Ken: “what do you mean? like all the time?” I nodded, and Ken shook his head no.

Dan: “we need to move his stuff back to my house Ken”

Ken: “No, he is my son”

Dan: “I know he is your son, but you were too busy drinking and fucking some girl, and now look where we are” I said gesturing towards the hallway of the hospital.

Paul: “DANIEL!” he yelled.

Dan: “I’m just saying… this wouldn’t have happened if he would have been at my house”

Ken: “I didn’t even know he was coming home! How is this my fault?”

Dan: “because if you wouldn’t have been drinking, you would have known Ken”

Ken: “I talked to Lilly, and she feels bad, and it’s not going to happen again, we-“

Dan: “I don’t care what you decide to do with your life anymore Ken… you can do whatever, I don’t care about you anymore…” I saw the hurt on his face, but I ignored it and kept going, because I’m so mad at him right now “But I do care about Drake, I love him so much, and I want him to move back into my house so that we can make sure he is taken care of. I really think he needs to come back home, we have more people around to keep an eye on him”

Ken: “you don’t think I can take care of him?” he said in a hurt tone.

Dan: “I’ve seen you drunk Ken, you can’t even take care of yourself”

Ken: “I didn’t know you were bringing him Home! If I would have known he was going to be coming home, I wouldn’t have started drinking, and Lilly wouldn’t have been over”

Dan: “You shouldn’t have been drinking anyway! you have a job Ken”

Ken: “you are an asshole, you aren’t taking my kid”

Dan: “you aren’t taking care of your kid!... still!”

Paul: “okay… guys, this conversation isn’t going nowhere. Dan, you are being rude, and Ken, I don’t think that Dan’s intention is to take your kid away”

Dan: “that is not my intention at all… I just think that Drake needs to be surrounded by people who love him-“

Ken: “you don’t think I love him?!”

Dan: “I know that you love him, but you can’t be home with him all the time… you need to work, and you sleep all day long, you drink, you are in a new relationship, I think that even you should be able to admit that your priorities haven’t been spending time with Drake lately”

Ken: “I’m trying to get better about that… I don’t want him to live somewhere else, I want him to live with me”

Dan: “Drake almost took his life away from all of us, and I think we all need to work together to make sure that doesn’t happen… and I’m sorry ken, but you can’t be there for him all the time, Deb and I can be”

Ken: “You guys have a baby! You can’t be-“

Dan: “I may be busy with a baby but at least I’m not drunk and sleeping around” Paul kept on trying to interrupt, and get us to stop arguing, but we just kept talking over him.

Ken: “I didn’t know he was coming home! I hadn’t seen him in two days! How is this my fault? It’s your fault! You should have realized he wasn’t okay! You must have done something to make him do this!”

Dan: “I didn’t do anything! I’ve been there for Drake every second since the accident! You wouldn’t even talk to him for MONTHS! DON’T BLAME THIS ON ME! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KILLED HIS FAMILY!” Ken gasped… shit… too far. Paul stood up and he grabbed my arm and he dragged me out of the waiting room, and into the hallway.

Paul: “DANIEL! what the hell is wrong with you?? Don’t say that to him!”

Dan: “well it’s true! He is acting like I’m trying to take his kid away from him or something! But I’ve been taking care of that kid all year! If anyone is trying to take Drake away, it’s him!”

Paul: “Shush! He can probably hear you! YOU need to calm down. What you said to him just now was completely uncalled for!” I sighed and lowered my voice.

Dan: “I’m just frustrated Paul… We’ve addressed this damn drinking issue with Ken, and obviously it wasn’t enough, and Drake wanted to go home, and I only let him because Ken was home and I thought it would be good for them to spend some time together… I had no idea Ken was drinking and having sex with some girl, I wouldn’t have sent him over there had I of known!”

Paul: “Dan… you need to put yourself into Ken’s shoes for a second, he is a LOT younger than we are, and he has already experienced so much loss… what if you got into a crash with Deb and Demi, and it killed them… I bet you that you would be struggling a hell of a lot right now too” I nodded…

Dan: “you’re right… I would be crushed, a-and I would probably not be coping in very good ways either” I nodded.

