helloue there.

almost forgot that this was the whole point. read a few old posts & realised i had been grieving for a real long time. so much has happened since ive last felt safe enough to share any thoughts here. but life is good now & im happy again.

why am i awake already when im probably dying inside?

"what are you so afraid of loser?" 'shall i end this pain for you?' "we should end the pain for both of us"

also, this page has been dead for the longest time?! the hell. 

If you wanna run away with me, I know a galaxy and I can take you for a ride

damn, the things i would give up just to relive one of those carefree days.

i interact with at least one guy a day that makes me thank god for the fact that i listen to girl in red.

a new chapter. i will be okay.

red lights, stop signs, i still see your face in the white cars, front yards

thanks (not really) for taking away the only platform ive sought comfort from for over a decade. depresso. 

happy quarter life crisis, me. 

the reality of graduating is starting to hit me. for years ive been hiding behind this title; telling people that i still had X amount of years left, and how graduating seemed so far away. itll soon be my final semester (or so, i hope), and i think its important to remind myself that these feelings of anxiety and stress are normal and valid. get some sleep, it would be alright.

all these lost friendships will forever haunt me.

i think i'm hilarious, at times.

back at it.

do you ever just stare out at those other tiny lit rooms, wondering whats keeping them up too?