beast monster thing

you can trust me with another dirnk i promise i won't try to kill myself this itme

i'm never going to be able to go to a concert again. oh what is even the point. taken away all i have. #UGH! dear every band and musician i like please come to my city within the next like 5 months please i need this

i've been kinda living with the idea that i'd turn 18 and then start hrt and shit but i guess it's just kinda sunk in that it's not really some magic thing and literally nothing will change i'll have just wasted a few months. years even fuck me the whole idea was like once i'm 18 who are my parents to stop me i'm a whole ass adult but like that all depends on me actually fucking doing anything and i mean like as much as this is something that i know would drastically change my life for the better chances are i'm just not going to do a single thing and i will instead choose to continue wallowing until i end it hoping i magically wake up as a girl there's absolutely no hope . stupid

i'm a single cell !!! on a serpent's tongue !!!!! there's a muddy fieeldd!!! where a garden was !!! ughh

there's really not even any point to anything anymore. i have like 6 months left of being able to actually live normally and then i'm fucked up for life fuckk just kill me instead to be honest

i feel so maternal towards the baby from eraserhead

in heaven everything is fine in heaven everything is fine you got your good things and i've got mine oh yeah shoutout david lynch 🫶

sorry i'm just really pissed off because you can't read my mind and you're not understanding my vagueposting that doesn't make any sense

fuck all this they'll never forget that i'm a boy . literally what is the point

coming out message officially in the notes app. i cannot wait to forget about it in a week

my friend drew me today and it was so good i'm going to cry it's actually the best thing that could have happened for my self esteem i love my friends <333

honetsly shaving has given me like crazy confidence. i thought it couldn't be done . fuckin #happy frick yeah gang

maybe iwill perhaps potentially come out. maybe i could . the worst that could happen is everyone hating me and leaving me alone forever which in the grand scheme of things isn't thaattt bad

everything is so fucking orange freak out

there's nothing we can do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there's nothing we can do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my stupid fucking body ruined everything and there was never anything i could do about it fuck everything