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well this character sheet is OLD and i will remake one day cuz a friend said his head looks more like a helmet than being a chainsaw... toodles! anyway have this post for now i will be back

Thank you in advance <3, here's some examples of my work:

https://vgen.co/goticamarey

[Recommended read: What is Saint Seiya?] [First part!]

Hello, everyone! @sodasexual and I have finally decided to codify the plot of this AU. Starting from this post, we’ll slowly convey the story of this verse, present the relevant characters as they appear and explain more about the Saint Seiya verse and how its lore and rules apply here. For the sake of our sanity, these posts will be half outlines, half fanfic chapters. We hope you enjoy!

Another anon asked: The whole situation with Gamzee has me turning sour because he was a genuinely good person before he went sober and that’s... not how addicts act when they’re off something. Considering sopor has been confirmed to be dangerous I would even go so far as to say he would have been better if he was just left to process his addiction and rehabilitate normally but no. Make the sweet guy who cares for his friends an absolute monster. Thanks Hussie

The combination of these two points is, frankly, what makes me furious about Gamzee’s treatment in both Homestuck and Homestuck 2.

Gamzee is heavily coded to suffer from psychosis. My boyfriend has it; a lot of the things Gamzee goes through (the religious delusions, the paranoia, the violent thoughts and actions, the severe hallucinations) are things I’ve seen in my real-life partner. They’re things that happen specifically when he’s off his meds, when he’s at his least stable - and they’re things that genuinely harm him if I can’t help him or make him take his meds at a more regular time again. 

It’s a real-life fact of psychosis. It’s not inherently bad to show a character suffering from these things, because in truth, that’s just showing how badly psychosis can affect a person - how scary it is to suffer from it when you’re the one seeing the hallucinations and the delusions, when you have that never-ending paranoia and nobody else does. When my partner goes through psychotic episodes, I am more scared for his safety than anything else - and that’s what, honestly, should be seen more in the representation of psychosis. 

Instead? Hussie plays Gamzee into every fucking horror trope known to man. He becomes a violent, volatile murderer who acts without care for the people around him, who is terrifying and vicious and snaps only when he’s been off of his self-medication for a signifcant period of time, but specifically when there’s a trigger (so it seems “out of the blue” and unprovoked, which isn’t actually what happens with psychosis but hypes up that terror). It’s the perpetuation of the idea that psychosis is a scary mental illness that breeds murderers and that medication only “soothes the beast”, which is frankly disgusting. Especially when Gamzee’s first act after snapping is the methodical hunting of each of his friends. 

It’s this reminder that people with psychosis “cannot be trusted”, even when medicated, because it’s only a slip-up that you’ll never see coming away from slaughter. 

You know the worst thing my boyfriend has done while off his meds? Harmed himself. Taken drugs and drink and self harmed while I was sleeping and had no way of stopping him. His first instinct is to hurt himself. Not other people. Not to go hunting for victims. Even at his most volatile, with the worst intrusive thoughts of violence in his mind, he only ever hurts himself. 

And this is what I hate the most about Gamzee’s situation. It’s just a perpetuation that harms people with psychosis, who already struggle with getting help and not being abused in institutions. It paints every good thing he’s ever done as some lie that hides the face of murder, when that’s just not how the mental illness works. Psychosis isn’t the “true face” of the person; the person they are while on medication is who they are. 

That doesn’t even get into the whole concept of demonic possession that is often tied to mental illness in horror flicks. Or how often (historically) in religion “genuine mental illness” is subjected to psychological torture because people assume it’s demonic influence. 

Yet, at the same time, he’s the perpetuation of every violent drug addict stereotype we’ve ever seen. Getting someone off of their addiction doesn’t inherently turn them into violatile murderers, but it sure is something media likes to portray - and, again, facilitiates this idea that the medicated self isn’t the “true” self, but rather “how the medication affects you”. As if that’s some sort of lie? As if dear, sweet Gamzee was never real, and everything he does after going off of drugs is what he’s always been. 

