HAPPYFIED 💁🏻

10 days ago I gave birth to a healthy baby girl, and I must say, it was the hardest, but the most fulfilling feeling ever. After 24 hours of labor and stitches on my tummy, here I am breastfeeding my little cute 10 days old. The first 2 days of her life was a little blur to me, all due to tons of medicines injected on me. On her 3rd, we finally went home and it became harder. Postpartum depression hit me, there was no moment I didn't feel like crying, the littlest things make me sad - even the fact that I couldnt make my husband his morning coffee and the nanny had to do it for me. Changes kind of shocked me - the late night baby cries, sleep deprivation, pain all over my body, sore nipples, and the fact that my life, my time, myself, is no longer "mine". I asked 2 pastors to pray for me, my mom and my husband also did, and after 7 long days, I have overcame it. PPD is real, but with God's grace I am over it. With all these hurdles and new challenges, I must say mommies are real heroes 💪🏼

And by the way, it’s a girl 👧🏻

I miss this busy street of Hongkong.. Take me baccckkk 😩

Being pregnant kind of drives me nuts. As of now I am 10 weeks pregnant and I still have morning sickness. Every day I wake up nauseaus and my lower abdomen hurts the whole day. Not that I am complaining, this is just me documenting my pregnancy experience. The smell of onion, even the sight of tomatoes really makes me ill. The aroma of coffee usually brings me joy in the morning but right now, it only makes me wanna throw up. Weird, right? And tell you what, I eat like a big fat man. Haha. It's fun though, the fact that I could eat whatever I want because.....because hormones said so 😈🙋🏻 Thank goodness I have a supportive husband and he tries to give whatever I crave. Even if that means asking our neighbors late at night for some Kamias. Or even if it means eating out in a very expensive resto to eat 1/4kg of steak. Yep, somebody's going extra large! 🐷🙋🏻 Man, I couldnt wait more to see my little one 👶🏼 7 more months, my love 💕💋

So, that’s all for now. It has been an amazing year. Truly, when you commit yourself to the Lord, blessings will be poured out unto you. Since 2016 started, my husband and I decided to give 10% of our monthly earnings to the church, and look at the blessings in return. I do not deserve any of this but God works amazingly and I will always always always be committed to Him. Thank you, Father. To God be the highest glory.

Hello, little bundle of joy. As of now, you're as little as a poppy seed but I can already feel you inside mommy's tummy and you have effortlessly invaded mommy's heart. I still can't believe I am becoming a mom, and you don't know the joy we got when we knew. The smile on your father's face, his kiss and that tight hug when he knew he's going to be a dad. It felt surreal, love. See you in 8months!

You know my thoughts, my fears and my worries. Father, please take them all away. I feel tired. I am putting all my trust in You, because I know that You have plans for me, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give me a future and a hope (Jermiah 29:11) God, I am keeping faith that the best is yet to come. One day I will reread this post and say how really blessed I am and I promise, when that time comes, I would make a testimony and share it to the world. Truth is, I've been wanting to share Your words ever since, You know that. I've written this post about picking something up whenever we fall, and I only need a whole lot of courage to preach it. You've given me the gift to teach and preach but I am way too shy to try. I don't know, maybe not yet, not now, but soon I promise I will. For now, help me clear my anxieties, my envious and selfish thoughts, my worries and my fears. I need You, Father...

The past few days, there's this certain thought that really muddled me up. My husband and I decided to permanently move to his hometown in Pampanga. It was one of the toughest decision I had to make - leaving home. And by leaving home, it meant that I have to leave also my current job. For the past three months, I have accepted the fact that I have to leave home, but to leave my work? It was tough. Luckily, I received this job offer from this certain company located in his hometown. One thursday night, I was so determined to file my resignation the next day, but before doing so, I asked God if I was doing the right thing. The next morning, I woke up with a heavy heart, separation anxiety hit me so hard. I cried buckets of tears that morning that I have to call in sick to work. Suddenly, I felt so confused I really do not know what to do. So I gave it another day to rethink it all through. I asked my parents, my husband, my siblings what to do. We prayed and asked God for signs and answers. After much considerable thought, I have declined the offer. I know it wasn't for me. Blessed that I am, there had been recent transitions and lateral movements at work, and I was given the opportunity to transfer to Pampanga branch! Meaning, I won't have to leave my company just to move in to his hometown. God is indeed so good! :)

