so very far from fine

sometimes i wish i were without a body Left to coexist as a mere being. no one could touch me, I would never be hurt again.

You’re wearing your last goodbye on your face like dirty clothing and she won’t look at you, she won’t look at you because she loves you and this means forgetting, this means closing every door that leads to your hands and the bedpost notches on your spine, the both of you passing each other like lonely ghosts in the night except you held onto her wrist before she could leave and she stayed with you ever since. She loves you so she won’t meet your eyes or unshackle her unsteady deer like legs to get up from the sofa and tell you to go and fuck yourself for making her love you and not staying around for the collateral

But his love was too much for him, he felt paralyzed, he wanted to sleep inside her lungs and breathe her blood and be smothered.

I will hurt you for this. I don’t know how yet, but give me time. A day will come when you think yourself safe and happy, and suddenly your joy will turn to ashes in your mouth, and you’ll know the debt is paid.

You are shaking fists & trembling teeth. I know: You did not mean to be cruel. That does not mean you were kind.

She – just kept her thoughts to herself. She just –

A strong person isn’t the one who doesn’t cry. A strong person is the one who sheds tears for a moment, then picks up her sword and fights again.

She wore flowers in her hair and carried magic secrets in her eyes. She spoke to no one. She spent hours on the riverbank and had midnight swims.