Paul: “He is really struggling, and yeah, he is making some mistakes but at least he is here now, and he is trying… which I’m really proud of him for… I know that this has all been really difficult for him… and honestly, I think what you just said to him was cruel, and I’m disappointed in you for acting like this” He said crossing his arms and glaring at me. “I’m not going to let you push blame on him for this just because you are frustrated Daniel. It’s not his fault”

Dan: “Drake wasn’t at my house when it happened… that’s all I was trying to say… maybe if he would have been at our house, this wouldn’t be happening right now”

Paul: “Ken has a good point Daniel…” Paul said annoyed… ”Drake left YOUR house, could you not tell that something was wrong with him?” I looked down.

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Demi’s POV:

Olivia and I have been trying to talk to Drake, but he sort of just spaced out the whole time, up until I started crying, that finally got his attention.

Drake: “what’s wrong?”

Demi: “are you kidding Drake? Do you even realize how bad you are hurting all of us?”

Olivia: “Demi…”

Drake: “don’t act like you care” he mumbled.

Demi: “that’s bullshit!”

Drake: “is it?”

Demi: “of course I care about you… you are my brother”

Drake: “It’s interesting that you are sitting here crying, but If I would have tried to talk to you, you would have told me to leave you alone. so don’t act like you care when you don’t” I looked down… he is probably right about that. I would have probably told him to leave me alone. I’m an awful sister to everybody.

Demi: “I… I” tears ran down my face and I looked down… I don’t even know what to say.

Olivia: “Drake… why are you being like this? don’t try to push the blame on Demi, you could have talked to people, and you didn’t… you didn’t talk to me either! so you obviously didn’t even try to talk to her… We all care about you, including Demi! And we all love you, you can’t tell yourself that we don’t. I won’t let you”

Drake: “I’m just… I don’t want to be here anymore Olivia” he said looking at her with sad pained eyes.

Demi: “but we want you to be here… I know you don’t really care right now, but you scared all of us so bad”

Drake: “I didn’t mean to scare anyone, I just can’t do this anymore” he said looking down.

Olivia: “I’m so glad Taylor stopped you…”

Drake: “he didn’t stop me, he delayed me...” he whispered. Olivia and I both broke down and cried our eyes out, and Drake just kind of sat there looking broken.

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Dan’s POV:

Dan: “I knew that something was wrong with him... he was acting so weird”

Paul: “then why did you let him go?”

Dan: “I… I don’t know. Drake asked me if he could go home, but Ken was at work, and it was odd to me that he wanted to go home, because before he moved out he told me that he was scared that he wouldn’t get to spend enough time with us anymore… so I asked him why he wanted to go home, and he told me that it was because he couldn’t sleep without his own bed, and I knew that wasn’t true, because even when his bed was there, he only slept in it half the time, he sleeps in Taylor or Matthews beds most of the time… hell, that kid can sleep anywhere. So I knew that he was lying to me… so I called him out on it”

Paul: “what did he say?”

Dan: “He told me he didn’t want to be at our house, and I was honestly kind of hurt by that, because I miss the kid, and I was excited to have him back at the house, where I think he belongs”

Paul: “so did you just send him home because you were hurt?”

Dan: “no… I made him go to bed, well… actually Taylor made him go to bed, because Ken was already at work, and we didn’t have a key to the apartment anyway, the next day Drake still wanted to go home though, so I tried to talk to him about it… I knew Ken was going to be sleeping all day, so I tried to ask him what was wrong, or if he was mad at me or something, but he wouldn’t tell me, and I was kind of busy, and I didn’t want to keep arguing with him about it, so I let him go home… and the next thing I know, Olivia is telling us she thinks he is going to kill himself… I should have made him talk to me… I knew something was wrong, I could tell… I shouldn’t have let him go….” I said starting to tear up… Paul pulled me into a hug.

Paul: “it’s not your fault either” he whispered gently.

Dan: “I love him soo much… I don’t want him to be sad”

Paul: “I know, I don’t want him to be sad either. We need to come together as a family to help him through it… blaming each other, and fighting isn’t going to help, so I think you should apologize to Ken” I pulled away from Paul, and I shook my head no.

Dan: “I don’t want too” Paul raised his eyebrow and gave me a stern look. I groaned... “fine, I’ll apologize, I guess” Paul smiled

Paul: “good boy” he said messing up my hair. I rolled my eyes and pushed his hands away from my hair, and I tried to fix it.

