#nettspend x reader

— nettspend x streamer!female!yn

— smau! textfic + writing.

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ugteaspill

♫ Nothing like uuu • Nettspend

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| ugteaspill rapper nettspend responds to hateful streamer reacting to his song 👀👀

random but did she lie?

yn4president no cs who he feeling like. 😂😂

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╰ ugteaspill 👀👀

╰ nettysweatyballs cud ask uuuu the same thing hoe. 🤷‍♂️

scarsonmylatinathighs how dare she bro she's ugly 🤢

osamason 😂

╰ he2slimey ariana what are you doing here?!

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the comments on the post were nothing short of a disaster, your followers grew but your comments told a different story. all this happened to occur right while you were drafting an apology— you wanted to say sorry, because you genuinely felt bad for being so mean but after that, after being called a bitch by a man who's ego makes him think he has justin beiber level status and practically sending his dogs to call you a whore and tear up your comment section, ain't SHIT sweet fr.

if you were going to be labeled as a bitch, you were going to make sure you stood ten toes down on that title. because no matter how fine a man may be, you would NOT allow any form of bullying to come your way, and you definitely would not cower for a few misogynists.

ding!

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getting ready for the beach, you lathered your body in sunblock because protecting your skin is of utmost importance! then, you put your party outfit on over your bikini, and raided your freezer for a variety of your stocked buzzballs, stuffing them inside your totebag before locking up your apartment and taking an uber to the beach.

you and semira had taken advantage of your first summer out of high school, making beach trips at least twice a week before she would start her first college semester. she applied to be an art major, doing all your VOD thumbnails free of charge. she had urged you to fully get into youtube, but you weren't so sure about that, streaming was much easier, you didn't need to plan or script or edit anything, it was just you, the chat & your games. you felt starting a youtube channel outside of streaming might make you lose your authenticity, as it did with many youtubers. (cough cough, sturniolos.)

the afternoon wore into evening, and once you two were buzzed enough, you left for the party. once you arrived, you immediately took pictures to post, because getting hammered at paul’s parties was a set deal once you arrived.

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yn4president

♫ yummy • ayesha erotica

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| yn4president here -> 🍼 for you, slut truck

ynsfatbutt SEXY MAMASS (liked by creator)

╰ yn4president I be like, come here mamas.

miramira now who's that sexy blonde next to y/n ?? (liked by creator)

╰ rommulas ye what's her @ (liked by creator)

╰ yn4president we can set each other up with each other bsf romannn 👀 @miramira

badahhfukingfan why they so fucking fat? 😭😭

thathoeoverthere MAXLIKED.

plaqueboymax when we collabing twin?? (liked by creator)

╰ yn4president omg OMG DM MEEE

lolabtired caption has me dying 😭😭

ugfan4life whore ass bitch.

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ding!

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the party wore on smoothly, you and semira danced till your legs almost fell off, the celebratory shots were endless. as all paul’s parties were, a variety of drugs were available, it was almost disgusting, while you and semira were on the safe side, merely drinking your pants off, while people around you were smoking, snorting and ingesting things you've only heard horror stories about.

“did that guy just do a line from between salisha’s tits?” semira said, her fingers gripping your shoulders, turning you around to look towards the people she mentioned, his nose was indeed covered in a white substance, the same white substance that dusted salisha’s sternum. your eyebrows shot up, everyone in the vicinity looked wired beyond compare, it was like a college frat party.

you looked back at semira, a silent agreement passing between you that it was time to catch an uber out of there, it was the time of the night where paul’s party started being less about enjoying yourself, and more about showing the next person up, so in short, really terrible fights happened and you did NOT want to be around when the police busts down the door.

right when you were turning around, a flash of pink hair caught your eye, and the next thing you knew, a cup of pink liquid was split all over your outfit. your eyes connected with the person who had just drenched you in what smelt like watermelon and cough syrup — lean ? piercing blue eyes stared straight at you, not a word left his mouth, not an apology, just a questioning look, as if he was trying to figure out exactly why you looked so familiar. although, there was something else that lingered in his gaze, a heat you weren't quite sure of where to place.

unlike him, you clocked it immediately, the person who just bumped into you was nettspend, in fact, the interaction made you regain a semblance of sobriety. you surely did not want to linger long enough in his presence for him to recognize you, so after a few seconds of tense eye contact, you walked out the door where semira had been waiting.

