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the embarrassing thing about cordelia insulting buffy’s hair and wardrobe is that she clearly admires buffy’s fashion sense and appearance like it’s partly why she immediately tried to befriend her in welcome to the hellmouth so she’s just mad and lying about it

all stories are about time loops, except for time loops, which are about grief

buffy summers is the ultimate "she should have been at the club". because she was at the club. often. and yet,

the fact that i still have to unlearn shame… like come on that’s literally the most embarrassing thing to not have unlearned yet

vampirism poses the question "what if there was a fundamental, horrible, unending well of want in your soul that, if truly satisfied, would lead to great pain for all those you hold closest and, in turn, their absolute and total revilement of you?" and naturally as a person with no problems I don't relate to this in any way at all.

a gentle fact about this world is that people will want to help you. a cruel fact about it is that you do have to put on your big boy pants and open their contact on your phone and say some human words to ask them for it

ending —> transition —> beginning —> ending —> transition —> beginning —> ending —> transition —> beginning —> ending —> transition —> beginning —>

bell hooks mentioned going through a time in her life where she was severely depressed and suicidal and how the only way she got through it was through changing her environment: She surrounded her home with buddhas of all colors, Audre Lorde’s A Litany for Survival facing her as she wakes up, and filling the space she saw everyday with reinforcing objects and meaningful books. She asks herself each day, “What are you going to do today to resist domination?” I also really liked it when she said that in order to move from pain to power, it is crucial to engage in “an active rewriting of our lives.”

A very similar approach is also the main focus of Kate Bernstein’s Hello, Cruel World. Besides the free “lite” version she put out (linked there), the whole book is available to borrow on archive.org.