JULY 6th, 2026 — MONDAY

when i got into my car after my shift its internal temp was 117f 😵‍💫 texas is so miserable in the summer. 0/10!! my shift was more manageable than i expected today, i’m looking forward to tomorrow because i’ll be @ my favorite store!

watching the US play in the world cup tonight, i miss Mexico :( i really wanted them to make it farther but now i must cheer for Norway against England in revenge 🥊

📚 I Feed Her To The Beast And The Beast Is Me, Jamison Shea

ending of august the bugs are just starting to die / all the neighbors are voting for someone who wins every time / i thought getting older meant knowing it’s too late to try

JULY 5th, 2026 — SUNDAY

saw Leviticus tonight with irl! holy shit… so good. i’m pretty sensitive to gore but i only one scene had me covering my eyes, i’m honestly proud of myself lol

JULY 4th, 2026 — SATURDAY

went out with my IRLs to the businesses open over the holiday! our goal was to spend all day collecting the Persona 3 x Round1 collab merch but they were completely sold out ;—;

i finished The Safekeep by Yael Van Der Wouden earlier this week and am planning on making an individual review post about it, rated it five stars and it’s one of my favorites for the year! i’m now 32 books into my goal of 45 for the year, feeling very very confident :3

four days into taking daily t-gel and not noticing any changes is frustrating but i’m just having to remind myself that change takes time. it would honestly be more concerning if there were drastic changes this early.

JULY 1st, 2026 — WEDNESDAY

good morning good morning! as of writing it is 5:30am and i just took my first pump of T Gel before work!

while i’m not looking forward to 8 hours at the Torture Dungeon where i’ll get misgendered and insulted all day (customer service), i’m looking forward to the rest of the day!! it’s my moms birthday and i can’t wait to get home from work so i can deliver her gifts.

i haven’t done much more research into Masters Programs because i’ve been very overwhelmed by both the programs and by life. i feel like i’m not good enough for any of the programs i’m interested in :( i just have to have faith that this feeling will pass

📚 The Safekeep, Yael Von der Wouden

🎞️ * e m m i e * ‘s newest reading vlog

JUNE 27th, 2026 — SATURDAY

went out for dinner w a friend visiting from out of town today and had a great time! we went to my fav sushi place and it was as dramatic as always

JUNE 26th, 2026 — FRIDAY

trying to stay positive despite running on 4.5 hours of sleep and an 8 hour shift with my least favorite coworkers… T-T i’m off work in 2 hours and then have the weekend off!

graduate school applications are approaching so quickly… i’m planning on going home, napping, and then getting back on the application grind. come hell or high water, i WILL be getting into a good Masters Program. 📚🖋️

🎞️: BBC Lord Of The Flies (2026)

📖: The House Divided, Barnaby Rogerson (2025)

today i wrote a list of things i’m scared of vs excited for in my medical transition. i focus so much on the fear that writing out both made me realize how much more i am excited about.

my fears were all restricted to things occurring in the next 1-3 years in the early stages of my transition while my excitement spread across my entire life. i can’t wait to be an uncle or a best man at a wedding. i can’t wait to go swimming with my shirt off. i can’t wait to have my body shift as i continue to grow older. i can’t wait to hold my child in my arms and be a dad. i can’t wait to begin my career as the person i have always been. life is beautiful and the future is ever expanding, fear is temporary!! 🏳️‍⚧️

enjoying my summer break one day at a time. spent some time this weekend @ my local arcade w friends and played lots of billiards 🎱

i kind of abandoned this account because life hasn’t felt all that special recently ૮(˶ㅠ︿ㅠ)ა