It’s not only just completely wrong to real life situations - considering drug addiction is incredibly detrimental to the person and withdrawal is often one of the hardest things a person can go through, as well as an ongoing experience that sometimes takes years of dedication to achieve - but also just feeds in further to the anti-black stereotype (of black men becoming more volatile when denied their addictions). 

It also just never goes into Gamzee’s withdrawal at all? Which is part of the inherent problem in Gamzee becoming a villain in the later Acts. You’d think, once he’s been forced to go cold turkey for that long and incapable of lapsing back into addiction, that he’d slowly start a very troubled road to recovery that brings back the sweet boy we saw in Act 5. But no. That boy never comes back. He gets off the sopor, and it’s this slow burn to continuous violence to enforce the idea that the initial view we got of Gamzee wasn’t real. 

finished ~

hello ! its been a little while

thank u @shittishittibangbang !!!!!

currently reading: the murder of roger ackroyd for college! in my own time, the last book i was reading for myself was warrior cats hidden moon though. i rlly need to get back on the grind

last song: apparently it was six little eggs? but i don’t think it was i was just looking up versions. i keep listening to ring ring ring by tyler, the creator as of recent. sorry spotify is just saying “oh the last songs you listened to were in your liked playlist ☺️” like yeah i know that but WHAT SONGS WERE THEY

last film: THE BATMAN (2022) LAST NIGHT IT WAS SO GOOOOOOOODDDD

last tv series: i’ve had the tv on all night and 8 out of 10 cats is on now. i think by choice was a british soap that im too shy to name.

sweet/sour/savoury: SAVOURY ALWAYSSSSs but i do like my sweet treats. not the biggest sour fan

working on: babysitting my puppyyyyy!!! but actually i don’t remember. i was doodling earlier, ive been meaning to do college work too

tea/coffee: i’ve never had either! the closest i ever had was when i tried boba but . i didn’t like that either. i genuinely prefer water

THANK YEWWW for tagging me i realise my answers were so very awkward. who do i tag

Currently reading: "The Trial", by Franz Kafka, though very, very slowly. I was also reading "Open Veins of Latin America" by Eduardo Galeano months ago! It really opened my mind.

Last song: Saint Seiya soundtrack... though since it was a compilation, I don't know which track exactly...

Last film: "Notting Hill", I suppose? I was watching with my mom

Last TV series: "A Grande Família". Just got to the third season. Besides that, I'm also keeping up with "One Punch Man"!

Sweet/sour/savory: SWEET ALL THE WAY!! I have a huge sweet tooth, but besides that, I really like savory things like cheese.

Working on: a drawing for my friends' Secret Santa : )

Tea/coffee: I like coffee flavored things, but the real real coffee tends to be too bitter for me... I really like tea, though. Sugarless, even!

Thanks for tagging! I'm sorry if my answers are a bit dry: I genuinely don't know what to do in these kinds of games ksdhfksdhfsdf

Last song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofcPxy72lJA

Last film: can't remember, i stopped watching movies for a while now

Last TV series: Dragon Ball Z with my girlfriend, we just got started with the Namek saga

Sweet/sour/savory: Sweet, absolutely!

Working on: OC designs for my girlfriend

Tea/coffee: Tea in absolutely any situation with sugar or not, coffee literally tastes like if you managed to turn scorched food into a liquid

i don't have many active friends that i know around here but thanks for tagging me!

[Saint Seiya x Mob Psycho 100 Crossover AU; made by me and @sodasexual]

After Tsubomi's tournament for the newly graduated Bronze Saints, the Galaxian War, goes terribly wrong, strange events start to happen. The tournament participants disappear one by one, and soon after Mob and the others start to be attacked by a sinister group of Silver Saints, the Scars. These soldiers' mission is to capture them, since the Sanctuary has acquired interest in turning these children into their new generation of henchmen.

YOU ARE AN 🙂 (Average Sunday Morning at the Holiday Residence)

animated the "It's okay not to smile" scene from chapter 4