“what happened to you?” she asked, looking toward your soaked top. “I got LEAN spilt on me, and guess who it was?” you said, reaching into your totebag for the pack of tissues you always keep in there. “no.” she spoke, her voice conveying her immediate guess. “yup, slut truck.” you spoke back, the tissues crinkling softly between your fingers as you wiped the now sticky mess off your top.

beep beep!

your uber arrived, but a familiar pink-haired rapper appeared in the doorway as you stepped into your car, staring at you through the car window until your uber disappeared.

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— gunner shephardson (nettspend) x reader (oneshot)

In Which you need a viral column. gunner “Nettspend” shepardson needs to look “relationship stable” for a brand deal. So when your magazine assigns you to date the internets favorite wildcard rapper and run him off within ten days for a tell-all, neither of you realize the other is playing the exact same game— him to keep you, you to lose him— until the studio lights go low and the plan stops making sense to either of you.

The Bet

Here’s the pitch you sold your editor: ten days, one viral rap wunderkind whose crowds looked like controlled riots, and a column called I Dated the Internet’s Boyfriend and Ran Him Off— A Field Guide. Gunner “nettspend” Shepardson blew up off clips of him rapping— unique lines that nobody else had said before, and now he’s got eight hundred fourteen thousand fans, songs being played repeatedly by teenage boys and girls, and a reputation for burning through situationships in under two weeks. You need clicks. He, apparently, needs the opposite.

What you don’t know yet: His manager just told him that if he can’t prove to the label he’s “relationship stable” — no scandals, no messy exes, no unhinged tour bus stories going viral for the wrong reasons — the brand deals walk. Some sneaker exec with a spreadsheet decided the rapper needed a softer edge before they’d put his face on a billboard. So the same night you’re plotting to scare him off by day ten, he’s plotting to keep you around that long if it kills him.

Neither of you mentions any of this out loud. You just start being, respectively, unbearable and suspiciously patient about it.

Day One

You cry — on command, expertly — during the trailer for a movie about a dog. He wipes your face of tears like it’s the most normal thing in the world and says, “I’ll probably cry during the actual movie. We can be criers together.” You did not account for him matching your energy.

He also, unprompted, orders you fries you didn’t ask for because “You get quiet when you’re hungry, I noticed it an hour ago.” You write unsettlingly observant in your notes app and underline it twice.

Day Two

You test the clingy-texted bit. Forty-one messages between noon and 3 p.m., each one increasingly unhinged — what are you doing right now, are you thinking about me, name a color that reminds you of me. He answers every single one, in full sentences, including a genuinely thoughtful text about why he picked the color. Your plan was to be exhausting. He treats it like music he’s excited to put out.

“Most people would’ve blocked me by the third message,” you tell him that night.

“Most people didn’t grow up with no father figure and the love for music resulting in them dropping out of school,” he says.

Day Three

You show up to his studio session uninvited with a scrapbook titled OUR STORY (VOL.1) that has exactly one photo in it, taken thirty minutes prior. His engineer nearly jumps out of his chair. His crew — four guys permanently camped on the couch — passed it around like a scripture. Gunner flipped through it slowly. “Vol. 2 when,” he says, and means it.

You linger longer than the but requires. He doesn’t seem to notice, or maybe he notices and doesn’t say anything, which is somehow worse, because it means he’s letting you stay on your own terms.

Day Four

This is the day the plan almost dies quietly and nobody mourns it.

