Helios

But now it didn't even matter, you missed him so much, it wasn't even healthy, every friend of yours told you that, that it wasn't healthy or safe, and he was probably cheating on you, but of course he wasn't! He couldn't, he promised you while you were gaming together on Stardew Valley, mining and exterminating other creatures to gain more XP, you asked him, while you were getting some geodes to finish the museum collection “do you promise you won't leave?“ and he said yes, while bombing it to just get more prismatic fragments, even if it was pretty rare to get one, he kept insisting that according to the coding he would get one.

It was like one part of you were missing when he wasn't around, your grades were clearly thanking the more free time you were wasting on studying to not stay there staring at the screen for hours, and your boss was also happy about how less and less you were spending time texting in your phone, but still you were sad, the days had became boring without the hours you spent after going back from campus gaming, and how he would always doordash you food when you were short on money, even when you said he didn't need to support you everytime you were without money because you didn't spent it wisely

But it wasn't even for the money, you just enjoyed the attention and love too much, you remembered the last time you and him had texted, he had told you he would soon be going to visit you, he just wanted to make sure his boss would let him and wouldn't keep buzzing him, you got confused, why would he even need that? His boss wasn't his father or his owner, and he should stand for himself, but you didn't press him to explain to you.

This day was a day like any other day, you spent the daytime at campus and your breaks working in part-time jobs, and going back home, but this day, it was quite different, the lights were not working like they should, you thought that it wasn't something to worry about, later you could just call an eletricist and ask him to fix it. You took out your shoes, walked down the hall, and as you were entering your bedroom, you saw your computer turned on, your eyes widened, you were sure you put your wallpaper to a purple tone, and now it was having an unnatural green light, a neon green, you turned on the lights and the green light vanished.

You turned off the lights again, seeing the light had come back you decided to keep it turned off, it gave you a strange sense of familiarity, it was the specific favourite colour of your boyfriend, BEN, you sat on your gaming chair, leaning in closer to examine the screen that was glowing in an almost radioactive green, you heard some statics noises, you couldn't understand why, but you felt yourself being pulled in by the screen in an emotional way, like you craved the green glow hitting on your skin like one would crave the sun light in the morning, in an almost charitable way, like it knew just how much you craved that glow, it started getting brighter..

The rest of the night the glow didn't falter once, you eventually fell asleep on your gaming chair, but as you woke up you felt a weight on top of you, it wasn't heavy, quite light weight actually, leaning on top of you like a cat, you got weirded out and slowly, hesitantly, opened your eyes to see an blonde boy, likely your age dressing like an elf, and some blood that fell from his eyes and rolled down his cheeks like tears hit your shirt, like he was crying on your shoulder blood, you froze, you had a boyfriend, you thought. He may be cheating on you but you weren't going to get to his level! You pushed the creature down on the floor, getting up, scraping the chair as you got up so abruptly clearly scaring the blonde just how much you got scared when you saw him.

As he fell to the ground he spoke up “what the heck!?“ his voice was like a teenage boy's, high pitched, boyish, that held quite an immaturity you felt a flutter in your chest, the same familiarity you felt at the glow on the monitor of your computer, as you turned to check the glow it was gone, you took a step closer to the monitor, eyebrows furrowed as you pointed to the screen and screamed “where the actual frick you came from you frog?!“ you scream, pointing a finger at the blonde elf, sitting on the floor like a misbehaved dog, pouting, ears tilted down, as you kept accusing him without even letting himself explain “did you trespass my flat?! What the fuck!“ the guy sighed, and slowly got up, as he spoke in that soft tone now, realizing how confused you must be “love.. it's me, Benjamin.“ he said, taking a step closer and which so, you took a step back out of reflex, now BEN stared at you slightly hurt, like you were staring at him like a monster, but could he judge you? He indeed was laying on top of your body, while you were asleep and you never ever saw his face before.

