A STUDY IN: How cults are formed, toxic masculinity, delusions of grandeur, god / savior complex, trying to find a purpose in the world, anger that never seems to settle, manipulating others for your own gain, slowly losing touch with yourself and reality, generational trauma, & disguising your self hatred in pride and ego.
A private & highly-selective, heavily canon-divergent & headcanon based, mutuals-only, 21+ Kai Anderson from FX's Amer.ican Horr.or Story: Cult roleplay blog. I am very anti-Rya.n Murp.hy & have rewritten plot points & characterization of my own personal headcanons to make it my own you can read about the specifics here & here. Please read my rules and info before interacting/following. I am crossover and OC friendly and I have many different verses both other AHS seasons and just random fandoms or ideas alike!
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đđđđđđđđđ  at  his  own  suggestion  shows  through  on  his  features  for  a  brief  moment  as  kai's  anger  breaks  into  laughter.  still  he  is  displeased  about  the  meadow  situation,  though  he  does  not  show  it.  kai  will  do  what  he  thinks  is  best  &  michael  will  be  in  the  wings  waiting  to  clean  up  any  potential  fall  out.  he  does  not  begrudge  his  position  however,  he  does  it  gladly  out  of  genuine  care  for  kai.  he  sees  the  man  in  front  of  him  for  all  he  is,  flaws  included,  just  as  kai  sees  all  of  him  in  return.
"  very  well,  i  trust  you  even  if  i  do  not  trust  her.  "  he  let  his  eyes  flutter  closed  for  a  moment,  simply  enjoying  the  closeness  that  they  shared.  at  kai's  response  to  his  offer  he  nods,  eyes  opening  once  more.  "  that  may  be  for  the  best.  "  he  finds  himself  reaching  for  kai's  hand,  fingers  tangling  together  before  he  speaks  once  more.  "  a  miracle  ?  "
he  has  his  concerns,  mostly  with  trusting  anyone  but  himself  with  the  matter  though  he  knew  that  once  kai  had  made  up  his  mind  there  was  little  he  could  do  to  sway  him  from  that  path.  still,  he  would  be  waiting  in  the  wings  to  ensure  kai's  safety,  as  he  always  did.  perhaps  though  he  could  find  a  way  to  get  rid  of  meadow  in  the  process.
" I would never ask you to trust someone like her. " Kai quietly speaks in reply, closing his eyes momentarily with him to bask in the WARMTH and gentle, caring touches that Michael provides. It's almost strange to think about the Antichrist being gentle with anyone when all the stories from media and religion alike speak about the idea of him with such vitriol. Kai however, has never once shown fear or disgust in Michael's presence. When his fingers slot between his, he opens his eyes again to stare DEEP into his partner's. There's a flicker of something behind his dark gaze that indicates his growing eagerness for this upcoming plan that's hatching in his racing mind. " Think about it, this nation loses their ever-loving shit over Christian metaphors. So I'm going to give them that. An execution, a resurrection in front of their very eyes. "
The cult leader's fingers idly DANCE against Michael's brushing over his knuckles while his thumb does the same to the palm of his hand. After a while Kai brings his partner's hand to his mouth, tenderly pressing his lips against the back of it. " Let's see them just try resisting voting for someone who faced down an inevitable death and survived. "
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EROS :  scornful jealousy ⹠pink ⹠presents a certain decorum ⹠heavy air in a nightclub ⹠has a tattoo they regret ⹠sex & love therapist for their friends ⹠juvenescent ⹠uses enchantments ⹠aloof ⹠wears rose-colored glasses ⹠velvet, latex, & lingerie  ⹠milk baths with champagne bubbles ⹠impetuous in love ⹠intense eye contact is a sport ⹠kinky ⹠soft lips ⹠wears stacked rings ⹠sets fashion trends ⹠graceful movements ⹠marble floors ⹠heavy perfume or cologne ⹠deeply emotional ⹠born glamorous
HECATE :Â Â prefers canine companions âą wears symbolic jewelry âą can see spirits âą melting wax âą uses hexes âą feels most comfortable at night âą smell of cinnamon âą moonlight âą red wine âą understands poisons & herbs âą collects bones or feathers âą partakes in rituals âą black âą fog at night âą is aware of their shadow self âą embraces the unknown âą enjoys collecting secrets âą approves of necromancy âą meditates âą has prophetic dreams âą lace âą knowing too many secrets âą fishnet stockings Â
