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Hi tumblr, its been years!

Being consistent in everything is just so hard. I am at my point wherein kahit hindi monday tinatamad na magwork. Its been 3 years of working here. My workmates becames my family. Everything is okay. But idk, i guess im just so immature? Bored? Want something new? Alam ko masama na maghangad ng iba at hindi makuntento sa kung ano ang ibinigay but i guess people needs to be like that. HaaaayyYYYyy gusto ko nalang talaga umuwi ngayon from work.

Nuon akala ko thesis lang yung pinaka mahirap at heart breaks lang ang pinaka masaket, pero may mas hard core pa pala dun.. at yun ay yung tinatawag nila na “Adulting” mid 20s will understand. Nasa point ako ng buhay ko ngayon na para bang sa sobra ng dami kopang gawin sa buhay ko.. i ended up doing nothing. Friends become less, conversations becomes chats, bonds becomes once a year, drinking becomes occationally. Twing sasapit ang friday at saturday i always wanted to have a drink. May kasama man o wala. Because I also want to have a life after 5-day-work. Ewan ko. Marami akong plano na ayaw ko gawin.. kulang sa lakas ng loob? Ayaw mag take ng risk? Being an adult makes me more responsible in making a decisions. And im bad at decisions. May point na 3 years na ako sa work ko, at halos wala padin akong naiipong pera, ilang percentage kaya sa sitwasyon ko ang nagtatrabaho ng wala pading ipon? Others have their own bank acc while me? I dont even have Valid Ids (except sa id sa work) Others have their own path, abroad. While me still thinking my life choices. I want to study again. Or review? Take board exams? Have my own license? I want a better job with good salaries? Idk its just so hard to be an adult :( Minsan pakiramdam ko paulit ulit nalang nangyayari na para bang sobrang naiinip na ko sa buhay na meron ako. Na gusto ko ng pagbabago. Pero ayaw ko naman bitawan ang luma. Hindi kona din alam ang sagot sa tanong na “Ano bang plano mo sa future?” Pwede ba bumalik sa pagka estujante? Where my only responsibility is to study and passed. Ayaw kona sa adulthood stage. Pwede ba alisin nalang to sa life span ko.

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Will blog about how our anniversary went well :) 

I dont know kung anong meron sa kape at gustong gusto ko ang konsepto ng nagkakape. Since college nagstart yung pagmamahal ko sa mga kape. Siguro dahil din bilang estudyante nuon, naging katuwang na naten ang kape para magpatuloy. Dumating ako sa point na 3 times a day ako nagkakape daig pa ang gamot. Alam ko may nakaka adikna recipe dun. Pero ako ang tunay na naadik sa kape. I thought it was good for me. Beside sa nasasatisfy nya ang body and soul ko. I thought it was good. But then after I graduated akala ko mawawala na or malelessen na pero its a big NO. Got a job and its office work. Automatically fully airconditioned at puros computer at paper works. Then my addiction to coffeess getting moreeeee and moreee. Until lumala na. Twing umaga, pag nagkape ako automatically magsusuka ako. Until every coffee ko, susuka na ako. Suka na masaket. Kaya nagpa check up na ako.. nakita dun na mataas na yung acidity ko. May mga level level pala yon. Parang cancer palala. Hahaha. But mine was okay. I guess. At ang pinaka masaklap dun.. bawal nadaw muna ako magkape. Tiniis ko. Kinonvert ko sa iba like milo o gatas. Inom ng tubig. Then habang natagal... naokay na. Nagkakape na once a week, twice, ng hindi na ako nagsusuka. Kaya ngayon, Im good. Super good. Pero limit padin. Lahat talaga ng labis, masama. Haha. But hey, my first true love will always be coffee. I have a bunch list of coffee shops that ill surely visit! And make more stories about coffees ugh 💓💞

I’m a coffee lover so that’s why i am so in loved with rainy seasons, feels like i have so much meh time. More coffees to reasons out, because of the cuddle weather. Pero ngayong rainy seasons na to lang ako in-between happy and sad. Happy because, Cuddle weather at may ka cuddle ako, oh diba what a concept and sad, dahil sa 16, 2nd anniversary namin ng owa ko, and our plan was to visit anawangin, zambales, everything is set, already booked, money is ready, we’re packed, but the weather is still doing its job, to make me sad :( Hopefully, positive ang trip namin sa anniversary because we have no fall back. Hope G, can read this and make our special day even more special. 

Life lately

Perfect ito kung gusto mo may matambayan na libre at magalaan ng libre tapos kung IG is life kaden, pak na pak ito. Hahahahah. The admission here is FREE. Walang gastos, sama kalang ng jowa mo siguro kasi dami magjojowa jan. Hahahahaha. MUST VISIT!!!!!!!!!! 

(also yung mga old friends ko dito, hagilapin ko ulit kayo isa isa)

Self Love, is not selfish. 

Just another day passing by, nothings greater to start a day with a coffee.