T H E / S U N

at times when hope is too big of a thing to have, curiosity (even clinical or small) is a very good placeholder

being in yr 20s is abt experiencing the worst thing you can imagine & then having to go to the grocery store

you may listen to fall out boy but i listen to them in a more mentally ill and profound way

And in these next 50 years you will eat so many delicious meals, laugh so many times with so many people you love, shout and scream and sing and cry and smile so hard your face hurts. And you will see such beautiful sunsets and feel fresh cold air on your face and feel warm and safe wrapped up in your favourite winter coat.

This just seems the right time to share that my grandmother once told the family her second cousin had "erotic autism" instead of an aortic aneurysm

google search Beautiful rocks near me

growing up being autistic but not knowing is just *hiding in room while people are over* *getting tired and needing to recharge after the smallest chores* *getting called a gifted kid* *knowing that you’re “weird” because people are making fun of you but not knowing how to stop being weird* *having adults tell you how “mature” you are* *getting in trouble for not doing work* *convincing yourself that you’re just lazy and stupid because you can’t make yourself do work* *getting really invested in “weird” media*

can't believe i am going to die someday LOL. well back to sitting in my bedroom