My mom been hiding she suffered cancer from us since last year, she went to hospital by herself. My dad broke the news to us few months ago while crying. He found out accidentally after they went to hospital for something else. She refused hospital treatment. Her reason; it's covid era and she's already old and doesn't have much time left so why bother spending her limited time at hospital.
Every night since then I just can't stop thinking about drastic situations and moves I'm willing to take. Tried to distract myself from them by working but.. whenever I see her pale face, I feel suffocated. Dying is better than seeing her current state. Now she can't walk. I can't bear the thought of living this life without her. God.. this is such a heavy test You have brought for us
Mom left us on 23/2/2023.
She fought the cancer well.
