It’s 3:42 AM and everything hurts. My mind won’t let me fall asleep because the only thing on it is you. My body won’t fall asleep because it craves your gentle touch. It’s 3:43 AM and I miss you. I miss everything about you. I miss how we were so close, closer than anyone I’ve ever met before. I miss turning over and waking up to your beautiful face every single morning on the other side of my small bed. I miss our late night drives, listening to great music, and ending up lost in the middle of nowhere. I miss our inside jokes and having a connection that no one understood but us. I miss the way you looked at me, like I was the only person that you could see with those green eyes of yours. I miss the way you pulled me closer when you were afraid of the lightning outside. I miss wrapping my arms around you and not letting go for what felt like hours. I miss your hand in mine. But, what I miss the most are the little things, like the way you had to read everything to yourself out loud or how you always had to sleep on your back. The list is endless. It’s 4:05 AM and all I can think about is how somebody else is loving you. It is no longer me and you. It’s you and him. He is holding you the same way as I always did, but somehow it is different. You feel safe, secure, and calm. You aren’t doubting your feelings and wondering what it would be like if you were with someone else in the way you always did when you were with me. You wanted something that I could not give you. It’s 4:10 AM and I’m thinking about how you never told me why you left. It’s painful being abandoned by you, but what hurts even more is that I wasn’t even worth an explanation. I’m trying to wrap my head around how I tried so hard and put my all in for you, yet it was never enough. I was never enough. I loved you unconditionally and expected the same in return. I guess I’m just not worthy of your love. He is.
the-r3ckless-0ne (via wnq-writers)