Dan: “I’m just frustrated… Matthew is leaving, and there is nothing I can do about it, and now Drake wants to kill himself, and I feel so helpless, I don’t know how to help him, and I’m scared... I’m like really scared, I don’t want to lose him, I don’t want to lose Matthew… I don’t want to lose anybody else, it was hard enough to lose my dad… I can’t go through an-anymore l-loss” I tried to stay strong, and hold in my brokenness, but I couldn’t. I broke down into a sobbing mess and I sunk down onto my knees, onto the hospital floor. Paul kneeled down in front of me and he wrapped his arms around me, and I cried into his chest. I miss my dad so much, I regret not spending more time with him towards the end of his life, and Drake is so much younger then me, and he lost his mother, and his sister, and so I know on some level the pain that he is feeling, and I know that there isn’t really anything that anyone could do or say to take that pain away, I know that he is hurting and it scares the shit out of me… How can I possibly convince him to stay alive after everything he has been through? I guess all I can do is love him, and hope that that’s enough… oh god, I hope it’s enough. We stayed like this for awhile, until some guy came and asked if we were alright. Thankfully Paul talked to him, because I can’t right now. I’m feeling kind of embarrassed for my mental breakdown, but I’m telling myself that it’s okay… sometimes it’s just too much, and you need to cry and grieve and it’s not a bad thing, it’s okay to not be okay sometimes, and it’s okay to talk about it, and it’s okay to lean on someone when you need some support, don’t just hold it in, like drake did. I took some deep shaky breathes to try to calm down.

Paul: “I love you Daniel”

Dan: “I love you too” I said leaning closer to him. He lost his balance and he fell backwards, and I fell forward onto him. “opps, s-sorry” he laughed and kissed the top of my head.

Paul: “it’s okay”

Dan: “we need to get off the f-floor, this is embarrassing” he chuckled, and I got off of him, and we got up.

Paul: “you know… Ken is scared too, and he doesn’t want to lose anyone else either…” Paul trailed off.

Dan: “Okay okay… I get where you are coming from” I said trying to wipe my tears away “I was being rude and taking it out on him when he doesn’t deserve it. I’ll apologize”

Paul: “well, I’m glad you realized that without me having to find somewhere more private to discuss this with you” I felt my face blush, and I cringed. And Paul pulled me into another quick hug, before we walked back into the waiting room. Ken is sitting in the same spot, crying. Paul walked over and sat next to him, and he put his arm around him. Ken leaned onto his side. I can tell by the look on his face that he feels horrible.

Ken: “I totally messed up, this is my fault… I w-wish Emily was here” Paul frowned and pulled him closer.

Paul: “it’s going to be okay” Paul said softly.

Ken: “do you guys really not care what I do with my life anymore?” he said glancing up at me, before looking down... Ugh that was such a harsh thing to say to him. I grabbed the nearest chair and pulled it over to them, and I sat kind of in front of him and I grabbed both of his hands which kind of made him look up at me with a weird look, we were both arguing a few minutes ago, so I can understand his confusion.

Dan: “I’m really sorry for what I said… all of it. I didn’t mean it when I said that I don’t care what you do with your life anymore… that’s so far from the truth Ken, I do care about you a lot”

Ken: “it’s okay if you don’t… I know that I have been-“ I shook my head, stopping him from continuing

Dan: “I consider you to be like a little brother to me”

Ken: “really?” he said surprised. I nodded.

Dan: “yes, I know you probably don’t feel that way, because I’ve been kind of a jerk to you, but I do care about you, and I always have”

Ken: “you guys gave us a family when we needed one the m-most, and I really appreciate it”

Paul: “we all love you both so much”

Ken: “I always knew that you guys loved drake like he was one of your own, and I’m honestly so thankful for that because he needs all of you… like he really needs all of you… and I need you guys too, I guess” he said looking away awkwardly. “I’ve messed up a lot though… I know I’m the reason Drake wanted to do this… I feel selfish for wanting him to move out with me, I… I know I said I didn’t want you guys to take him away from me, but I.. I think I might have taken you guys away from him”

Paul: “Nobody is taking anybody away from anyone, we are a family, and we always will be. And don’t blame yourself for Drake doing this, we haven’t really gotten to speak to him, we don’t know what happened”

Ken: “I think I have a pretty good idea” he said looking down.