You’re meant to pick a fight over nothing — the classic move, manufactured jealousy over a girl in his comments. Instead you end up in his kitchen at midnight, you teaching him how to make your grandmothers arroz con pollo badly, flour on both of your hands, the pot boiling over while you’re both too busy arguing about whether pineapple belongs anywhere near rice to notice. He catches your wrist mid-argument to stop you from touching the hot handle, and for a second neither of you move. His thumb rests over your pulse point like he’s checking something.

“You’re doing that thing again,” he says.

“What thing.”

“Saying at me like you forgot what you were going to say.”

You pull your hand back first. He lets you, but he’s smiling like he won something.

Day Five

You give the stuffed rabbit a name — Sir Carlton III — and insist Gunner carry him into a party full of other artists, music producers, and influencers. He does. He introduces the rabbit to three different friends of his. One of them takes a photo that ends up on a fan account within an hour, captioned he’s carrying that rabbit around like it’s his kid.

By the end of the night you’re starting to suspect the plan has a leak in it, and the leak is you not hating this.

Day Six

He counters, because apparently this is a war now. He starts a group chat called ‘family🤝’ with your mom, who he found through your unlocked phone and a truly unforgivable amount of charm. He learns your favorite orders and starts having it waiting before you even ask, which should not make your heart beat out of your chest like it does. He tells an interviewer— on record, during an interview that has nothing to do with your assignment— that you’re “the most consistent person in my life right now,” and you have to sit in your car for a full ten minutes doing damage control.

The studio becomes a crime scene. You’re supposed to be cataloguing Red Flags for the column. Instead you’re sitting cross-legged on the floor at 1 a.m. while he loops a verse he wrote — voice half buried in distortion. You know, you know, it’s about you, and you don’t say anything because saying something would mean admitting you’ve stopped trying to make it to day ten as a loss.

“You’re not even writing anymore,” he says, catching you watching him instead of your phone.

“I’m on the clock.”

“You’ve been on the clock for an hour and you haven’t even typed a word.” He rolls his chair over, slow, deliberate, closing the distance until his knees bracket yours. “What’s the real column, huh? ‘How I Tried To Ruin A Man and Accidentally—”

“Don’t even finish that sentence.”

“Accidentally,” he says anyway, quieter now, close enough that you can feel the words more than hear them, “started wanting him to ruin me instead.”

Day Seven

The editor calls, thrilled, asking for a draft early because engagement projections look insane. His manager calls him the same afternoon, thrilled, saying the label loves the “domestic era” content and wants more of it for the campaign. You’re both being congratulated for a lie neither of you is entirely lying about anymore, and it sits wrong in your stomach the whole night.

At a show that evening you watch him from the side stage, watching people in the crowd jump around and sing his lyrics back to him, and when he finds you mid-set — sweat-soaked, breathless, grinning like he clocked exactly where you’d be standing before he even walked on stage — something in your chest just gives up arguing with itself.

Backstage after, he’s still riding the adrenaline, pulling you in by the waist before you can even greet him. “You came.”

“I have an assignment.”

“Say that again with your hand not up my shirt like that and I'll believe you.” He’s laughing, but his eyes have gone serious underneath it, tracking your face like he’s trying to memorize an answer to a question he hasn’t asked yet.

Day Eight

It rains, obviously, because the universe has a sense of humor. You end up stuck at his place waiting it out, and the conversation goes somewhere neither bit prepared you for.

“I gotta tell you something,” he says, staring at the ceiling, both of you sharing one side of the couch and pretending like the space is bigger than it is. “This whole thing — some of it wasn’t just me being me. The label needed me to look settled. Brand deals tied to it.”

You go very still. “So none of it was—”

“Wasn’t planned to feel like this,” He cuts in, sitting up. “Started as strategy. Stopped being strategy around day three, I think. Somewhere between the scrapbook and the rabbit gaining attention.”

You could tell him the truth right now. The column, the bet, the whole premise. The words are right there. Instead you say, “Same,” because it’s true, and because you’re a coward about the rest of it, and he takes your hand like that’s enough for tonight.

