My Story

“it sucks when you realize you rejected other people for that one person who wasted your time”

“You choose those who you know cannot give themselves, because that gives you the courage to let go. You know they will let you down and that you will inevitably suffer from being thwarted. But you prefer this pain to the other, the pain of giving and being betrayed, as you were as a child. You choose unconsciously those who will not assert themselves or claim you. Or if you find one who does assert himself, does claim all of you (…), then you do not love them, you reject them.”

“Lonely people tend to be lonely because they decline to bear the psychic costs of being around other humans. They are allergic to people. People affect them too strongly.”

“We have grown, I know, in the same dark gardens.”

“Something will grow from what you are going through. And it will be you.”

“Curiously, she didn’t remember when she became exhausted. She didn’t remember when exhausted was no longer exhausted, it just was. The tiredness was in her bones and she accepted this state of being with apathy.”

"I'm always at war with the person I am and the person I want to become, between the things that catch my attention and the things I want focus on."

“i realize now, that loving him was neither beautiful nor poetic; it was knowingly walking through hell every day and losing myself there.”