Indie semi-selective Lucifer Morningstar from Hazbin Hotel, loved by Collie. Canon compliant and canon divergent. Mun is 30+. Blog includes 18+ themes, no minors.
The mun of this blog has multiple medical and psychiatric conditions and is frequently Not Doing So Hot, which means I may sporadically disappear or my activity may be very up and down. Most notably, I live with autism and borderline personality disorder. This is an illness that causes me to act in ways that may be triggering to others at times. If you need, it's okay to unfollow or block me, to ask me to use a tag for you to filter, or gently offer correction. Please be kind, I am trying my best. Related posts are tagged as #mental health cw and placed under cut. Explanation linked here.
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When interacting with alternative portrayals of Lucifer, my Lucifer goes by "Luz" as a nickname, to differentiate.
About muse/portrayal, notes on shipping, other links, and blogroll:
Some quick notes on my portrayal of my Lucifer in default verse
(At present "default verse" is defined as the setup at the end of season 2)
Lucifer is once again staying in the apple tower (his room) at the hotel.
Lucifer is not yet ready to actively return to his duties as King, but he is emotionally supporting Charlie's dream. His direct contribution to the hotel work is primarily using his magic for repairs and maintenance.
Lucifer will likely still be dealing with some of the effects of the whole having been used as a battery thing. This can include chronic fatigue and nightmares, though he will try to hide these things.
Lucifer is not divorced from Lilith, except in cases where we may discuss another ship. Then that ship can exist in its own verse.
Lucifer is not close to the other Sins these days - primary reason is likely due to his depression after his wife left, but it may be more complicated than that (can be discussed ooc)
Extra:
My Lucifer has a cockatiel-based griffin named Presto, who serves (secretly) as his psychiatric service animal. Publicly, Presto would be referred to as his familiar. Presto has the body of a giant housecat, and the personality of a dog... with both cat and bird behaviors.
Presto's icons by @/damnedrainbows !!
(below art though is my own)
Other links:
Verses where Lucifer has kids other than Charlie
Lucifer's Pets
I play my Lucifer as (undiagnosed) AuDHD. Here's what that means.
Verses Info
Ship partners
Blogroll:
@hells-greatestdad (you are here)
@alwayschasingraiinbows (Charlie Morningstar sideblog! very low activity)
@appleduck666 (Lucifer's Twitter. sideblog to this account.)
@colliememes (Meme collection blog. You can reblog anything from there for your own use.)
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β¦ β π€ β β¦ πππππ ππ ππππ ππππππ Β·Β·Β· a collection of injuries tended in silence, pain worn like armour, the intimacy of being seen at your worst. genre: hurt and comfort, angst, romance, drama.
β’ You're bleeding through your shirt. Don't tell me you're fine.
β’ How long have you been walking around like this?
β’ I'm not going to hurt you. I just need to see how bad it is.
β’ You should have told me the moment it happened.
β’ Hold still. I mean it. Hold still.
β’ This is going to sting. Bite down on something if you need to.
β’ You've been hiding this for days, haven't you.
β’ Who did this to you? I need you to tell me who did this.
β’ Stop being brave for five minutes and let me help you.
β’ I've seen worse. I've also seen men die from worse, so let me look at it.
β’ I found the bandages in the trash. You want to explain that?
β’ Don't you dare apologize for bleeding on me.
β’ Your hands are cold. That's not a good sign.
β’ I'm not angry. I'm terrified. There's a difference.
β’ Come into the light. Let me see your face.
β’ You should have stitches. I know you won't go. So sit down and let me do what I can.
β’ You're white as a sheet and still trying to stand up straight.
β’ I could hear you in the night. I didn't say anything. I'm saying something now.
β’ Don't look at it if it makes it worse. Just look at me.
β’ It's not weak to let someone see you hurt.
β’ You came to me. Of all the places you could have gone, you came here.Β
β’ Lay back. You're not getting up until the color comes back to your face.
β’ I'm not going to ask what happened. Not yet. First let me fix what I can.
β’ You've been holding your left side since you walked in. Think I didn't notice?
β’ This is going to leave a mark. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
β’ I've patched up a lot of people in my time. None of them scared me like you do right now.
β’ You could have died out there. You could have died and I would have been the last person to know.
β’ Sleep. I'll be right here when you wake up. I'm not going anywhere.
β’ You're allowed to make a sound. Nobody's watching.
β’ I need you to stay awake for me. Just a little longer. Talk to me.
β’ You're lucky the cut wasn't deeper.Β
β’ Stop apologizing for needing help. Stop it right now.
β’ I've seen what it looks like when someone's used to this. That's what scares me most about you.
β’ Tell me your name. Tell me what day it is. Stay with me.
β’ You're going to be alright. I promise you.Β
β’ You went back out there after this? With this?
β’ Nobody takes care of you, do they? That ends tonight.
β’ I've been gentle with you. I need you to be honest with me in return.
β’ You're safe now. You're here, you're safe, and I've got you. Just breathe.
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Dang. Just thought of someone who was/probably still is mad at me and instead of feeling shame or like I need to hide, my natural thought was "that's okay, they can be mad at me. That's allowed and doesn't define me"
This is how you know the therapy is working
Particularly when that particular situation was a major trigger before, which once had me unable to function for two weeks
// going forward, I think I've focused enough on Lucifer's mental health in terms of defining it. I was mainly trying to get a picture of how his mind works and why he acts the way he does.
That's not to say it'll never be a topic, cuz it is very relevant to him still. Just that in terms of studying his character I'm going to focus more on other aspects from here on.
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I think Dear X (You Don't Own Me) by Disciple says it best:
Go ahead, put a target on my forehead
You can fire, but you've got no bullet
I was yours, I'm not yours anymore
You don't own me
I am learning to disarm and dismantle the weapons BPD uses. Reframing rejection, learning to replace certain thought principles with healthier ones, changing where I acquire my sense of worth.
BPD may try, but I'm learning what makes it tick and taking away its ammunition. Eventually it'll all just be dry firing.
By learning to disarm the thought processes that BPD works on, the entire mechanism falls apart.
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// something to keep in mind, I think, is that some who partake in a hobby (like RP) don't necessarily always want to become the very best like no one ever was. Sometimes it's more about just having fun with people who also want to have fun with you, and that may or may not include actually continually progressing in skill.... imo.
That said. I would like to develop some higher level skills than I presently have.
// like I kindaaa have the picture of a story board set-up, in terms of my established notes on this muse... I have a picture of how stuff could go.... if I have something BETTER or that I want to replace or change something entirely, I just take down that note and pin a better one in its place.
