist!roman x soft!reader

jealous!nettspend x reader (uploaded)

get you pt.4

Nerd!Roman pt.2

listen while reading

Boyfriend!Hollis remembers the date of every special moment, the first time you walked past him, the first time you two brushed hands, you first kiss. Everything. 

Boyfriend!Hollis who brings you flowers whenever he can. Seems cliche but it’s the little things that matter. Having a bad day? He’s buying you flowers. Failed an exam? he’s buying you flowers. Woke up in the morning? flowers.

Boyfriend!Hollis who gets to know all your friends, he wants to know who his girl surrounds himself with! If you are hanging out with your friends he’s sending you all food you don’t even have to ask. He doesn’t even mind sending you extra money to pay for your friend’s nails, as long as it keeps you happy 

Boyfriend!Hollis loves providing for you. You use his card more than he does. He’s very attentive, you could be rambling about wanting this purse you saw on TikTok and he would go through rabbit holes to find it so you can wake up to a surprise in the morning.

Boyfriend!Hollis who finds it cute when you’re fed up with him. he loves to annoy you, he thinks it’s the funniest thing in the world. He thinks it’s adorable when you glare at him. 

Boyfriend!Hollis who brags about you to his friends he just thinks you’re so perfect. They’re honestly annoyed of it but don’t say anything before he annihilates them. 

Boyfriend!Hollis who kisses you like it’s the last kiss you two will ever share. He’s a passionate and slow kisser for sure. Every kiss is intimate, he never wants to let you go. His arms gently wrap around your waist and he devours your face.

Boyfriend!Hollis Who loves when you do his skincare. He loves when you’re propped up on his lap so focused on plucking his messy eyebrows.

Boyfriend!Hollis who can’t stop himself from texting you at every seconds of the day. “I love you pretty girl ♡” “I wish you were here with me” or “let me take you out tonight pleasee”

Boyfriend!Hollis who cannot bring himself to say no to you!

Boyfriend!Hollis who doesn’t move for hours when you fall asleep on his chest to avoid waking you

Boyfriend!Hollis who loves nothing more than when you're playing in his hair. He feels chills going down his spine when you play with his baby hairs on the nape of his neck.

Boyfriend!Hollis whom you love so very much ⋆˚꩜｡

Boyfriend!Ryan is the sweetest , sure he could work on being nicer to others..but that’s a story for another day. Ryan would give you the world if you asked for it.

Boyfriend!Ryan Adores everything about you. Your laugh, the way you talk with you hands, the way you get annoyed so easily. 

Boyfriend!Ryan is very possessive. He watches you from across the room subtlety. Once he saw you being too friendly with a guy at a party, he couldn’t keep his hands off you for the rest of the night.

Boyfriend!Ryan is first to apologize in an argument. Even if you’re in the wrong, he swallows his pride and caves in. "Baby, please. make me understand" he pleads. He does anything in his power to avoid this happening again. 

Boyfriend!Ryan’s love language is sharing music with you. Whenever a song that reminds him of you comes on he sends it to you right away, hoping the lyrics will tell you everything he hasn’t. His ideal date night is taking you to a concert

Boyfriend!Ryan can’t leave the house without your initial around his neck. Sometimes he even wears your bracelets, it’s his way of bringing you with him everywhere

Boyfriend!Ryan keeps your relationship private. Not in the sense that he won’t tell anyone about you, but he won’t tell others what you two are up to. He believes giving people insight on your relationship causes unnecessary drama, and criticism. 

Boyfriend!Ryan’s day is completely thrown off if you’re even slightly annoyed at him. He gets in his head and makes it his mission to make it up to you. ordering your favorite food and making you a care package to get you out of your mood.

Boyfriend!Ryan’s room is full of photos of you. He loves taking candid photos of you using his digital camera that he carries everywhere. There’s photos of you on his mirror, on his monitor, in his phone case. like..everywhere.