Dan: “Ken, I was frustrated when I tried to blame you… Paul’s right though, we don’t know anything, because Drake hasn’t told us what he is going through… I’m really sorry for pushing the blame on you, this isn’t your fault… and I’m like really sorry for saying what I did about the car crash, I feel so awful for saying that”

Ken: “but you were right though” he softly. His lip started trembling and he looked down as more tears ran down his face. I squeezed his hands a little

Dan: “Hey, look at me, please?” he bit his lip and he looked up and when his eyes met mine I started tearing up again too, because I can see the pain and guilt in his eyes, and… I feel like such a dick for what I said... “that’s n-not true Ken, it was a terrible accident”

Ken: “a terrible a-accident that could have been prevented if my eyes would have been on the road… drake would be happy, and none of this would be happening” he said letting go of my hands and burying his face in them. Paul pulled him close and rubbed his back.

Paul: “Ken, you need to stop blaming yourself”

Ken: “but it’s my fault… you guys even think so… Dan just said so”

Dan: “Ken, I didn’t mean that” I repeated.

Ken: “you wouldn’t have said it, if you didn’t think so” Paul grabbed his wrists, and he pulled Ken’s hands away from his face, and he made him look at him.

Paul: “that’s not true Ken… when you were in the hospital, you said hurtful things to Drake, you told him it was his fault, did you actually feel that way? Do you think it’s Drakes fault that Emily and Selena are gone?” Ken immediately shook his head no.

Ken: “No, I never thought that, I was just hurting so bad, and… it was selfish, but It was easy to take it out on him” he said biting his lip, he still feels bad about doing that to drake.

Paul: “see, you said something when you were upset that you didn’t mean, that’s what Dan did, it was uncalled for, wasn’t it, Daniel?” he said glaring at me. I nodded.

Dan: “yeah it was very uncalled for and I wish I could take it back, I’m really sorry”

Paul: “texting and driving is dangerous… I’m not going to deny that maybe you could have prevented it, if you would have been paying complete attention to the road, but drunk drivers kill people who were paying attention on the road all the time, so honestly Ken, we will never know. you guys were just in the wrong place at the wrong time, and… I’m so sorry about that… but you can’t keep blaming yourself anymore, you and Drake both blame yourselves so much for this, and it’s tearing you both apart”

Ken: ”How am I going to help him through this? He won’t even talk to me. I don’t know what to do”

Dan: “I don’t think any of us know what to do to help him, but… Taylor was somehow able to find him, and get to him just in time… so that tells me that it wasn’t Drake’s time to go, he has another chance… and we need to help him to make the most of it” Ken nodded.

Ken: “this is about Drake, I don’t know why I am having a mental break down, you guys should probably go visit with him, I’ll stay here”

Paul: “you don’t want to go back to his room?”

Ken: “he doesn’t want to see me, I’ll come try again tomorrow or something”

Paul: “well, why don’t you and I go for a walk, and talk about some stuff, and Dan can go back in with the kids for a while” Ken sat up and shook his head no

Ken: “Drake needs both of you, I’ll just wait here until you guys are ready to leave” Paul shook his head no.

Paul: “No I think you and I need to talk about some stuff, I’ll come see Drake again” Ken is having such a hard time, and Paul is closer to him then I am, Paul definitely needs to be the one he talks to, because I’m obviously not able to do it without making him feel worse. Ken sighed and nodded

Ken: “okay”

Paul: “Dan, we are going to walk around, and maybe go get a coffee or something, because Ken’s like… really exhausted, so text me when you guys are ready, and will come back” I nodded.

Ken: “I’m not exhausted, I’m fine”

Paul: “you are exhausted, don’t lie to me” Ken rolled his eyes and I laughed.

Ken: “I didn’t bring my wallet though”

Paul: “well, lucky for you, I brought mine. let’s go” he said standing up.

Ken: “you don’t have to buy me coffee” I heard him whine as they walked away. I have no doubt in my mind that Paul’s going to buy him that coffee. I took a deep breath and I ran my fingers through my hair. It’s hard to be here. I feel awful seeing Drake here, probably because I’m so protective of him, I wish I could take him home, and hug him and make him feel better… but it’s not always that easy, and unfortunately Drake needs to be here for a little bit. I sighed and stood up, and I moved the chair back to where it was. And then I went back to Drakes room, and I went inside, and the girls were both crying, which makes me sad. Drakes just laying in his bed looking broken.

