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my brains done. im not going to talk again about anything i feel at very least. i knew to never even think of someone new. oh well this place sucks.

Well I know you dont consider me a friend. I can see funny how I can see intention and ignore it. I didnt lie. About anything then or now. I think hes worth the effort. This time I'll do it as soon as I can. But you aren't my friend I kniw how you act to friends vs when your using someone.

I think I might be done soon. Its a new level. I can't manage this. You know who you are its not your fault this is an advance apology if I still exist I'll miss being around you. But I dont think I want to be here anymore. Big boy. Make my own choices. This is one.

I will necer be able to forgive you duncan. I lost the most important person to me because of you. As much as I try to move on and tell myself we weren't right. I still live her miss her and think about her every day. I hate you duncan. Your a thief. Kill yourself.

That feeling of overwhelming depression is back all I want to do is drive as far as can away and die.

I needed to be loved so badly. I really needed it. I dont want to fall in love it hurts. But I loved her and I still do but I'm scared to see in her eyes again. What if its still the same. I'll break down on spot so I can't.

I hate you duncan if theres anyone I actually hate its you. You never once cared about me you always had to be the center of attention in front of everyone i liked. Well congrats clean the stain I hope you get one of em because once they meet you in nothing apparently I only have rage and suicide left as emotions. I hate you so much.

Its all I want its my happiness again. Theres only one primary goal. Get out.

I'm going to do it. I made the plans and I heard what I needed too. I'm kinda excited now.

I'm in love again with someone who will never love me. I can't take it again but I'm forcing myself. I will not make this attempt when it fails. I know that. I really do hate myself. But i dont want to. I tied my self worth to something I would never attain and I'm all out of juice I'm running on fumes.

Today might actually crush me for good.... I dint have much fight left in me I'm faking so much already that died long ago. I'm begging the universe to be loved.

I want so badly to fake straight again. But to do that I have to believe I'm straight. I dont not a little. Not anymore I know i enjoy it. But no one will love me as I am. I can lie to myself but i have to isolate. And if I isolate I die. I dont know gow to get back to where I was and I'm not happy where i am.

I never thought id be rooting for this person in my life again ... Goddamn. Brooklyn. I'm manifesting with all of my soul but I stomped on that trust so it is a mountain. I hope. I pray. And I envision.

I'm so sick of being unworthy of love.... I tried to change back. I just want to give up. I thought I made it but hey I'm fucked no one will ever love a monster like me.ill die crying.