Trans stuff that you need to hear
This is for all the people thinking they might be trans out there, because Tumblr feeds you a steaming crock of shit on this subject, and y'all need to have both eyes open before you do ANYTHING.
As a semi-open trans person, I get my share of people coming to me telling me they think they want to transition. My question is always, why? Transitioning is hard. Being trans is hard. Thereâs literally NOTHING that is easier about being trans than being cis. It is, without exception, harder. Going to the doctorâs is harder. Dating is harder. Legal issues, harder. Living arrangements, harder. Itâs a pain in the ass. For some people, a very small number, all of this is worth it, because they just cannot live in the body they were born with.
Now with Tumblr and overzealous gender activism, thereâs a whole lot of people realizing gender roles are not for them. Fine. Great. Buck those trends, more power to you. But there is a dangerous phenomenon of people saying theyâre trans because they donât like the stereotypes they think theyâre supposed to follow. That is in itself upholding strict gender roles, for one; for two, itâs kind of disrespectful to actual trans people by equating your desire to be edgy or different with dysphoria, which is a serious medical condition; for three, you are setting yourself up for an immense world of hurt if you transition when youâre not actually trans, because it WILL catch up with you, and you WILL be miserable, and it will be extremely difficult to undo.
Some people start transitioning and decide itâs not for them. Ok. What I say to that is, it happens, thank God you realized it before you went too far. But PLEASE, take this to heart. Physically changing your body, whether surgically or chemically, is an extremely serious matter. If you even remotely suspect youâre going to change your mind, ABSOLUTELY DO NOT DO IT. This is not to say you wonât have doubts after youâve started, you probably will. Probably every trans person has had at least one moment when theyâve asked themselves if it was worth all the pain. But thatâs why you have to be that much surer at the beginning, because you have to know that, when those doubts surface, youâre going to still know it was the right choice. Surgery is not a change of clothes. If you donât like how your breasts look, bind them, itâs temporary and cheap and effective. Hormones are not haircuts. Some changes are reversible; many are not. If anyone tells you people go on hormones âjust for a little bit,â run away. That is the worst fucking advice I have ever heard. You canât control or predict the changes. You have to be ok with all of them. If youâre not, you shouldnât be transitioning, period. You canât go on T temporarily to just masculinize yourself a little. Youâll be stuck in pubescent limbo, and thereâs no way to know when to stop. If this is your reasoning, you really, really need to ask yourself what your motivations are here. This is not a game or a fashion accessory. You are literally changing the chemical make-up of your body. If you cannot grasp what that means, you are not ready to transition. For your own sake (not to mention the trans people who are tired of being associated with this type of person), do not do it. Trust me on this if on nothing else, you will be miserable if you transition without understanding this.
There has been a lot of railing against the medical âgatekeepingâ around transition, making you wait, making you see a psychologist, etc., but it is absolutely in your best interest, especially for teenagers. Take a step back from Tumblrâs nonsense invectives about the psychology of gender and gender roles and social conditioning, because they have no idea what theyâre talking about 99% of the time and you should absolutely not base your decision to permanently alter your body on what someone with a url like killallstraightwhitecismenscum thinks after skimming a Judith Butler book in Intro to Soc.
The ONLY criteria you should look at is whether you can live in the body you have. Forget all notions about sexual orientation, your hobbies, your personality, what your favorite color is, what kinds of clothes you like, ALL of that is irrelevant. And if the answer is that youâre ok with your physical sex, donât do it. Congratulations, youâre cis, youâre lucky. Itâs not bad to be cis no matter what anyone tells you, and any trans person would love to have what you have. It doesnât matter if youâre a flaming gay guy who loves Lady Gaga, pumpkin spice lattes, drag, and the color pink, if youâre not dysphoric donât fucking do it! Itâs a bad idea and you will suffer for it! Believe me! Stick to what you are! Itâs easier and you will be much happier!