Stuck in A Moment ▶

It's been so long since I wrote something here. And we're halfway through this year and this is my first entry on 2024 (around of applause please LOL). I am so sorry to those who read this blog (if there may be any) if I haven't been writing here for so long, but now I'll try to type all the things that happened to me all those missing days.

For Starters, I am now living for Three Decades here on Earth. It's been 13 years since the naïve 17 year old girl's first entry on this blog site, how time flies and everything is somehow the same but different.

The same in the sense that it's still me, the longing is still the same but in a much deeper purpose. I'm still a dreamer, but now dreaming of more than I've dreamt on my younger days. I'm still yearning for the love I have always wanted but seems like the universe is not ready to give it to me yet. I don't know why and I admit that I am getting tired and slowly losing hope but if there's a great purpose to this waiting phase then I guess it will all be worth it in the end.

Right now, I am holding on ang going through life with all the uncertainties. Wishing and praying for the best and staying strong and keeping the faith going through all the adversities. But one thing is certain, I want a stable life someday. I am tired but still trying to attain this, trusting everything to God.

I've got lot's of things that I want to share but I will be making a separate post for that to solely focus on that topic.

Hey,

It has been minutes since my last post and here I am hahaha wala lang I was just browsing through my account and some settings so I’m still here wehehehe

I am supposed to be doing my minutes now since we had our monthly meeting yesterday but I’m here writing my blog entry hahaha sorry naman later na yang minutes na yan.

Yun nga, I was browsing on my account and I went to my following list and saw that the account’s I’ve followed were no longer active na pala. Some were updated 2,3,4,5 and even 7 years ago pa, same as I am but I have updated naman last July 2020 and followed by today pa.

Well I guess, life really happens. As we age, we don’t have enough time to do the things we used to do when we were younger but that’s okay! Our priorities are changing every year and it’s okay to leave some things you think that are no longer important anymore. We all grew up and we outgrew things even though we don’t want to because that’s life!

Okay, I guess that’s all for now. I’m gonna start my minutes now hahaha

PS: I found the changing of fonts hahaha I just had to click the try the new post editor

‘til then,

Hey,

This is my first entry in 2021, on the eighth month of the year haha sorry been really busy the past months and I am too lazy to come up with entries and write-ups here. I am more visible and active on twitter though haha

I am writing on a laptop and I realized that the changing of fonts is only applicable on mobile apps? 

But anyways, I’ll try to think of something to post here. Been having lots of feels lately but yea I am just too lazy to put it into writing. I even purchased a locked notebook to keep a diary but it just had 2 entries hahaha OMG 

That’s it for now, I guess. I’ll be back hopefully.

We all have a crush that we told no one about. Maybe because we’re shy, or maybe because we don’t want anyone to know. In my case, it’s the latter.

Way back college, I had a crush on this guy. He was smart, really smart. We’re on the same college but we took different courses. I liked him because yeah he was smart, he’s also tall, he’s cute and he was so dedicated on his studies.

We were not friends, but we had many common friends. I started liking him on my 3rd year in college, I don’t remember why but I just woke up one day and realized that I had a crush on him.

I never told my friends about my feelings for him. I don’t want anyone to know about it because I don’t want that feelings to grow deeper. They might start with the teasing and he might know about it and I might get hurt if he’ll just shrug it off and reject it.

And tell you what, liking someone and never telling it to anyone is kind of hard. You have no one to share about it, (but I had my diary so it’s just between me and that notebook) and whenever you feel giddy you have to suppress it so that nobody will notice it. And I remember, I wrote a confession of my feelings for him in a confession page on our school before using a dummy account. I don’t know if he found out that it was me since he was one of the SSG officers that time (so dumb of me, I just realized that as of this writing. lol) but nah, who cares.

And now, 8 years later I have no regrets. I don’t regret hiding what I felt, it never really went deeper, it just remained how it was. Whenever I saw some posts of my friends tagging him, I’ll just “oh, it’s him” and that’s it. No hurt feelings, no heartaches.

He’s happily in love right now, with the girl I heard he had a crush since we were in college and was our school mate too, and he’s now a CPA.

If you’re wondering why I’m writing about this, maybe because of the kdrama I’m currently watching. Wherein the lead guy had a huge crush on the lead girl since high school and he told no one about it. And as I was watching it, I remember I was in that situation too.

So, I just had to share this for me to have something to read about my silly old feelings for that guy in the future. That at least here aside from my college diary and our former confession page, I wrote something about him but this time it’s all about remembering the old feels..

‘til then,