As I write this, I am currently around 20,000+ up from the ground as I leave Hong Kong. It has been an amazing trip, although of course there had been some mishaps. This is my first time going out of the country hence a little clueless with certain things such using the MTR, going thru immigrations, and whatnot. Here's a bullet post to sum up my trip: Things I Learned from HK & Macau: * MTR is an efficient way to travel and go places around HK. The map looks a bit confusing but it really is simple. Buy an octopus card so that you won't have to buy tickets repeatedly. We loaded our card with $150 and we only consumed $97, the rest had been refunded in the airport. * Be aware of the weather! I thought HK has the same weather with PH, hence I brought summer clothes. Boooh! Current HK weather: 13 degree celsius! Brrr! * Don't trust Airbnb reviews and pictures. We booked a whole apartment with Airbnb expecting the room to be what it is in the picture, but when we got there, the room is so tiny we would bump into each other. It wasnt as clean as I expected, the lift and the building itself looks old, and the comfort room is way way wayyyy too quaint. The only thing I liked about it is the location, since it's near with the MTR, some Chinese restos and shops. * When travelling in Macau, there are shuttles you can use for free. These shuttles are sponsored by different hotels and casinos. I suggest you ride a bus going to Wynn Hotel, because it's just a few minutes walk to Ruins of St Paul and nearby tourist spots. Walk around the city and ride another bus going to Galaxy Macau, this place is awesome. Surely, we had to try playing in the Casino. I tried the slot machine, and voila, my $10 became $153. Beginner's luck, indeed :) After playing, we got out the hotel and walked inside another hotel called Diamond Hotel, they have this place wherein it has this amazing water fountain show you shouldn't miss. After it, walked out of the hotel and ride another shuttle going to the Venetian Hotel. * Never use a duffle bag for a 5 day trip. Hahaha. Silly me, I had to endure pain in my back, shoulder and arms. Argh. * Purchase your Disneyland ticket online! The ticket costs $539 if you buy it in Disneyland ticketing office, but we bought our tickets from Klook.com for only $480 :) * Use your most comfortable shoes. Touring is fun, but it requires lots of walking and if you want to avoid blisters around your toes, wear something comfy. * Chinese people aren't really good with English. But fret not, sign languages sometimes do work. Hahaha. * Ladies Market offers wide variety of souvenirs and clothes. Haggle for prices and you'd be surprised how a $300 watch could go down $150 :) * HK airport is so big we almost lost our flight. When we checked in, we had a little trouble finding the departure area. Little did we know that we had to ride the train to transfer from the check in counters to the immigration centers and then to the boarding gates. * If you're going to travel with kids, bring tons of patience with you. Hahaha. * Shop in Mongkok, stay in Kowloon. Aaaaand that's all for now :) We just landed in Manila and I'm about to get off the plane :)

Magical! #hksepanx

They say, risk is good especially when managed. Part of risk is change, new things yet to unfold and challenges to conquer in order to strive for a certain goal. To be honest, I am not a fond of change. I’m the person who would always choose the familiar path/thing rather than the new, simply because I play safe. All my life I've made poor choices I always regret, and I guess that made me like this. I became a coward. The fear of the unknown scares me that sometimes I lose myself with my thoughts. I lack courage, and I worry an awful lot. I wish I am braver, I wish I could do things differently. Man, I am so confused right now.

💕💜 to freedom 🍂

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God, thank YOU so much for all the blessings You have given me although I do not deserve any of them. Forgive me for being ungrateful these past few days 😢 I promise to try harder in seeking good things in every bad situations this time. THANK YOU!

#staycation

Cebu's lechon!!! 🐷🐽 #cravingsatisfied

Day2of12 Today is basically the same as yesterday. Seriously, I had exactly the same routine: woke up, had breakfast, went to work for this certification program training, got bored, went back to the hotel. Today is most likely déjà vu. Hahaha. I miss home. I even miss waking up so early to cook breakfast for my husby (which I hated the most before). I miss him. It has only been 3 days and I could really cry a bucket now. Hashtag: clingywifeybelike. This is probably due to my premenstrual syndrome, and I'm a girl, so yes, I have a mood as crazy as a roller coaster ride. Haha. I couldn't wait more to be back home :'(