Day Nine

It almost falls apart. Your editor texts you asking for the “reveal” angle, forgetting to check who’s in the room when your phone lights up on the studio counter. Gunner doesn’t read it — you’d swear he doesn’t — but you spend the rest of the session with your heart in your throat, calculating how much time you have left to tell him yourself before someone else does it for you.

You corner him outside, finally, words tumbling out messier than you rehearsed them a hundred times in your head. The column. The assignment. Day ten deadline. His face doesn’t do what you expected — not anger, just a slow, knowing exhale.

“I know,” he says. “Found out on day four. My publicist flagged the assignment before you even texted me back the first time.”

“You knew—”

“And kept showing up anyway,” he says. “Same as you.”

Day Ten

Neither of you bring up the deadline. You just end up back in the booth where this all started, past midnight, verses looping in the background like it was waiting for you both to catch up to it.

“You’re not writing notes anymore,” he says again, echoing day six on purpose, watching you instead of the sound board.

“Never was, really.”

He rolls his chair over, slow, deliberate, closing the distance until his knees bracket yours, same as before, except this time there’s no but left to hide behind. “What’s the real column, then?”

“Working title,” you say, voice not quite steady, “‘How I Tried to Ruin a Man and Accidentally Let Him Ruin Me Instead’”

“Better title,” he murmurs, thumb tracing along your jaw, tilting your face up to his.

When he kisses you it’s nothing like the performance either of you planned for — it’s unhurried and certain, one of his hands sliding to the small of your back to pull you off the chair and into his lap like the space between you had personally offended him. You forget about the column. You forget about the bet. You definitely forget about Sir Carlton III, who witnesses everything from the console and keeps his opinions to himself for once.

“This is a bad career move,” he mutters against your mouth, not stopping.

“Extremely.”

“Day ten,” he says. “Deadline’s tonight. You still trynna lose me?”

Your fingers curl into the collar of his hoodie, dragging him back in before you answer, because some questions don’t need words — they need you not letting go, his laugh low and warm against your lips, the studio door very much still unlocked and neither of you caring even a little.

You don’t finish the column. You start something you don’t have a word for yet, and for once, that’s the whole story.

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@/ petalzips intro .ᐟ

hello everypony .ᐟ black | 18 | writer

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texts+writing

after hanging up on gunner almost immediately because listening to him apologize over and over got irritating real quick you canceled all your appointments and just tried to enjoy the day with amira even with everything that was going on because the public would eventually forget this and move onto someone else just like they always do

“what did he wanna talk about”

“just how he was sorry and didn’t think anything like thsi would happen”

“y/n don’t piss me off he didn’t think anything would happen?”

“i mean that’s what he’s saying” “enough about him tho what’re we gonna do all day”

she called you over to sit next to her so the two of you could decide the rest of the afternoon ended up being perfect

amira dragged you to the flea market insisting she’d find something life changing after only for her to leave with a candle the size of your head

after the two of you grabbed iced coffees and wandered through a little boon store by the time you found a bench your drinks were almost gone

“i think i won today's shopping trip” amira said nudging your shoulder

“all you bought was a candle”

“a very nice candle” she rolled her eyes before bumping into you again all day neither of you went on your phones or worried about what was happening online it was just the two of you having fun

“sleep over at my house tonight?” you asked

“yes babe”

you two get home get comfortable and watch your favorite movie but amira falls asleep halfway through so your just left to watch the rest by yourself until you get a text

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@gabisohot @y-yasminn @2amthoughtsclub @nothinlikeuuu @swishersm0ker420 @444-saira-444 @the-sleepless-crow

sorry this took so long also xavier is being overly dramatic rn he is not crying that hard he just needs to convince us to come over

— nettspend x streamer!female!yn

— smau! textfic + writing.

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repentful went live 3 minutes ago.

