This is a very interesting experience. I created a wonderful traditional artwork work (to music, again ) one that I used the philosophy of “let it be perfect by being imperfect” And it was a combination of so many elements and factors of life I don't know where to start, I kinda feel like I might like, really, really like philosophy. But lets just break it down....
My art began as a match being pulled across a surface, about to light. Then when it became clear I couldn't deal the profile I wanted with that angel that I drew the match in, I began to doodle. I rarely doodle. I Always have to have a plain to start drawing. and doodles have no thoughts behind them.
My doodle was was line based. Within 5-15 seconds of doodling I realized that it looked similar to the patterns on the walls of the lab of Flint Lockwood from Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. (Okay theres probably a name for that kind of line style, but IDK why it just stop with me the whole movie and then some since I always felt like I wanted to emulate it but thought I never could.) So I take a chance and decide, hey this page is scraped anyhow, and began to draw my version of the pattern.
I feel a flash back to middle school, when I drew on paper genetic chemical bonding strings for fun. All the strings I drew where chemically possible, but highly unlikely. If you don't get what I’m talking about heres an example: (Of course I didn’t bother with color)
I felt a sort of need for rules and order to this pattern. I made it look quite well. But I wanted to test my new ability. On the same page, I begin the pattern again, in a different perspective. I begin to realize this work is not scrap and save the match, darkening the finer points. I add a character in two perspectives, one of witch, is close enough to see he's holding a match.
The resulting work is beautiful to me, It holds great symbolism. I have recently become active in a chat group and the social interaction has been life changing. I can finally say “I herd a story” Not “I feel like telling a story”. Or The “funnest thing happened to me and some friends while we were playing this game,” instead of “...happened to me while I was playing...” A huge motto I seem to be learning from them is that imperfections are okay.
Flaws are okay, not just in art or people, but in actions. I was once terrified of speaking to people, even online, What if I say the wrong thing, will they know? Will they make the effort to try to figure out my mistake? This is just a tiny bit of what Im learning its helping the autism side of me a great deal. Another example is, even though its a chat, its acceptable, when the chat is slow, (such as at midnight at your local time) to take ten minutes to reply, or reply instantly.
Thats what I took to this work, and how I will approach any additional work I do on it... because.... I feel I may want to create an animated version of this work somehow....
