nobody will ever do enemies to lovers the way zutara (almost) did i will go down with this ship i will be 84 years old on my deathbed pronouncing my last words: “zutara was real to me”

one toxic trait i have is that i pretend ace is still alive i seriously don’t care about marineford he’s alive guys i just watch every new one piece arc and pretend he’s alive it’s not even pretending my mind just doesn’t picture him as dead life is bright spring has come sometimes it’s better to delude yourself into thinking whatever you want

the romantic implications behind satosugu are actually insane what was gege smoking dear lord what do you mean gojo could recognize geto’s smell after a billion years apart what do you mean ”my six eyes tell me you’re geto suguru but my soul knows otherwise?” what do you mean love is the most twisted curse of all and “suguru, ________” what do you mean geto was gojo’s moral compass until death what do you mean “if you were among those patting my back... then i might've been satisfied" and a quiet tear falling from geto’s eye wait what do you mean geto was the only one who questioned gojo’s title as the strongest sorcerer what do you meannnnnnnnnn

jeremy knox is so strong if i had a tall french guy with broad shoulders and beautiful eyes calling me jéremie i would be dead

shane being unable to stop smiling when he’s kissing ilya up the stairs of his apartment vs shane having to force himself to go up those same stairs with rose…….. shane asking for ginger ale in two different places and never getting it vs shane being handed cold ginger ale by ilya without even having to ask……

whatever you do don’t think about ilya snapping at shane on that rooftop when shane asks him what’s wrong and then immediately feeling bad about it and trying to actually open up for the first time by saying “i go home in three days” only for shane to not get what he’s trying to say at all and telling him that it “must be nice.” ilya is both scared to be honest and also unable to do so because english feels like a barrier to him, he just can’t seem to find the right words and it’s even harder to have to try.

the bathroom scene in the tv show is a hundred times more devastating than in the books. shane is so angry at ilya but he misses him more than he resents him, so he unfolds under his touch and looks at him with a yearning so entrancing you can't look away. ilya has been pretending for months, sort of encouraged by the thought that maybe he's the only one between the two of them battling scary desires, but shane's unexpected reaction wipes the cocky smirk off his face and the way ilya teases and calls him boring is his attempt at lifting the mood when all he can see are shane's glossy eyes. but shane is not the only yearner in that bathroom, he's simply the one who wears that feeling on his sleeve. the fact that ilya could run away again but instead chooses to tease shane and not resist the sudden urge to kiss him says a lot about how difficult it is for ilya to truly distance himself from shane when they're actually physically close. as long as he's on the other side of the world he can pull it off, but when they're in that bathroom he knows he can't do much about the way he feels. when they're in his suite he tries again, creates distance between them during sex. they don't even kiss. it's obviously no good at this point of their arrangement, they're both in too deep.

when i can’t tell him our souls are inexplicably linked to one another so i pick a fight with him instead

i sometimes think about that one tear falling from suguru’s eye when he’s talking with satoru in the afterlife and satoru tells him the only scenario in which he would have really been satisfied with the way things went was a scenario where suguru never left his side (i think he’s always expecting gojo to curse him out but it just never happens because gojo thinks of him most fondly and suguru is consistently overwhelmed by that affection after everything that’s happened)