PAN :  enjoys poetry & prose ⹠wool ⹠smell of decaying leaves in autumn ⹠prefers to be barefoot ⹠tends to overindulge ⹠easily excitable ⹠thriving in social circles ⹠loves being around campfire  ⹠antlers ⹠dirt paths ⹠the sound of wind chimes ⹠penchant for sticky fingers ⹠pine trees ⹠stamina for days ⹠falls in lust ⹠vagabond ⹠physically stronger than given credit for ⹠foxglove ⹠welcomes luxury ⹠non-confrontational ⹠charming words ⹠talking to animals ⹠nature for jewelry
NEMESIS :Â Â angry âą protective of their values âą balance & harmony âą looks like an angel but isnât âą more perceptive than people realize âą snow capped mountains âą grey âą wears leather âą silver jewelry âą likes snakes âą canât stand ignorance âą believes in retribution âą analytical of own emotions âą well read âą marble columns âą has very rigid morals âą bruised knuckles âą humorous under the sarcasm âą clean workspace âą everything in moderation âą cold morning air âą resting glare face âą fluent in curse words
HYPNOS :Â Â serene demeanor âą easily overwhelmed âą relaxation is their vice âą transactional friendships âą has a soft voice âą head in the clouds âą carries drugs with them âą has a sibling theyâre close with âą drawn to winged animals âą lavender âą has plush furniture/blankets âą starry-eyed âą horrible money management âą gives amazing hugs âą dreaming big as a full time job âą wears comfy or loose clothes âą existential questions âą not good at memory-based skills âą fairy lights âą canât sleep somewhere unfamiliar âą crystalline chandeliers âą dislikes bright sun âą fluttering eyelashes Â
IRIS :Â Â lifeâs a technicolor spectrum âą has a lot to say âą beaming smiles âą always has candy with them âą flirting by accident âą walking to the beat of their own drum âą gossamer curtains âą has a surprising amount of connections âą blushes very easily âą confident laughter âą uses a staff âą fresh fruit slices âą decorated handwritten letters âą a social chameleon âą blood made of honey âą treating people with kindness âą sentimental heart âą vases full of wildflowers âą feels fulfilled when helping others âą has a healing aura âą always travelling âą stained glass windows âą just trying to be a good person Â
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Kai sits in his chair, thumb pressed below his chin as his leg bounces at a QUICK pace. He was obviously about to go off, one more doubtful comment from anyone and he would explode with a relentless fury. When Michael speaks, a small smile suddenly replaces the scowl BURNING at the corners of Kai's mouth, drawing his lips upward when he listens to him talk with an authoritative tone at the rest of the group. The cult leader's hand drops to his knee before he gradually rises to his feet, making eye contact with him and nodding slightly. " Thank you, Michael. Good to know that some of you still believe in what we're doing here. "
He makes his way around the basement floor, his footsteps heavy with every step he takes like a LUMBERING animal until he takes a deep breath and stops to look down at a few of the cult members sitting on the couch. " This is only the beginning of something bigger than any of you can even wrap your minds around. So, if any of you think can't handle it? The door is right up there. " Kai gives an absentminded gesture of his hand pointing to the staircase. Of course, if anyone actually took him up on that offer they wouldn't be leaving the Anderson residence ALIVE. They seem to know that truth too because nobody dares moves an inch.
" I have no use for weakness, I have no time for doubters! " His voice raises harshly as he glares at the row of followers, taking a step back to stand next to Michael where his fingers lightly BRUSH up against his shoulder. " When you go home tonight, I want you to think on that. How you are all are making a difference here, this is goddamn history in the making. By tomorrow I hope that we'll all be on the same fucking page again. "
đČđđ»đ đžđœđ”đŸ : Under the cut contains all the canon-divergencies/headcanons I've implemented into how the cult works so far for my portrayal. If you haven't read about Kai's personal divergencies read this post here. Things can be added or changed in the future as I see fit. If you have any questions regarding these or anything else feel free to ask & I'll clarify! This is going to be LONG I yapped a lot so strap in.