Dan: “stand up a second, baby girl” I said walking over to them. she stood up, and I sat in her spot, and I held my arms out to her and she climbed into my lap. “Drake, you making the girls cry?”

Drake: “not on purpose” he mumbled. Demi turned a little in my lap and she looked at me with the saddest eyes I’ve ever seen.

Dan: “what’s wrong baby girl?”

Demi: “Drakes going to hurt himself dad” she whispered. I glanced over to the bed, and Drake looked up at us

Dan: “did he tell you that?”

Drake: “I didn’t say that” he mumbled.

Dan: “Demi?” I asked, moving some hair out of her face. “why do you think that honey?” she snuggled close and buried her face into my shoulder. And I wrapped my arms around her and I rubbed her back. “it’s going to be okay” I whispered into her ear.

Olivia: “Dan…. Drake s-said that Taylor d-didn’t stop him from k-killing himself” she sobbed out.

Drake: “Olivia! What the hell” he snapped at her, Olivia bit her lip, as tears ran down her face…

Dan: “Drake… don’t speak to her like that” I said glaring at him, he squirmed away from me, closer to the wall.

Demi: “H-He said ta-taylor just de-delayed him, he di-didn’t stop him” Demi said holding me tighter.

Dan: “did you say that Drake?”

Drake: “no”

Olivia: “yes you did”

Demi: “You did too!” that Jamie guy came back in.

Jamie: “Drake, I see that you haven’t eaten anything yet, do you want me to go get you something else?”

Drake: “no, I don’t want anything”

Demi: “my brothers going to hurt himself, please make sure he doesn’t” Demi said desperately.

Drake: “SHUT UP DEMI!” he tried to yell, but he lost his voice, so it came out more like a whisper scream. Jamie froze for a second.

Jamie: “um…. Drake, you okay?”

Drake: “Ugh” he groaned, turning away from all of us.

Jamie: “your brother won’t be able to hurt himself under our watch” Demi nodded.

Dan: “He told the girls that nobody stopped him from killing himself, they just delayed it” I said concerned.

Jamie: “I’ll make sure the doctors are aware of him saying that”

Dan: “will that keep him here longer?”

Jamie: “um… it might” he said looking at Drake with a frown on his face as Drake made a whimper sound.

Dan: “Jamie, can I have a word with you?” he nodded, And I slipped Demi off of my lap and I tried to walk away from her, but she wouldn’t let me go. “I’ll be right back honey” she shook her head no.

Demi: “can I c-come with y-you?” I sighed and nodded, and we walked outside into the hallway outside of Drakes hearing range.

Jamie: “are you his father?” I was going to say yes, because I love him like a son, but unfortunately, he isn’t my son. So I shook my head no.

Dan: “um… Drake’s biological father is in prison. he has a step dad, but he isn’t here at the moment… I’ve been taking care of Drake for awhile though” Jamie nodded

Jamie: “I can tell you care about him a lot, I can’t really give you too much information though, because you aren’t… related” I nodded.

Dan: “I… understand. I am just worried, is he… doing okay?”

Jamie: “well… I’m not a doctor, I’m still in college and stuff, but I’ve been assigned to kind of follow drake around, and make sure he has everything he needs… But… I can say that I’m honestly a little bit worried about Drake too, only because he doesn’t really want to be helped. he doesn’t want to talk to anyone, he really seems to be giving up, and he is angry that he is here”

Dan: “what can I do? How can we help him?”

Jamie: “just… don’t give up on him, and he will come around” I smiled and nodded. “he is such a good kid”

Dan: “yeah he is, we love him so much. Thank you for stepping out with me for a second, I’m just… worried about him”

Jamie: “completely understandable. Drake doesn’t see his future and his worth right now, but I’ve gotta tell you man, it makes a big big difference to be surrounded by people who do see your worth… Drake is lucky to have that in you guys, he really is. There are so many people who come in here every day, and they don’t have anybody… Drake does, so I truly do believe that he is going to be just fine”

Dan: “thank you so much Jamie”

Jamie: “no problem… Drakes in good hands here, I promise” he said focusing his attention to Demi. She nodded, and I pulled her into a side hug. And then we walked back into the room. Drake was glaring at Olivia and Olivia was just sitting there crying. “Are you sure you don’t want me to get you anything else to Eat drake?”

