Happiness and everything in between 💛

You know that feeling when you think you’ve found the right person but you’re completely wrong for more times than one? 

That feeling cannot be explained in words. When you’re sitting at home, crying to yourself, physically feeling the pain that the one you love caused you...

I know that I’d never do that to him, he probably knows it too. And God, he promised so many things. So why didn’t he fulfil them? Why didn’t he hesitate to hurt me? 

And so I question myself, over and over again. I think about everything that I’ve done wrong for him and I to be separated. Every moment, I think of every single thing that could’ve changed my current reality because now, I miss him and it’s tearing me apart. 

I cannot focus on anything but him. Memories come flooding back, the happiness, the love that we shared. I think of him all day, all night, I fall asleep with tears streaming down my cheeks...but the only words I get from him is a ‘sorry’, or maybe even less. Like an apology actually compensates for the hurt he inflicted. 

He probably doesn’t even want to see me, asks me how I am if I’m lucky... but there isn’t much luck in that either, since the only thoughts running through my head is ‘come back’ and ‘why are you so concerned now?’. But I can’t say that...not because I don’t want to, but because I’m scared that he won’t bother checking on me again, and I savour that only text from him, knowing that he has already left. 

And of course, the desperation starts to kick in, but I wouldn’t want him to know that. Because it would show him that I care, and I’d be a fool to...but I do.

So I cry for months...until one day, I decide that it’s time to move on. He’ll never care as much as I did but I still have the good memories. I need to pick myself up and find my self worth. 

Because through all this, I’ve learnt the most important lesson from life...to love and to let go. 

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I never really realised it until I read this... We change so much when we become teenagers. Everything changes... People who you thought were your friends when you were 6, turn into your enemies. Mostly, people change and so do we. We get so caught up in being like everyone else that time flies past. We waste our teenage years on people who we aspire to be like and less on people that truly matter. So make the best of your teenage years because they will never come back xx 

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Relationships and love is tough... No matter how much you want it to work out, it may never be. However, you should never give up on a person that you love xx

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Don’t waste another day... Difference is frowned upon by many but you should find the confidence in yourself to change that... Be who you are, not whatever other people want you to be xx

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