Boyfriend!Ryan does NOT smoke around you nor does he let anyone. He completely shuts you down when you even joke about smoking, he does nottt play that.

plug!hollis x reader

w/c :: 1.6k

! :: strangers (?) to lovers , req open, not proof read

By the time Hollis dropped you off back at your dorm it was around 11:45. You two spent a large chunk of time together. Looking back at your previous weeks that have been filled with so much stress the time you’ve spent with Hollis makes up for it. 

You don’t know if it’s just because you’ve had bad experiences with guys in the past but Hollis is a really sweet guy.

The last guy you were with wasn’t good with words, he never told you how he felt and rarely took you on dates, it was refreshing for Hollis to be so straightforward and actually show you he’s interested.

The next morning you can’t even get through your usual routine without thinking of last night. You feel your cheeks heat up at the thought.

You’re in your 8 am lecture pretending to care about what your professor is saying. Hollis hasn’t texted you or given you a heads up about this date, which makes you slightly anxious.

Your head shoots up when you hear your professor assign you into pairs with a random guy who’s name you don’t even know.

This is the part you hated the most, you were more on the introverted side. You'd rather do all the work on your own than have to constantly check in with your partner and make sure everything is up to your standards.

He approaches you with a smile and stretches his arm out to shake your hand

“Hey my names Eren” 

“Hi, i’m ♡” you return the handshake and smile

Your professor dismisses you and encourages you to get to know your partner.

You pick up your bag and walk out hoping you can hold off the contact information exchange until tomorrow since you were in a rush to meet Ryan at your usual spot.

Until you hear someone callout your name 

“Hey, ♡, Excuse me!”

you sigh before turning around finding a tired Eren, “Hey sorry, I was just wondering if I could get your number..for the project”

“yeah sure one sec, sorry i’m in a rush” You pull out your phone handing it to him so he could type in his number.

“Here you go, Text me!” is the last thing he says before running off to do god knows what.

“Text me” is also the last thing Hollis hears meanwhile creeping up behind you.

“Who was that?” You felt your heart drop to your ass when his deep voice hit your ear suddenly.

You turn around visibly shaken “Never do that again.”

He laughs, “Sooo..do you think you could be ready by 9 pm tonight?” He now has a hint of nervousness in his eyes.

“mm yeah”

“Okay okay..good. Where are you headed?”

“me and ryan are going to have lunch or something”

“was my invite lost in the mail or something” 

“Unfortunately your invite wasn’t written, anyway why are you here ? I never see you on this part of campus”

“I’m going to meet roman we’re going to the studio together”

“cool..I’m running late but i’ll see you later okay?” and with that you were off, you had to excuse yourself before your heart began to beat out of your chest. You wonder if he ever feels the same way you do.

You don’t realize that he does. You don’t notice how sweaty his hands become when he’s talking to you, constantly wiping them off on his jeans. You don’t realize when he plays off the facts that he can’t hold eye contact with you for that long. And you especially don’t realize the way his heart aches when you mention going to hangout with Ryan. He wishes you granted him that much of your time. 

He watches you walk away until you’re out of sight.

“I realize you don’t value our friendship” Ryan says as you hang your purse on your chair.

“What is it now?” Ryan has been accusing you of having a thing for Hollis and unfortunately his claims are becoming the truth.

“your insta post?!? THAT'S why you decided to leave."He takes a sip out of whatever he’s drinking “Would if I got into a car crash. I would’ve died alone”

“SO YOU’D WANT ME TO DIE WITH YOU? boy you're crazy.“

“not the point, you left my side for hollis.”

“well if it makes you feel any worse..he asked me out” you watch the light leave his eyes

“No way I’m sick.”

“Ryan, be supportive. He’s actually a nice guy”

“Don't forget he sells drugs.”

“okay so what if he’s a hustler”

“bye. where this date supposed to be at”

“he hasn’t told me..all I know is I have to be ready by 9”

“how are you going to know what to wear?”

