🤍 loquette 🤍

>>>>>>> seeing hot girls on my hinge that i won't message just because they're sk1nn13r than me

the cold weather is beating my ass right now

seeing all the summer th1nspø from the northern hemisphere is making me sooooo jealous

upside is being able to hide my body from my mum without suspicion

but i still haven't w3igh3d myself since may cause i haven't been consistent :(

went out to a lesbian night at a gay bar after a workout with nothing but a protein bar and 2 eggs in my tummy

totaling 58g of protein and around 6 shots of vodka/tequila

loving this weird combo of fitness and alcoholism

bruh

eating a high protein diet + low c@1s has absolutely ruined my bowels

tell me why im ripping the most unbelievably rancid gas every 20 seconds

yesterday pretty much confirmed that my aunt stayed with me while my parents were away just to make sure i ate. urgh

i love her and i had a good time for a month while she was here but i also could've lost soooooo much weight if i was by myself

Crankt bar: 897 kJ, protein 20.1g

100g cucumber: 50 kJ, 0g

42g Protein puffs: 728 kJ, protein 32g

Rokeby protein smoothie: 1060 kJ, protein 30g 100

Gross total: 2735 kJ/ 641.7 c@l

Active kJ/c@l burned: 15, 181 steps, 1442 kj

Net total: 1293 kJ/ 309 c@l, 82.1g protein

i kept looking down at my body wondering what he thought about it

he hadn't seen me in two years, since i was 10 kG heavier

i walked around his room naked without the embarrassment of a flabby body

it felt so comforting having his large hands on my ribs and thighs

him fully covering me as i lay beneath him, flipping me around easily

there's something so strange about putting on muscle.

my body looks more toned, but i can't fit my hand around my upper arm anymore.

my mum just had the official "do you have an 3@ting d1s0rder" conversation.

what do i do????

her friends have been noticing and commenting on my weight loss saying im too thin.

i kept saying i havent noticed it cause i havent been weighing myself but i think shes not buying it.