Idk Anymore

I want to die

feeling like drinkin poison, blowing my head out, hanging myself and finally burning the leftovers

damn why am I hungry?? I ask, surprised, after eating 700 cals per day for 2 months 

im so fucking hungry

it terrifies me how easily I can lose track of calories. how naturally I slip into bad habits, taking another bite for lunch past my 300 cal limit, or skipping an exercise. I hope I’ll do well. 

1000 cals is not the end of the world, right??

anyways starving has a negative effect on studying (wtf, who would’ve thought??) but ain’t no way im stopping. catch my acing my finals and losing weight 

I keep making bad decisions but at least I’m losing weight 

nothing brings me joy like losing weight does