instrument of war.

WHAT KIND OF DOG ARE YOU.

Manon: *drags him* Charles: ♥‿♥

That part wherein Peter says “Mr. Stark, I don’t feel so good” as he touches his stomach. And you get to witness it slowly happening to him, slowly realizing what’s about to happen to him because of his Spider Sense.

Then Peter walks to Tony and Tony goes “You’re alright” reassuring this boy, this kid who wasn’t even supposed to be in space and wasn’t supposed to be involved in this war—he was supposed to be back on Earth on his field trip. Then Peter’s legs give out as he throws himself to Tony, but his healing ability tries to fix that as his legs disappear but there’s only so much his powers could do. But this also means he gets to experience the pain way so much more compared to the others because his senses are dialed to eleven—there was just so much input. “I don’t know what’s happening.”

He was in so much pain while he was dying.

Then Peter cries as he clings harder to Tony because he’s a kid and what do kids do when they can’t help themselves and they don’t know what to do? They go to an adult. Tony Stark is someone who Peter idolizes so much, he believes that Mr. Stark will be able to save him, like he always had.

So he begs as he cries.

“I don’t wanna go. I don’t wanna go, Mr. Stark, please. I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna go. I don’t want to go.”

That last “I don’t want to go” was the most heartbreaking because his voice, he sounded like a helpless kid as his voice cracks, sobbing so hard, clinging as much as he could hoping Mr. Stark would make everything better because he knows that Mr. Stark is the best.

Peter is so scared. So, so so scared of dying. He’s so young, he’s only 17. He hasn’t done much yet being a friendly neighborhood Spider-Man. Hasn’t proven himself enough.

Then he says “I’m sorry.”

He’s sorry because he didn’t listen when he was told to go back to Earth. He’s sorry because he failed Iron Man. He’s sorry because he knew Tony would be guilty and would blame himself if he died. He’s sorry because he’s not strong enough and he’s not worthy to be an Avenger after all. 

And we get to see how affected Tony was, how he was also crying because this kid wants him to save him, to keep him safe—he promised to keep this boy safe. He made him the Iron Spider suit to prevent this from happening. He was going to catch this kid whenever he falls and he did but then it wasn’t good enough because here Peter was, a kid he grew to love so much… dying in his arms and he can’t do anything about it.

It was Tony’s worst nightmare.

I love how they took time to actually show it, and not just let Peter disintegrate quickly like the rest. They gave them a moment. A very sad one that made most of us weep in the cinemas because Tony wanted a kid and slowly he realizes that all along he had one and it was Peter. 

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