Year of the New Woman

I’m done feeling crazy for being sane and normally reacting to the intolerable. In fact, my reactions are reasonable. Hence I do them and if they were unreasonable to me, the thought ends there albeit the thought has been had.

With all that being said:

I’m brilliant, funny, intelligent, confident, and a damn good writer-holic.

Hello everyone,

In my depression, I found that my best friend is myself. This morning I am controlling my mind and not the other way around. For days I have been reinforcing that I’m crazy, anxious, broken, ill, etc,. It has been overwhelming and paralyzing. I often find myself trying to distract my overactive, overly critical mind. I feel that I’m actually giving it more power and making it stronger. So this morning I said enough. I said that I am my best friend, and I’m fighting back. I’m not crazy, anxious, broken, And not Ill. I am going through this and I’m getting better. It is incredibly hard to unravel and move on from the past. But with each passing minute, I am. The past is not here, the future is ahead, and the present is now.

I would like to share with you next time! See you soon.

For example, instead of putting myself first... I try to accommodate the needs of others to keep me happy. I’m not nearly as happy as when I took 10 minutes out to learn Chinese or read my mythology.

I am a bit dismayed but I’m trying to be positive because I’ve caught myself doing old patterns. That’s the beginning to stop.

Just going through a list of my likes..

I like to play a sport. Preferably some martial arts or gymnastics.

I am not big on science but I do like earth science and studying minerals.

Dancing is fun.

Reading books is great. I like my mythology.

I like to plant stuff that produces return.

I enjoy swimming, going on hikes, having a can do attitude.