Alisa

not just “you’re pretty.”

i mean

“come closer.”

“stay here.”

“look at me.”

“i missed you.”

“i want you near me.”

that kind of wanting that isn’t loud or performative.

just two women alone, completely wrapped up in each other, letting the tension speak for itself.

This autistic guy my parents kept trying to set me up with. He keeps having nosebleeds. He only eats ground beef, scrambled eggs, and rice, with no salt. I am autistic as well, but I'm a girl so the mask is slightly better, but sometimes we both come off rude to others.

I knew him since childhood, but I don’t remember him. Our parents wanted to set us up together, but the first time I met him as an adult (last year, when he needed a place to stay to find a job, he stayed with my parents.) I showed him gay porn, then he asked if I was lesbian or bisexual, I said, I mean, whatever, I’ve had sex with guys before, and once in ny l let my homeless man (Jose) down the street kiss me on the cheek. Another time he (Jose) carried a giant table up 2 flights of stairs for me and asked for nothing. Jose is very handsome. Once he gave me a necklace with a pendant of a rifle.

I only like women but occasionally I talk without definitives so men are nice to me, as sometimes I need arms and legs.

A lot of lesbians don't know that you don't have to fuck them to get what you want, then I watch them perform comphet. It's strange. This morning he woke up at 6 am and took my family on his boat because I asked. He's proper but not overly polite like neurotypical people. He asks my mom to take his picture holding up a tiny fish he caught to show his parents. He accepts food willingly and happily and leaves one hour after dinner. He stayed with my parents despite not really knowing thêm. Which is not common in Vietnamese culture. Always so much no no no I'm not hungry before taking anything, then getting drunk until morning. He was bulking last year when I saw him, he said don't look I'm a bit fat right now, (Í wasnt looking, was trying to take a photo of him topless on the wooden table, like the Square). and now he's cutting, he keeps taking his shirt off, and trying to break touch barrier by wiping his glasses on my pants. But I don't have to have sex with him and he'll keep taking me on the boat. It could be simple.