Ugh, I don't know, this sucks I want my friend back I want the person I can say anything to back, I want my dream to stop being dreams and actually be able to try and get them, I want someone I can hold, that when I feel like the world I know is falling apart they will be with me no matter what, I want to take her totbe most beautiful place on earth and marry her there, then travel the world together without worries, I want to be able to look at her and know that she's mine, and I can do what I want to her, I want to own her and mark her all over, make her yell my name tell she cant yell anymore, I want someone who is an angle most of the time but I can let out the devil in her, I want someone who is kind and compassionate, who cares for others, a mother who will care for her children above all else, I want someone who can handle my crazy and be just as crazy, someone who can put up with all the crap I'm going give them, I want all of this, I just wish I could see how to het there, cuz I only see one person I think could ever fill that, and she hates my guts, doesnt wanna talk to me, and is missing the biggest part I want...