Goals & Beliefs. The Fear is Truth (FIT) Cult is dedicated to spreading fear and chaos by way of various crimes, most notably murder while donning clown masks. They believe a revolution is in order, that the modern world should be burned down and rid of its government and social structures in order to rebuild something new where people donât have to be needlessly afraid or suffer anymore, where they can work together instead of being divided. They think the only way to achieve this is to follow their âDivine Rulerâ and help him gain the position of power in the town. He is more or less looked to as a god.
Recruitment. The only person that can officially recruit anyone into the cult is, of course, Kai himself. He will normally stalk the person of interest for a few weeks before planting himself or another member of the cult into their lives. People can also be recruited online, but this is very rarely through Kai personally doing it himself and reaching out to people. Itâs mostly its own little community across the globe that adopts the message and goal of the cult, the website and its members are closely monitored by Kai.Â
The Promise. This is what is formerly known in canon as âpinky power.â This is a special ritual / tactic used to garner more personal information about someone and to get emotionally connected with them. Itâs also used as a sort of confessional and/or therapeutic session at any point Kai sees fit to call on one of the followers to sit down and do so with him. He can use it to get them mentally and emotionally vulnerable as a gauge to know what theyâre really feeling and to see if their loyalties still lie with him and the movement. This is all done through interlocking pinky fingers in a pinky promise gesture, once physical contact has been made all questions asked by Kai must be answered and everything thatâs said must be the full, brutal truth. Itâs very commonly used in the initiation process. This was formerly an exercise that Vincent used for Kai, and that Kai then passed down to using with Winter so they could have a safe space to vent out their fears, frustrations, sadness, secrets, etc.Â
Symbols.Â
The hexagon symbol is inspired from the shape of honeycomb and therefore its meaning is very much tied to the bees & bee colony analogies Kai uses for the cult. No one is useless or worthless, they all have duties that help keep the hive alive and strong no matter how small of a task. Cult members, once theyâve proven themselves, are all given a stick and poke tattoo of this symbol (Kai has his on the right shoulder.)Â
The clown smiley face symbol  is usually painted in their victimâs blood somewhere in the crime scene as a way to mark their territory as it were. Future victimâs houses can have this symbol painted outside as a way to warn them theyâre next to die or, more commonly, just to frighten people in the residence into believing they will be. This symbol originated from Kaiâs old high school doodles that heâd draw over and over again in his notebook when he was bored.
Rituals. Note that not all of these are done daily / often and some of them do not exist until after Kai wins the city council election and gets more of a taste of power:
Meetings, These are held on a near daily basis and can be called at any time Kai sees fit, even if itâs inconvenient for others. They range from being about plans for his political campaign to going over who and how they plan on killing or terrorizing.
Prayer, The hexagon symbol is smeared onto his followers' throats with Kai's own blood where he pricks one of his fingers. While he stands at the front of the room, they get to their hands and knees, pressing their foreheads to it and chanting the 'Divine Ruler' title while Kai gives what could be considered a sermon, usually repeating the same things like he does in meetings to get everyone hyped up.
Sacrifice, "Sacrifices need to be made to pave the way for progress." Kai calls for at least one kill to be made every month in order to instill loyalties and intimidation over his followers. The sacrifice can either be one of the cult members (who he prefers that they offer themselves up gladly) or a person that has wronged one of the members of the cult in some way.