Drake: “I don’t want anything”

Jamie: “okay, I’ll be around, if you change your mind” he said softly, before leaving the room. I sat back down, and Demi sat back down in my lap.

Dan: “Drake, I know you are upset that Olivia and Demi told me and Jamie what you said, but… they did the right thing… it breaks my heart to hear that you think that, but it is important for us to know, so that we can help you. So don’t be mad at them, or mean to them about it”

Drake: “I don’t want help”

Dan: “I know you don’t. but that’s not going to stop us from trying… and back to you saying that Taylor just delayed you, I’m going to do whatever I can to make sure you are wrong about that one”

Drake: “I wish you all would just leave me alone” he whispered.

Dan: “we can’t”

Drake: “why?”

Dan: “because we love you”

Drake: “I don’t love any of you” he lied. “so you should all just go away” I think Drake is saying this stuff because he wants to push us all away, so that we wouldn’t miss him so much if the unthinkable happened… but I’m not going to let him do that.

Dan: “can you look me in the eyes and tell me that Drake?” I said in a hurt tone. Drake looked at me and he opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out. “I didn’t think so… you do love us, and you can’t deny that, and we aren’t going to let you push us away”

Drake: “whatever” I sighed

Dan: “Matthew wanted me to tell you that he loves you, and he is so sorry he could not come see you today…”

Drake: “is h-he leaving?” I nodded.

Dan: “yeah, he is”

Drake: “c-can he come see me tomorrow before h-he goes?”

Dan: “I’m so sorry buddy, he can’t.” Drake nodded. I could see the disappointment on his face though... Ugh. “Matthew loves you a lot, and he tried so hard to come with us today to see you, but… he just couldn’t. and believe me when I tell you that he was really upset about it”

Demi: “Daddy’s telling you the truth Drake, Uncle Matthew w-was so heartbroken that he wasn’t able to come with us today”

Drake: “was he mad… at me?” Drake asked awkwardly

Olivia: “why would he be mad at you?”

Drake: “I don’t know… for ruining his last day home or something”

Olivia: “he is just w-worried about you”

Demi: “if you would have d-died or got s-seriously hurt, that would have ruined e-everything for him… I think everyone is just th-thankful that you are here, and y-you are safe” she said in a shaky voice. I feel so bad that the girls are crying, it’s making it really difficult for me to hold it together and I wanted to try to be strong and stuff for him, but I’m sure he can tell I’ve been crying too.

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Edward’s POV:

Karie: “are you ready to go home Edward?”

Edward: “umm… I was talking to Zac, can I go tell him bye?”

Karie: “of course sweetie”

John: “we aren’t in any hurry”

Karie: “in fact, I hear Bethany… I’m going to sneak over and give her some cuddles” Karie said excitedly

Denise: “she’s so cute! I put her in a little dress today and she’s wearing a little bow in her hair!”

Karie: “Oh my gosh! John! I’m buying Bethany some adorable clothes next time I go anywhere that has them! and you can’t stop me” John chuckled

John: “did you forget about the little outfit you bought her while we were on vacation?” Karie gasped

Karie: “I did forget! Goo get it! please?” she begged. He gave her a quick kiss and then he went back outside to look for it and I went back upstairs. John and Karie are such dorks. I can just imagine how excited they would be if they had a baby. they love kids so much, it’s kind of sad that they waited so long for another kid, and they ended up with me, that sucks, that makes me feel a little guilty. They are such good people, and I’m a crappy teenager. So I hope that they can have more better kids someday. I walked into the room I left Zac in, and he is standing in the same spot, looking like he just seen a ghost or something.

Zac: “are you going to tell on me?” he said looking at me with wide eyes.

Edward: “why do you have that?” I asked again… “where did you get it from?”

Zac: “if you tell Paul and Denise, they will kick me out… please don’t say anything! I really like it here” he whined... I rolled my eyes. I wasn’t even planning on telling on him, because I have done my fair share of breaking the law, and I’m not really a snitch. But I still want to know what’s going on.

Edward: “if you don’t answer me, I will tell” I lied.

