Freedom in slavery

What do you say when your minds scattered in so many directions. I am an older male.lived life, raised my family, sacrificed what I feel deep inside for the past many many years with only the internet as a means to get what i truly need and feel what has been deep within me from early childhood. I come here looking. Searching for O/others like me, with the same interests and 'needs'. Hoping that Someone will see the slave within me and want to bring that out even more. I'm not a sissy,but I have always felt that women within and see myself like that most of the time, having said that I'm not 'feminine' and struggle between being that femme slave and male slave that make up who I am. My quest is to hopefully hear from other sub/slaves and the ultimate to hear from the Doms and Mistress that roam these pages and maybe finally find that One or Ones that will see who I am and want to train and own me as Their property. I have added an interrogate me page where Anyone can ask any questions or comment, or command, I am willing to take commands and wanting to be trained. Thank You for looking at my tumbler.