“ welcome in, chat! ” you great as your usual viewers start tuning in, the viewer count climbing gradually. your stream today was an interactive event, you planned to rate your subscribers’ favourite songs, they were promoted to send clips / snippets of the songs in your discord chat, and so they did. there were hundreds of clips sent by the time the stream reached it's peak, as you already announced the stream agenda before hand.

you reacted to about 30 songs, randomly selecting clips while reacting to them, giving them your personal critique, praise, or just clowning the song alongside the chat as there had been a few troll clips with dax or KSI songs.

tears ran down your eyes as you laughed at some of the selections, the jokes produced in the chat sometimes far funnier than the songs. then, you clicked a clip that read: nothing like uuu – nettspend.

the caption on the clip was ‘bro really sampled boo’d up 😭🙏’

“alright chat, tell me about nettspend before we react, are they good?” you ask them, cursor hovering over the play button.

┃ynsfatbutt 💟 HE'S ASS

┃gojogooner broooo, his lyrics straight BS

┃user6767 he's so fine 🤤🤤

┃ongriley beat fire till nettspend raps

┃jennietaylorsversion bro raps against the beat

┃gunnergoat 💟 DON'T LISTEN TO THEM, HIS MUSIC IS SO PEAK.

┃iluvtheweeknd Hating on nettspend in the big 26

you lean in to read the chat, squinting as the stream moves by fast. “ ‘user 67 said he's fine’ should we watch an edit first ?” you ask, to which most of the chat responds yes. you pull out your phone, quickly searching ‘nettspend edit’, you share your screen and play the edit.

the edit is to million dollar man by lana del rey, and it starts off with him saying he's from richmond virginia. “ouu! he is fine. DAMN.” you say, stopping yourself from scrolling any further in case his song pops up. “okay, sexy check done, now let's see if his sound is any good, I have high hopes, you guys must be haters for real.”

you play the clip on the discord, and boo’d up starts, you nod your head, genuinely enjoying the beat and how it transitioned into nettspend’s song, your hopes were indeed high— until after the producer tag. after the first lyric, you fought against your own soul not to laugh, he indeed sounded, to you, as if he was wrestling the beat.

after the ‘slut truck’ line, you could no longer hold back, letting out a loud laugh as you paused the clip. “holy shit, no this is genuinely ass, I thought you guys put me on but what the fuuck. how is he famous? has to be pretty privilege, the fuck?” you say, wiping your tears. “the last line is hard, but slut truck? fuck dude, that was buttcheeks.”

your chat once again explodes with mixture, some people disappointed with your reaction, others laughing with and spurring you on, the stream eventually ends and everything settles, until you receive a text from your best friend.

afted texting semira, you decide to check what was actually going on, your instagram was blowing up, comments a mixture of love, hate, and people telling you to search nettspend up on twitter. which you did.

oh?

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— hope y'all enjoyed lol, I'm very lazy to start a taglist, but if anyone wants to be tagged, I will.

in which gunner spends the day spoiling reader. (lowkey giving sugar daddy, but who wouldn’t want that???!)

the custom place doesn’t even have a sign. that’s the first thing you notice— just a black door on a quiet street, buzzed with no label, and gunner hitting it three times fast like it’s some type of code he’s used before.

“how do you even know about this place.”

“i know a lot ma.” he’s got sunglasses pushed up into his fading hair, hood down, hands stuffed in his pockets, rocking in his heels the way he does when he’s excited and trying not to let it show too much. “a guy i know knows a guy. everybody knows a guy. that’s just how it works in the industry mama.”

the doos opens before you can ask any questions. a woman in all black, silver rings stacked up both hands, looks at gunner like she’s seen him do this exact bit before.

“hmm. you’re early,” she says.

“i’m never early.” he grins. “this is a special occasion.”

she looks at you next, asserting in a way that isn’t unkind, just thorough— the way someone looks at a person when they’re trying to build something around them.

“come in, then. let’s see what we’re working with.”

