Alexithymiac

I read it all... I read everything you wrote... the prose, the tweets, everything. I've always enjoyed reading them, since then, I've always hoped it was me you were talking about, the ideal girl you love, the girl who made your day, who makes you smile. I read it all, I read your mind like a poetry in a box, slowly picking pieces of paper to unravel something about you. I clearly fathom your thoughts, your imaginations, your wildest dreams and fantasies. I read it all. I read it all, I read your broken letters, but not thinking, "serves you right... you left me and you gave up on me", but realizing i'm not the only broken one, it was both of us. And I read it all.

Irrationalities would not hinder A love that would not fear Distance does make a shiver but not on the hearts that hold on dear The talks aren't so bad And I think it was the longest we had. The smile in your face brightens As the beats of our heart tightens We talk all about nonesense but none of us become tense Naturally, we love our minds Something that's rare to find. Lying down under the same sky staring Imagining, both wings spreaded, flying No seas in between No odds are unseen. A beautiful chaos made No love has to fade Can a feeling like this be true, Can love be made from you.

You knew I love you... So, you decided you wanted to love me too. You told all flattering regards about me. You made me feel like I was the only one in your heart. You stared at my eyes long enough to send butterflies in my stomach, shivers and chills. You knew I love you... So, you forget the whole world to stay by me. To protect my fragile heart, to give me the most beautiful world imaginable. You promised me a thousand stars, because you believed I deserve more than just a planet. You filled my skies with thousands of constellations. You knew I love you... So, you forgot about the girl who broke you, and love me too. But I couldn't be that girl, I couldn't attain the heart she broke. You have a missing piece inside you that she took. You can only be fixed by her, not my love. You knew I love you... But you knew my love wouldn't be enough.

It just tore me apart, really apart, when you wanted me to cuddle you and make you sure that everything was fine, but dem, I can't. If only I was sadako who can pop out of your screen or if only I can teleport, I would. It just breaks me into pieces how I would see you cry, but I couldn't wipe a single tear off your face, like literally. Screens are separating us like crap.

“I know, I read most of his books, too bad I didn’t finish this one”