hiræth's haven

1. Salary adjustment.

2. I have been given a chance to have Saturday Rest day on month of August.

I am glad I focus on being single. I don't share my salary with anyone. I don't have to give updates on someone every hour. I love it when I put scented lotion and spray perfume wearing my pjs before I sleep.

I fully accept how toxic my work can be. Colleagues come and go. Our team doesn't last forever but a legacy will stick to people's mind whenever colleagues tap in or resigned at work.

I wish I have the shiniest hair and sparkling eyes. I live in a middle class setting. I rarely go to roam around the cities of NCR. My everyday life surrounds with reserved type of people. Creative and young ones ranging from 21-30 years old. In my current job and side quests.

Suddenly, a guy walked past around us. My friends were busy chitchatting randomly. Our eyes met in the seconds. I admired how his slightly curly hair, then he was tall wearing prescription glasses. It was stylish that match his fair skin, butter yellow cardigan and beige trousers. Since, the place was surrounded with pop up booths, he seems looking into something one by one.

1. Pilates/Yoga classes

2. Mediheal toner pad and Mediheal eye patch

3. D'alba face mist

4. Canon EOS M10

5. 5sos concert Tix

I miss romance. So, let's talk about romance. I went back to watch asian and modern dramas. I am living in juxtaposition. I always bound to kick my fit with a non-stop giggling. Until, I snap back to my real world. I am either fantasizing someone else or getting stoic by the life has been throwing at me. Living a single life means putting myself first while shifting into parasocial.

I already have 1 friendship breakup, 2 situationships and 1 relationship ended. Maybe, that was the most impactful events in my entire teens and twenties. I hope it won't be continued in line of these guys. I find peace and at the same time cannot help but to wonder if I should be a rich Asian tita who yearns to travel because I have no experience outside my country at all. I am full of insecurities in which I do not want to impart to my future family. At the same time, the way of thought process, I always brush it off. Sometimes, it was not that I hate to enter again in a new relationship. I have a lot to spend more on my first times rather than sharing and wasting my resources on boys.

One of my depressive thoughts might be that I feel like I am always not be chosen just because of my unapproachable demeanor which conceals of being shy and reserved. I think that was the fact that I am not a public figure material.