Enlightenment, A ritual in which each member of the cult is given a dose of the honey they sell thatâs laced with DMT. They are then blindfolded and told to either sit or lie down in any spot in the basement they feel comfortable with (sleeping cots, blankets, pillows are provided.) They are encouraged to explain all that they see and feel during their trips.Â
Body Cleansing, To âRemain strong, healthy, and alertâ, members have a full week in which they have to fast for three days and then only eat vegetation, fruits, and lean proteins with no junk food for four more days. All the while having some sort of daily exercise. This, unsurprisingly, does not extend to Kai.Â
Pain Sharing, To show them that he âTakes their pain from them and carries itâ members are pierced, cut, or burned non-fatally. Kai then does the same to himself in whatever area that he injures them.Â
Punishments. Those who are unlucky enough to face Kaiâs wrath through whatever reason can be subjected to various degrees of punishment depending on the severity of what was done. A couple of examples of some of these punishments are as followed:
 Isolation, In which most of the individualâs senses are taken away by tying their arms and legs, gagging and blindfolding them. They are then locked in a closet for an undetermined amount of time until Kai decides to release them. If they are locked in there for a long period of time they are provided water every so often, but no meals.Â
Humiliation, While humiliating people and being humiliated is something Kai loathes, that's what makes this particular punishment even crueler. The individual is forced to endure humiliation by means of making them clean up the house with insufficient supplies, wearing something embarrassing out in public while performing daily tasks, picking up trash off the side of the road, or other members of the cult are told to treat the punished poorly and make them do their bidding.Â
Sex. This is less of a ritual and more of a tactic Kai implements to gain trust from his followers and to make them feel loved and special. Kai will gladly do this with both the women and men and anyone in between. Sometimes orgies do occur to encourage carnal desires among his followers, but it is not required that everyone in the cult participates and itâs never done without Kai being actively involved. This is also always done with explicit consent given by every participant.Â
Housing. Itâs no secret that the Anderson home is quite spacious. While itâs no mansion, it has the space to comfortably house several members of the cult if theyâre struggling financially (example: Harrison and Meadow) until they can get back on their feet or Kai decides to use his own money to help them rent a place. In rare cases some may even be invited to move in as a permanent resident. However, no one is allowed to stay nor wander on the upstairs floor unless given permission or they have Kai or Winter accompanying them.Â
Hierarchy. While there are no set ranks in the cult and no one is ever of higher or equal authority than Kai in the cult, Winter is the closest. She holds a very important right hand man sort of role to her brother. Sheâs his most trusted and therefore helps with the recruitment of new members as well as being the one to make sure things go smoothly if they have to kill someone without Kai being present. Members like Beverly and Detective Samuels while not holding any leadership roles within the cult, are still well-respected and help to keep up public appearance and reputation whether it be through news coverage of the murders & Kaiâs tv spots, hiding any evidence left at the crime scenes, or keeping the police in good graces with Kai in general. Then thereâs members like Meadow and Harrison actively participating within the community through selling of goods like the honey or clothing at the farmerâs market, volunteer work, etc. and are usually on the lookout for potential new members to report back to Kai. Once Kai gets elected to the city council position, some select new people who join into the cult act as sort of body guards / soldiers, their duty is to protect Kai and/or whoever else he chooses.Â
Online Presence. Kai is the only one that manages anything about the cult thatâs put out onto the internet, using his knowledge of coding and content on the dark web to his advantage. While he does post some things occasionally off the dark web (mostly cryptic Yo.uTu.be videos, Red.dit posts, or Twi.tt.er posts), the main page for the cult is difficult to find and even when one does, the site first appears as innocuous and is chalk full of computer viruses. If one is knowledgeable enough to bypass that, they will be taken to an information page about the cultâs mission, a couple of videos of the cultâs murders that Kai had filmed, and a message board which is as stated before, heavily monitored by Kai. After Kaiâs death, the website domain is purchased by a loyal follower and an eventual link to a published book containing the contents of Kaiâs journals he wrote in prison is posted.