Zac: “I’m just trying to help”

Edward: “what do you mean? Help how?”

Zac: “Paul and Denise are doing so much for me, and they are like broke right now, and… I wanted to try to help them”

Edward: “so you are selling it?” He nodded. “where did you get it from?”

Zac: “my d-dad grows it”

Edward: “Paul and Denise would be PISSED if they knew you had that”

Zac: “they aren’t going to find out, Sam… um…” he shut his mouth and his eyes went wide… and so did mine…

Edward: “Sam…? Sam is buying that from you?” I said shocked.

Zac: “No! just forget it” he said trying to walk away from me. I grabbed his arm.

Edward: “I’m not going to forget it! tell me what the hell is going on, or I’m going to go downstairs and tell Denise right now!”

Zac: “No! don’t!”

Edward: “what does Sam have to do with this then?” I said letting go of him and crossing my arms.

Zac: “Sam is buying it from me tomorrow after school”

Edward: “but why? His roommate smokes pot all the time, why would he need to buy it from you?”

Zac: “he said that he thought Anthony would slip up and tell you if he got it from him, because he runs his mouth a lot”

Edward: “ugh that pisses me off” I said running my fingers through my hair.

Zac: “I promised him that I wouldn’t say anything…”

Edward: “well I’m pissed at you too! it’s fucked up that you would sell that stuff to my boyfriend… How did he even know you had it?”

Zac: “the same way you found out actually… He thought it was your backpack, and he found it and he said he was so confused, so he searched through the rest of the backpack to see what else you had, and then he found something with my name on it…. I probably should have hidden it better” I wish I would have been there to see Sammy’s reaction if he thought that was mine, because I bet he was shocked.

Edward: “honestly dude, you probably should put it somewhere else because it’s making your backpack start to smell like weed now”

Zac: “is it really?” I nodded.

Edward: “yeah… AND if someone else would have found it and thought it was mine, I would have been SO MAD! And you shouldn’t have it”

Zac: “I don’t smoke it or anything, I just want to help…”

Edward: “so going to jail for selling drugs is your solution? That’s stupid. Paul and Denise are not going to want your illegal drug money”

Zac: “they won’t know…”

Edward: “what are you going to tell them the money came from?”

Zac: “I don’t know… I haven’t figured that part out yet”

Edward: “there are so many other ways to help, like get a job or something!”

Zac: “they won’t let me help! they keep saying that I’m a kid, and I need to focus on school”

Edward: “you aren’t a drug dealer Zac, you are better then this… I want you to go flush that stuff”

Zac: “I can’t… Sam already paid for part of it, and-“

Edward: “I don’t give a fuck… Sam lost his money then! Get rid of it”

Zac: “But-“

Edward: “I’m doing this to help you Zac… please just flush it? I’ll help you think of some other way to help… and if you don’t get rid of it then I’m going to tell on you, because you can’t be doing this”

Zac: “Sam-“

Edward: “I will deal with Sam… Please just do the right thing Zac… I’ve spent my whole life doing the wrong thing, trust me, it doesn’t help”

Zac: “okay.. but it’s not here…” he whispered.

Edward: “Yes it is actually, I took it from you” I said pulling it out of my pocket. “Flush it, now!” I said sternly “and don’t try to do this again… it’s a really dumb idea, I’m serious” I said quickly handing it to him. Zac took it and we walked over to the bathroom and I shut the door and locked it behind us, I really don’t want to get caught with weed on me because of someone else again… John was pissed the first time it happened, and I know that they are probably mad enough at me already. Zac walked over to the toilet and he opened the bag, and then he hesitated and looked at me.  “I promise I’ll help you find a way to help Paul and Denise out, you don’t need to do this” I said in a gentle voice. He nodded, and he looked back down, and he emptied the weed into the toilet, and then he flushed it. “I know that you probably hate me right now, but you did do the right thing” I said as he threw away the bag it was in.

Zac: “I’m not going to be able to get anymore from my dad…” he mumbled.

Edward: “good. you don’t need it, and you don’t want to get in trouble man, it’s not worth it” I said opening the door.

Zac: “thank you for not telling…”

Edward: “I will tell, if I find out you have it again, I’m not kidding…” he pouted and nodded.

Zac: “Okay, I won’t. I’ll figure something else out” I nodded, and opened the door.