━━━

inside it’s all soft light and velvet trays, sketchpads stacked on a worktable, loose stones in little dishes like candy. gunner drops into a chair like he owns the place— again— and pulls you down into the one next to him, close enough that his knee stays pressed against yours the whole time, a low-grade hum of contact he doesn’t seem to register as a choice anymore. it’s just where his knee goes nowadays. right next to yours.

“okay,” the woman says, sliding a sketchpad over. “talk to me. what exactly are we looking to build?”

“something for her,” gunner says, immediate, like it’s the only possible answer to any question asked in this room. “ring, maybe. or a pendent. i don’t know yet. that’s your job.”

“that’s helpful,” she says dryly.

“i’m a big-picture guy.” he taps his temple. “you’re the details guy. girl. details person.”

you watch her fight a smile and lose. “okay big-picture guy. what’s the vibe.”

he goes quiet for a second— radio silence, thinking, which is rarer than he’d ever admit— glancing over at you like the answer’s written somewhere on your face if he looks long enough.

“something that looks like her,” he says finally. “not, like— i don’t know how to say it without sounding stupid.”

“just says it. it doesn’t matter if it sounds stupid,” you tell him. “sometime i like stupid.”

he huffs a laugh, some of the tension easing out of his shoulders. “okay. something that looks like— when she laughs at something dumb i said and tries not to. that type of energy. you feel me?”

the woman looks at you, then at him, something unreadable and a little soft crossing her face before she picks her pen back up. “i feel you. just give me a minute.”

━━━

while she sketches, gunner gets restless— like always when he’s not the one talking— spinning slow in his chair, picking up loose stones and holding them up to the light, narrating everything under his breath like commentary only you’re meant to hear.

“that one’s ugly as fuck,” he whispers about a pale citrine. “that one thinks it’s better than everybody else.” a garnet. “that one’s this close to looking being you, actually—” holding up a deep red stone, tilting it, catching how the light catches it against your hand when he grabs it and holds it there without asking.

“gun you’re not even looking at the stone anymore.”

“i’m looking at the comparison mama, i need to make sure.” he sets it down, but his hand stays over yours a second longer than the bit requires. “everything in here’s fine. nothing wins against the control group.”

“that’s not how science works by the way.”

“it is when i’m doing it.”

that one somehow landed the right way, like his instincts work better when he’s not trying.

when the woman turns the final sketch around to show you both, he goes quiet again. really quiet. leans in close, arms over your shoulders, chin practically on you, studying it like it’s a test he needed to pass.

“i picked the vibe. miss executive decision-maker.” he taps the sketch, then taps your hand, like he’s signing off on both at once. “we’ll take it. how long?”

“two weeks, give or take.”

“two weeks.” he looks genuinely wounded by this, dramatic hand over his heart. “that’s crime time.”

“that’s jewelry-making time.”

“feels like crime time.”

━━━

outside, the sky’s gone that late orange color, and he doesn’t reach for his phone or his keys right away— just stand there for a second, hands in his pockets, looking at you instead of the door.

“you didn’t have to come with me,” he says. “to the whole thing. i could’ve just shown up with it done.”

“i wanted to come.”

“yeah, but.” he shrugs, a little sheepish, which doesn’t happen often— the performance dropping out of him in real time, no audience left to keep it up for. “i like it better this way. not just handing you something that was finished in private. like— you were there. you know? you got to be there for something being worked on for you. feels more like it’s actually coming from me and not just, i don’t know. a transaction.”

“everything you buy me is a transaction, gunner. you bought me six things today alone.”

“that’s different.” he says it fast, sure of himself again, grin sliding back into place like it never left. “that’s just tuesday. this—” he nods back at the black door, no sign, no name “— this one’s gonna mean something. when it’s done. you’ll see ma.”

he finally reaches for your hand instead of his keys, lacing his fingers through yours the same easy way he does every other time, like it costs nothing and means everything at the same time.

“c’mon,” he says. “i’m hungry as fuck, and i know you are too.”

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ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀꜱ ɴᴏᴛᴇ: got bored and started this last night at the pool😓