“That's…a good question. should i text him”

“Duh?!”

You: Hey sooooo i was wondering..where are we going tonight????

Hollis: I was debating on where we should go but i’m leaning towards the pier..What do you think?

The Santa Monica Pier was a famous LA attraction, pretty much everyone in California has been here at least once. There’s a large roller coaster and Ferris Wheel closer to the water grabbing the attention of passers by. There’s usually visitors from other states recording the same videos trying to go viral. Overall it was a lively place. 

You: Sounds good ! 

“He said the pier” You relay the message to Ryan

“Everyone goes to Santa Monica on the first date. He gets 10 points off for being unoriginal”

“oh hush it’s cute! At least he didn’t choose something awkward like a restaurant”

You were back at your dorm and for the past 3 hours you’ve been deep cleaning. It’s now about 6:00 pm which means you’re 30 minutes behind. 

you’ve mapped out your day and scheduled everything you need to do before your date. Honestly you’ve been trying to stall, you were way too excited and have been wanting to start getting ready since 2. 

You took an everything shower, you even pulled out your expensive hair care you got from Sephora as a birthday gift. You don’t remember the last time you’ve looked forward to something.

7:30 you wrap up your dermaplaning, wash your face twice and apply every face, eye and lip mask you had.

8:00 you take down your hair and start blow drying it, you decide to wear it down just because.  

And finally at 8:45 you have your outfit on. Drenching every inch of your body in perfume. You can hear your jewelry clinking every time you move. 

You finally felt ready with a good 15 minutes left to spare. 

At 9 you expected hollis to drop you a ‘im outside’ text, but he didn’t. He was in the parking lot of your dorm checking his hair in the mirror, quadruple checking everyone, even spraying his cologne on the passenger seat (so you could leave smelling like him).

At 9:05 you hear someone knocking at your door. You open the door to find a Tense Hollis holding a beautiful bouquet of lilies.

He extends his arm holding the flowers signaling you to grab them

“Hollis, they’re beautiful” you speak in awe

“You’re beautiful” he returns.

He holds your hands walking you down to his car, holding the door open for you to slide in. The bare minimum, I know. But it means something to you.

It’s a 15 minute drive to the pier, Hollis is playing some random playlist and listening to you talk about your day. He tells you about his studio session with roman. You like this, You both do.

When you get to the pier your eyes sparkle. It’s always a beautiful sight. There are teens running around and churro stands on every corner. You truthfully can't remember the time you were here, but standing here now brings back waves of nostalgia.

You drag him by his arm taking him into the arcade. You two are yelling at each other during the most intense game of mario cart the world has ever seen.

“REMATCH. IT’S BEST OUT OF THREE” hollis whines

“Fine but when I win you’re buying me a pizookie.”

Hollis didn't win a single round.

“I meant best out of six.” He says swiping his card at the desert stand

“yeah right.” 

you’re walking eating your well earned prize when your eyes find the biggest plushie you think you’ve ever seen.

“Hollis oh my god I need that”

It was at a basketball stand. Although he knew these games were scams he went ahead and tried anyway.

And he succeeded. 40 dollars later.

After tonight you were sure you’d have to cut sugar out of your diet for a week. You and Hollis were stuffing your faces. Deep fried oreos, churros, Fresca con crema, just anything that might’ve been even slightly sweet.

You‘ve never laughed this hard until Hollis tripped on his own two feet trying that punch machine in the arcade. You had to pretend like you didn’t know him for the next 10 minutes.

You two were tired and stuffed. You were just about ready to call it a night. You’ve rode the one roller coaster that the pier offers at least 4 times. But Hollis insisted you both go on the ferris wheel before leaving.

“Hollis let me pay for this atleast. You’ve taken care of everything else. I feel bad.”

He ignores you tapping his card then leading you into a cart.