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the office light of her desk is almost enough to irritate her headache. between various papers spread across her desk, file folders, and notes. between the actual paperwork and dealing with the numerous connections that require constant communication, sheâs exhausted and tired. and about ready to call it a night. sheâd much rather prefer her silk sheets over the comfortableness of falling asleep at her desk. again. itâs been quiet for so long, thereâs a bit of a jostle when kai knocks at her door a few times before slipping into her office. â i thought you left hours ago - ? â voice is almost quiet, a shift from her usual demanding overtone.
thereâs the sudden warmth of a person next to her, and desdemona is quiet for a moment, anxiety pitting into her stomach. his fingers are grazing against her skin, and itâs hard to fight the goosebumps that threaten to erupt on her arms. sheâs been so focused on this â on her own desires and wants at least on the corporate ladder sheâs been ignoring everything else. â i was just about finished wit - â her hands are lightly brushing against some of the papers on her desk. but his lips are on hers. words die off in her throat and after a second of hesitation, her hand is once more familiarly pulling him by the center of his shirt closer to her. ' is that the only way you know how to say thank you ? or is there more - ? '
The hand LINGERS on her cheek, his body humming with heat and excitement as Desdemona grabs his shirt and pulls him closer. A quiet sound of disappointment leaves him however when she interrupts the kiss to speak. There's been TENSION between them for a long time, most of their conversations teetering on the fine line of flirtatious and hostile. Kai knew what was coming tomorrow, knew that his plan would most likely cinch his victory into place. He wouldn't be telling Des about it though, he wanted her to be in the dark about certain things. Not to mention he was admittedly CURIOUS to see what her reaction would be to him having such a close brush with death.
" Well, you're not getting a pay raise if that's what you're after, Ms. Godfrey. I already pay you more than fairly. " Kai simpers, his other hand goes to travel GRADUALLY down her arm, feeling the smooth, expensive material of her suit jacket. " I see you, Des...you work your ass off with hardly any appreciation from the people around you. You push away any sort of help because you think you'll be seen as weak. Let me relieve you of all of it for just one night. "
The law firm is EMPTY save for Desdemona's light shining through the blinds she has closed up in her office. Kai raps his knuckles against the slightly cracked door a few times before he pushes it open all the way. " Hey, I was heading back to my place, thought I'd see if you were still here. " Kai explains his presence with a quick smile, closing the door behind him and walking right up to her at her desk, HOVERING right over her shoulder with no regards to personal space. " I wanted to thank you before I have my last rally before the election tomorrow. "
His warm breath slowly ghosts over her neck and he reaches over to lightly touch her cheek and guide her head in his direction. Their eyes meet Kai waits a beat to see if Desdemona's reaction is going to be one of DISGUST or not. When he searches her expression and finds none, he closes the very little distance between them, pressing an eager kiss to her lips.
@chaoswon asked: finally the two of them are left in peace as the inner most members of the cult shuffled out of the basement quietly. michael was fairly indifferent towards most of them, but his patience was being severely tested at the present moment. he simply wanted some time for the two of them. he moves taking a seat in kai's lap with practiced ease before he lifts his chin to meet the cult leader's dark gaze. " i do hope this means i have you all to myself now. "
He can sense the mounting annoyance in his partner without even having to turn to observe him. Not that he could really blame him, Kai was ITCHING for some time alone with Michael as well and it seemed like the universe was purposefully throwing everything at them to PREVENT it today. A soft hum escapes him though as the other climbs into his lap and the sound of footsteps gradually ascending the basement stairs finally eases into blissful silence.
One of his arms finds its home as it always does around Michael's waist and his other hand reaches up to tuck a strand of long, silky hair behind his ear. The cult leader's dark eyes have a rare flicker of LIGHT behind them when his chin is tilted up, a roguish smile breaking across his features at the words. " Oh, man. You poor thing, having to live without being in your favorite seat for...not even one whole day. " Kai teases in a sarcastic tone, brushing his thumb affectionately at the corner of Michael's mouth. " You have me now. " He confirms in a much more sincere tone, moving in and capturing his mouth with his for a kiss.
â i will have it handled as long as they stop being sloppy. you getting paranoid every twenty four hours does not help the âi have something to hideâ look. bâ annoyance is clear across her face, grabbing the front of his shirt to pull him into her office. the door with her name etched into it closed behind them. sheâs letting go of him in favor of closing the blinds.
sheâs leaning against the edge of her desk as arms fold over her chest. â i need you to remember that i chose to help you. i am not as stupid as samuels or any one else beneath you. donât use that tone with me unless you want me to squash you under my heel and make all your effort and mine be for nothing. â
Kai barely has any time to respond to her, only able to open his mouth and let out a WORDLESS breath before her hand is gripped into his shirt and he's pulled into her office. She'd be getting an earful of complaints for that move if it weren't for her scolding actually managing to get through to the cult leader somewhat. He needed to not make a scene, especially here where someone of importance could easily overhear their BICKERING if they truly wanted to listen in.
