Mii Virtual Illusion

I'm kinda unsure about how I should eat today. I have my early b'daii thing and we're going to k-town~ God I want Bulgogi!!! Oh and we're going to the theaters~ Is it wrong for me to be scared about my KCal intake? It always keeps me up at night. Perhaps I shouldn't care what I eat today...Cake, bbq beef, soda...but then...it seems so fucking disgusting to put that in my body. My body is precious to me more these days than it ever was before~ What should I do?

I don't really want to have an ED, I want to lose the healthy way. On the other hand, is it wrong to strave for just a few days at a time? Only drinking water & green tea? Perhaps ill have some veggies & fruits.

Just to clearly state it...I don't have an eating disorder I know exactly what I am doing and I am in full control. If I choose to fast some days, then that's what I'm going to do. Don't force me to eat all the time. If I'm hungry, I'll eat. However, knowing me...I won't eat till I really have to~ I like this quote...“Unless you puke, faint, or die, keep going”  I guess I want to go by it. How else will I show any progress. Judge me or whatever, words don't really affect me much. Like I tell a lot of people, I'm the master of not giving a fuck ㅋㅋㅋ~ 

For the rest of the month: Only water & Green tea for 4 days of the week, eat healthy/nutritious meals for the remaining days [should alternate]