The view was beautiful, you could never get tired of being by the ocean. You and Hollis linked hands soaking in each other's presence.

“I really like you ♡, I want to keep spending my days with you.” He admits, You feel everything else around you start to blur. You could only see him in front of you. The sound of children playing and music thumping tunes out.

“Today was really fun. Thank you for this. I really like you too, Hollis.” You smile at him, You couldn’t be happier. This felt like a dream you didn’t want to wake up from. It’s funny to think that Hollis was once someone you wouldn’t surround yourself with. Now he’s all the company you want. 

“Let’s do this again.”

a/n :: this wont be the last time we see eren so I didnt write him in for nothing dooonttt worry. Sorry i hate proof reading i cringe soo bad.

plug!hollis x reader

w/c :: 631

! :: strangers (?) to lovers , req open !

Hollis: outside 

Your heart betrays you and beats 3 times faster. You collect yourself and head towards the front door shooting Ryan one last text to be safe. You’ve gotten into the routine of Hollis shining his headlights into your face so you can detect his car. 

As you tread closer to his blacked out car you can hear ‘HEAL YOUR HEART’ by Brent Faiyaz spilling out. You climb in on the passengers side, and you’re hit with the familiar smell of weed and cologne. You drop your purse on the floor in front of you, your eyes land on your lipliner in the cupholder. Cute. 

“Hey” Your attention now on hollis 

“Hey, I knew you’d wanna leave, never should’ve went” he says teasingly 

He puts the car in reverse and starts driving to a destination you aren't aware of. 

“I know I just wanted to be a good sport”

“Put yourself first”

“I do”

“Right.”

You end up parked by the same beach where the bonfire took place. You tried to swallow the feeling in your chest. You’ve always loved the beach and for some reason, him bringing you here felt sentimental. 

It was dark, the harsh salt scented winds filled your lungs. Hollis was digging in his trunk looking for a blanket, you stood to the side hugging yourself trying to battle the coldness. Which he noticed and threw you a hoodie he had lingering in the trunk. 

You chased hollis onto the beach giggling as you tripped on the unbalanced texture of the sand. 

You dropped your stuff besides the blanket hollis set down for you two to sit on. You sat there admiring how the moonlight shaded his face and carved out his features, his hair blew alongside the wind, he had you in a trance. 

That he soon snapped you out of. 

“Should I roll up?” 

“Yeah” you say quietly. It was a beautiful night, the sound of the waves crashing filled in the silence. It was comfortable. 

“Tell me more about yourself” Hollis says randomly, pulling out his grinder. (not the app LMFAO.)

“Mmm well i’m into graphic design, I made it my side hustle for now” 

“That’s sick you should do some cover art for my next single”

“Well why not, tell me more about that”

“Me and nate whom i’m assuming you remember, are coming out with a song together”

“His music is insane..yours too I guess” you tease

He laughs in return “you think you’re funny?” He gets up and pulls you up with him

He drags you closer to the ocean, you’re screaming in protest, laughter erupts between you both 

When you get a window of freedom you try to run, Hollis runs up behind you lifting you and dropping you just where the wave meets your feet. 

You chase him back trying to splash him with water as revenge

“Loser!” He yells far back from where you two were once sitting, you roll your eyes as you take the walk of shame back to where he is.

“Fuck you” you mutter settling down besides him out of breath

He lets out a final chuckle before you both are sitting in a comfortable silence staring at the scenery in front of you.

He’s the first one to break it 

“♡ I enjoy your company, as corny as you may think it is, I do.” he pauses before continuing “And I’d love to take you out if you’d let me” 

You take a second to process what he said, then another to scan his face and tone realizing he wasn't joking. It was sudden and random like it’s been weighing on his chest for a while and he’s just not getting the courage to spit it out.

“Yeah, I’d like that.”

a/n :: i lowkey to write in you guys smoking together but fuck it we ball also lmk if this is moving to fast like damn we just got here