Being emotionally unavailable will destroy your soul. Almost every day, I think about what I do if I could change things. I hope god graces me with love again, my heart feels destroyed. I will be gentle with it. I deserve every ounce of this heartbreak but it still plagues me constantly. I hope one day I can heal. I have worked hard to be a different person and yet I will never grasp that love again. Ive cried enough tears over this to build a well. Looking for solace. Please god let me find it, I am not sure how much longer I can carry this burden of pain. He has moved on, and I still lay in pieces, wishing to be put back together.