When the blinds are closed and Desdemona leans on her desk, he takes a seat in one of the chairs in front of her desk, crossing his own arms and letting out a huff of frustration almost akin to a petulant child's behavior. " I don't mean to sound ungrateful for your help. You've been an invaluable part of this. " Teeth grind together as he forces himself to cater to her ego, to make sure he doesn't cross a line and make her up and decide that she'd be BETTER off telling authorities about his less than legal activities. " Is there anything I can do to win back their favor? If we let the rumors fester who knows what it'll snowball into in the next few weeks. "
Kai MESSILY grabs a majority of his hair and pulls it back to fashion a man bun as he stands next to the beehive, some of the insects fly and buzz about but none take to turning aggressive at his presence. He really should be wearing the suit and gloves for this, Harrison's told him to do so on SEVERAL occasions but still he did not listen. A few stings were nothing for him to ever worry over.
" First I need you to set this over there on the table and then I need you to lift the cover up on this for me, slowly. " He instructs, handing off a lidless glass jar to Michael and waiting until he's done his first task before he readies himself for the other to lift the hive's cover to EXPOSE the honeycomb on the frames. " They really are amazing aren't they? To think a creature so small, seemingly insignificant, is one of the most important things keeping us alive. "
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đđđđđđđđđđ  quickly  fading  as  the  source  of  it  quickly  bled  out  at  his  feet,  his  blue  green  eyes  gazed  impassively  down  at  the  cultist  who  had  become  his  latest  meal.  incompetence  was  something  he  could  not  tolerate,  especially  in  the  later  stages  of  their  plan.  normally  he  preferred  to  deal  with  problems  in  a  more  private  setting  if  only  to  hide  his  more  beastly  reactions.  however  this  time  he  simply  could  not  restrain  himself.
he  is  aware  of  people  silently  looking  on  in  horror,  most  taking  the  hint  to  begin  shuffling  out  of  the  room  to  leave  himself  &  kai  to  deal  with  this  matter.  with  a  roll  of  his  shoulders  he  lets  out  the  tension  within  his  body,  a  soft  sigh  escaping  bloodied  lips.  he  is  aware  of  kai  approaching,  though  he's  still  not  entirely  focused  on  that.  the  heart  in  his  hand  is  still  warm  with  the  lifeblood  of  the  cultist  he'd  ripped  it  from  &  the  temptation  to  finish  off  the  last  few  bites  has  him  distracted.
the  touch  of  soft  fabric  on  his  bloodied  face  was  enough  to  pull  him  from  his  thoughts,  his  gaze  shifting  to  focus  in  on  kai's  dark  hues.  he  almost  leans  in  to  kiss  him,  though  the  thick  taste  of  blood  on  his  tongue  is  enough  to  still  him.  it's  a  line  he's  yet  to  cross,  unsure  if  @hiveruled  would  be  disgusted.
he  shifts  closer,  seeking  out  his  partner's  comforting  presence.  â  have  i  been  too  lenient  ?  â  while  he  certainly  doesn't  think  so,  clearly  something  had  given  the  deceased  cultist  reason  to  believe  slacking  off  would  be  acceptable.  michael  is  already  thinking  of  replacements,  of  ways  to  correct  the  issue,  not  wanting  this  blunder  to  possibly  hinder  kai's  cause.  â  or  is  this  just  stupidity  showing  through  ?  â  the  latter  is  very  possible,  given  his  experience  with  humans.  without  fail  there  would  always  be  those  without  drive  or  self  preservation.
Years of subjecting himself to gore and violence, and furthermore witnessing it in real life had JADED him almost entirely to the sight. He doesn't even flinch when Michael rips the heart from the unlucky cult member's chest with a fierceness that ends up appearing strangely graceful. Perhaps Kai should be angry that he took it upon himself to swing the axe where it should've been his decision. Instead he watches on in awe as the wet crimson trickles into his partner's mouth and he consumes the flesh of the fresh organ in an inhuman fashion. Though, Michael really wasn't human was he? Kai often FORGETS that until moments like these.