He looked just like any creep, but he wanted to make things right, especially now that his boss had finally let him visit you freely, BEN took another step closer, his eyebrows furrowing, his gaze softening “love, come on, listen to my voice can't you recognize me?“ he said in a whispery tone, looking right into your eyes with those totally red eyes, and for a second with that soft tone, your heart stopped, your face reddening immediately, it was him, Ben was there, but how did he enter your apartment?? You have always been paranoid, scared that someone would get inside, paranoid enough to get many more locks and install it on the front door, isolating yourself to the points it made you even think of doing things to yourself if that would make you safe, but as you met Ben, and he showed you how much he could do to protect you just in the internet, and that the internet could impact many ways how one lived, that made you trust him.

So now with that soft tone, those lips pronouncing words, making you lower your guard to just listen to him, your whole expression softened, as you felt your knees shaking, you relaxed as you realised who was that person right in front of you, the relaxing so effective that you sat down on the chair again, since your knees were already giving up, just trying to figure it out on his own made your head spin, you looked up at Benjamin, eyebrows furrowed, eyes narrowing as Ben spoke “hey, calm down sweetheart, i am here, aren't ya' happy?“ he said, and you couldn't understand if you really were happy or not, he kneeled in front of you, placing both his hands on your knees, stroking the bone in it with his thumb, and your gaze softened even more “you are not human..“ you managed to spell out, your voice trembling, fear, denial, and also comfort, comfort to hear your voice and know your presence, Benjamin sighed and fluttered his eyes closed as he knew how hard it would be to explain “but does it matter? I am here now.. you still love me don't ya' bun?“

Love him? Love him? Only love him? The nights you spent staring at your phone screen like an addict, the nights you spent crying as your mind created every imaginary escape of everything bad could happen to someone you never ever saw a face and just recognized the voice, that same voice that talked you to sleep for hours, you waited for him for seven months, your eyes stared at those totally red orbs like a pool of blood “what question is that?“ you said, and the silence that involved them after that question was huge, and you shivered as you reformulated the question, to avoid the awkwardness “of course i do.. I waited for you, and you never even let me get a warning about it or.. or ... A reasoning!“ you said, trying to get up but Benjamin held you down in the chair “i know.. and i am sorry“ Ben said, eyes looking up at you, the eye contact in between you two never broke for a second

“Then why?“ you asked, your tone trembling, a cry threatening to spill in your voice, and BEN just sighed, he wished he could tell you everything, but he couldn't, the operator would kill him and you before he could even finish it, and he didn't want to put you at risk anyways “i promise, i didn't even glance at any other person in a wrong way.. but i can't tell you what happened.. I am not ready, maybe one day?“ Ben said, his gaze carrying a hopeful look in them, you sighed, and right now, you just wanted to stay with your boyfriend, you got to your knees too, in eye level with him since you both were quite the same height, some inches as different, and you just opened your arms inviting him to your embrace, which the blonde helpfully got in-between, he kissed your cheek as his arms wrapped around your torso, inhaling his scent, you melted, and immediately broke down on his shoulder, letting all your yearning get in the midst of the hug, his fingers carded through your hair, gripping it slightly, not with enough strenght to hurt you, just enough to ground you in the hug, you cried harder, mumbling words and spilling others as you spoke about how much you missed him, and he stroked your hair, comforting you

The last thing BEN wanted was to see his lover crying, but he knew you needed this right now, and so, he respected it, recomforting you, pulling you closer.

After some minutes of you crying on his shoulder that felt like hours, you slowly calmed down, your breath slowly evening out, as he pulled back to wipe down the tears on your face glancing at your eyes, his thumb stroking your cheek, and you could see he was also holding tears from seeing you so miserable and so lonely in his arms, he didn't want to let you go, he leaned in closer, waiting for you silence permission, taking some seconds to see if you would pull away, to kiss your lips gently, his lips didn't felt so rough, in fact, it felt soft for a man's, you leaned in closer, as he wrapped his arms around your neck, and you whined against those lips, the kiss felt like heaven had installed in between the two of you in that room, as you broke down to catch some breath you were surprised to see he wasn't even out of breath, but you didn't question it, assuming that he was just Ben being extraordinary like always.

One of your hands had found his blonde locks as you were kissing, and you just came in to realise it now, after all the kissing session was gone, you nuzzled in his neck, inhaling his scent, your arms tightening around his torso as he whispered “i love you Y/N, you can't even imagine how happy i am to have you in my arms..“ he said and you felt your heart beat going faster, as you mumbled against his neck an "I love you too" he chuckled,