honey for healing

if this is how you're feeling, try focusing on the things that do feel like choices. you can choose to splash cold water on your face. you can choose to put on a song and scream the words at the top of your lungs. you can choose to turn on the lights around you. you can choose to keep breathing, keep staying alive.

so, what is the weather like today? is it hot and sunny? unbearably humid? raining, on the verge of raining? it's hot where I am, but not as hot as it could be, so i feel pretty lucky. going outside on days where only the inside feels safe can be hard. even on days where the inside doesn't feel so safe, we can get tunnel vision and can't even imagine that by merely changing our surroundings-- by merely going outside-- things can feel even a little bit lighter, a little more bearable. 

today, try going outside for a while. even five minutes. if it's raining (or snowing!) maybe only two or three. if even this feels unbearable, no matter the weather, try thirty seconds. close your eyes and count them off inside, one, two, three...