miss paramour

yelyahwilliams commented: at least we look cute in our jerseys even if there’s stress. Happy to have this as my first live football game. 🥰

yelyahwilliams: sourcing vintage band tees is my favorite past time. I’ll hook you up @.Sophiet independent women. We don’t need to steal. 😂

sophiet: @/yelyahwilliam do you do that frequently? I mean I won't say no because I've always been an independent woman but sometimes we gotta just share clothes with our guys.

yelyahwilliams: @.Sophiet I’m always contacting my fave vintage places to see what they’ve got. Send me your order and I’ll source it 🫡 as my guy so kindly called me out for it… you’re right.

sophiet: when you've resorted to stealing vintage band tees as your go to outfits now and realize how soft they are and are gonna find a way to never give them back. #justgirlythings

yelyahwilliams: sourcing vintage band tees is my favorite past time. I’ll hook you up @.Sophiet independent women. We don’t need to steal. 😂

Hayley: if it doesn't then that's okay, too. we'll have a way to make everything work. At least my timezone will be similar to his this time around. how's it feel to know you're going to be in one place for a long time? what even is fanboy aesthetic? i'm not cool anymore, billie. these gen z terms are confusing. that's not going to happen for a long time - it's more for both our peace of minds that we're healthy and it could be an option at some stage, if that's what we want to explore. Hayley: baby, I hate to break this to you but unless you have twins, or there's back to back pregnancies... I don't think that's realistic goal for you anymore. Don't stress yourself out about the whole kids thing. It's putting unnecessary pressure on yourself, and the body isn't going to respond well to that. I think no matter what happens, someone is going to get hurt. whether it's one of the men, you or everyone. i don't even want to say it's a love triangle cause that just.. ick. if you have serious feelings for the both of them then you need to take a step back and tell them you need time to sort things out. if they feel the same way towards you, they'll repsect that. Hayley: or you can say fuck it all and everyone just dates each other. power throuple.

Rob: Rude to roll your eyes, I thought I was your friend? Rob: Yeah, kinda. I can be a bit but all in good fun. Rob: Alright, more than sometimes. Deep breath. Rob: Didn't get to catch you at the wedding, feel like you're hiding Josh from me which he's my friend you know?

Hayley: you are one of my best friends, so you get all the eye rolls 🙄🙄🙄 Hayley: thanks for admitting that you miss me, though. Hayley: there were so many people there, it was so overwhelming, not going to lie. i think my adhd played up at some stage and i went to hide for a hot second. i'd never hide him, please. are you going to give him some kind of friend talk? shouldn't you be giving that to me, too?

Hayley: not entirely sure, honestly. taking a two week vacation in the middle of filming probably didn't help his schedule 😂 if he wants to come on tour with me then i'd happily have him there. we're figuring out as we go. ah, well it's not something that we're going to be jumping into straight away cause again, way too soon but i'm going to get tested to see how my fertility and things are. to see if there's any chance of me having kids in the future. being a mom is something that i always wanted, so - options on how that would happen. Hayley: Look, Taylor & I didn't break up because of the lack of love, either. We just weren't working together. It wasn't good for either of us and it took a while to get back to the friendship level of things. Sometimes love just isn't enough to fix whatever is going on. So while I can acknowledge I'll always hold a place in my heart for Taylor - I moved on. And now I have something really great with Josh. I know you and I are different people. But it's just one perspective. When you think about being with someone, who does your mind go to?

Billie: well he taught me something new because I never knew there were rules to being a cougar haha 😂 I get that! Tour is great until you start getting homesick. It’s always nice to have those little moments of a break to get back to who we love. It helps a lot to keep us going. How is josh handling the tour life? Ahh we had a bit of a squabble on Twitter a few weeks ago. But we agreed to speak it out instead and not argue and it’s just been a whirlwind for me. Things with Benito are wonderful, he’s wonderful. I have no complaints there. I’ve actually been thinking about having something more with Benny. The closure with Shawn is just… girl, I don’t know. We broke up seven months ago. I’m still not over him if I’m being honest with you. I’d be lying to you if I said I didn’t still have such a pull to him.

Hayley: the more you know. Guess I'll never be a cougar cause i can't imagine dating someone ten years younger than me. They'd still be in their 20s 😬 he knows that it's my job and something that i love so he's handling it well - the long distance was hard, so that's why i'm open to living in the same building as him for a little. i think my next tour will really test us - there's a few other things that we've decided to do, too. so if we can make things work while i'm on the road for three months, he's truly the man for me 🫣 If you're not over someone then starting something with someone else just leaves room for everything to get very messy, Bills. It isn't fair to anyone in the situation. Do you have a pull towards him because of your past with him or because there's actual feelings? If you really want to start a relationship with benito (although i already thought you were in one with him) you need to be honest with him, too. i'd hate to find out that my partner still has feelings for an ex.

Billie: nope! Not yet! And that sounds like a plan! Aw, you guys are really cute. I’m glad things are going so well for you! How are you feeling about everything? Eh, because I’m just a little jumbled with emotions. I started speaking back to Shawn again after our little Twitter debacle. So that’s been kind of twisting how I feel because we’re finally speaking about why we broke up and it just kind of sucks to hear all the things I wanted to hear months ago.

Hayley: they are, although josh told me that i can't be a cougar cause i'm not over 40 & not at least ten years older than him 😂 i didn't know those were the rules. feeling really good - just excited to spend time with josh & friends/family, without work having to pull me away for a little bit, honestly. i love touring, don't get me wrong - i just got exhausted. what twitter debacle? if he's only saying things to you now - don't let it mess with your head too much. You've got a good thing with benito, don't you? do you feel like you're getting proper closure with shawn?