He uses the sleeve of his sweater to wipe the blood that smeared across his cheek, their gazes locked onto each other in a HEATED manner. The cult leader slowly leans in, tongue dragging across Michael's lips to further clean away the slick of blood. When he pulls away to leave room for him to speak, the metallic taste of it sits heavily in his mouth, but Kai doesn't seem to mind.
" Some are just not truly prepared for change and all that it entails. " Kai sighs out quietly, wrapping his arms around the other's waist to pull him close into an embrace. " It isn't your fault that they were dragging their feet about it. I would've done the same thing. Might've made it a slower death, though. " He gives Michael a grin, showing rows of slightly BLOODSTAINED teeth in the process.
đđđđđ  was  something  michael  was  all  too  familiar  with,  kai's  anger  even  more  so.  though  it  was  rarely  directed  towards  him,  michael  had  bore  witness  to  it  often.  thus  this  display  did  little  to  upset  him  beyond  the  key  point  that  ally  was  doing  far  better  than  she  should  be  in  present  polling.  ally  was  an  admitted  thorn  in  both  of  their  sides,  persistent  &  surprisingly  resilient  despite  all  their  attempts  to  sabotage  her  thus  far.
he  approaches  kai  without  the  reservation  that  most  would  have  at  seeing  such  a  display,  a  soft  sigh  leaving  him  as  kai's  fingers  find  purchase  in  his  long  locks.  his  blue  green  eyes  close  for  a  moment,  thinking  over  what  to  say.  it  wasn't  a  matter  of  if  he'd  assist  kai  or  not,  he  would  always  choose  to  &  kai  was  fully  aware  of  that.
opening  his  eyes  he  met  kai's  dark  gaze  evenly  as  he  spoke  â  i  could  always  just  eat  her.â  at  his  own  words  a  playful  smile  cracked  his  usually  neutral  visage.  â  perhaps  it  is  time  to  look  at  more  competent  followers.  i  still  do  not  trust  that  meadow  is  truly  of  any  help.  â  a  personal  bias  admittedly,  he  disliked  her  &  frankly  speaking  wanted  her  gone.  the  only  reason  he  had  not  done  so  himself  was  out  of  respect  for  kai's  wishes.  still,  he'd  take  the  opportunity  to  speak  his  grievances  with  her  at  any  chance  he'd  get.
â  on  a  more  serious  note,  perhaps  i  can  reach  out  to  my  more  radical  followers.  if  anyone  is  willing  to  help  spread  a  little  chaos  they  certainly  would  be  it.  â
Michael's suggestion breaks the heavy tension in the air, causing a slight LAUGH to spill from the cult leader's lips. He had to admit, the thought of it was tempting. Giving his political opponent a death that could be straight out of a horror film and a surefire way of sealing his own victory. The only issue is that it wouldn't, not for long anyways. People would talk and the cops would SPECULATE. He can't kill Ally, not yet. Securing his win first and letting her be witness to it instead of buried six feet under the earth was the smarter thing to do, as much as he was growing impatient.
" I know you don't. But she still has use that has yet to be tapped into, you'll see. " Kai's amusement continues to shine through his stressed appearance. Admittedly, Meadow was becoming more of a NUISANCE than a integral worker to the hive, clearly craving something more than Kai is willing or wanting to give to her. What would happen when she finally realized she was never going to have it?
His grip tightens on the back of Michael's neck when he speaks again however, his thumb rubbing against him to soothe any discomfort he may have caused. " No, no one else needs to be brought in that I don't know anything about. We're in the final stretch, I don't want anybody fucking it up. " Kai shakes his head adamantly. He may trust Michael, but that doesn't EXTEND to any of his followers. There was a process Kai went through in his own head to pick and choose who was brought into their circle. Meadow though...his thoughts keep going back to her.
" Maybe what people need to see is proof of hope among chaos. A miracle of fucking biblical proportions. "