Edward: “maybe we can talk to everyone, adults included, and we could all come up with a way to help them? I think they would appreciate that way more... and the adults are way smarter than us when it comes to stuff like this”

Zac: “you are probably right… I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone, I wasn’t trying to hurt Sam either, I.. Sam scared me” he said as we were walking down the stairs

Edward: “what? why? How? Did he threaten you or something?” I felt myself kind of hold my breath, because if Sam did threaten him… that will be a big problem for our relationship. I will freak out on him so bad.

Zac: “no, he didn’t threaten me, he just scared me because he told me someone robbed him when he tried to sell it and he thought they were going to hurt him”

Edward: “when did this happen?”

Zac: “when he lost his job and he was scared about paying bills and stuff”

Edward: “he never told me about this…”

Zac: “he didn’t want to scare you… he only told me to try to get me to rethink what I was about to do.”

Edward: “I’m glad he talked you out of it… but I’m really sad that he wants to buy it from you. Sammy promised me he wouldn’t use that stuff anymore”

Zac: “Maybe he just wanted to help me out..? maybe he wasn’t going to use it”

Edward: “I doubt that” I said disappointed. I probably wouldn’t be so disappointed in him if he were just honest with me about it. he has told me over and over again that he didn’t want to do that anymore, so it’s sad to see him struggle with this. we walked the rest of the way downstairs and Denise, Karie and John were all gathered around the baby. I wanted to roll my eyes, but I can’t deny that she’s pretty dang cute.

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Harry: “I’m sad because I want to play, but I don’t feel good, and my butt hurts” I frowned.

Joe: “I’m sorry buddy, I really hope you feel better soon. we found this for you, do you want it?” I asked holding his old monkey up. He looked at it and his eyes went wide, and he gasped.

Harry: “you guys found my monkeyyy!” he said surprised. This thing has been missing for a long long time! I handed it to him, and he smiled really big.

Harry: “thank you so much Joey!” he said hugging it.

Joe: “you are welcome, I love you” He jumped up and jumped onto me, knocking me right on my butt. “whoa” I said as he cuddled close to me. he is definitely extra cuddly today, but so am I.

Harry: “I love you too”

Joe: “are you a little less sad now?” He nodded.

Harry: “yes! I’ve missed him so much, I thought he was lost forever! I can’t wait to tell grandma that I have him back.”

Louis: “grandma might be able to fix him for you when we move”

Harry: “really?” Louis nodded.

Louis: “I bet she would if you asked”

Joe: “I don’t know if she could fix it all the way, but she could probably sew it up so that the stuffing will stop coming out” Louis nodded.

Harry: “am I too big to have him now?” Harry said looking kinda sad. “my friends probably don’t have a monkey, or a blankie anymore” Louis walked over and sat on the couch in front of us and he cupped Harry’s face in his hands

Louis: “you aren’t too big Harry, there’s nothing wrong with having a monkey or a blankie” he said leaning forward and kissing his forehead. “don’t ever worry about that okay?” he said dropping his hands from Harry’s face.

Harry: “people will make fun of me” I shook my head no.

Joe: “they better not! If anybody makes fun of you, tell me and I’ll make sure they never do it again” I said seriously. One way to piss me the heck off is to make fun of my baby brothers. Especially about stuff like this. Harry was so young when our parents died, it was awful for all of us… if Harry wants to have a little harmless blanket, and a stuffed monkey to cuddle with when he is sad, then nobody has the right to make him feel bad about that. I will flip out if I ever see anyone making fun of him about this, and Louis can’t even pretend that he wouldn’t do the same thing. I know that he would freak out too.

Harry: “But none of you guys have a blankie, or a stuffed animal”

Joe: “I wish I had a cool little monkey” I lied. Louis smiled.

Louis: “Me too”

Harry: “really?” we both nodded. “you guys can borrow mine whenever you want too”

Joe: “aw thank you!”

Harry: “do you want to watch a movie with me Joey?” I looked at Louis, and Louis shook his head no, and I frowned.

Joe: “I wish I could… But Louis is mean”

Louis: “I’m not mean, you were really naughty, and you need your butt spanked” I blushed and hid my face in Harrys shoulder. why does he have to say that so embarrassingly? Louis sighed and stood up. “come on Joseph, lets go get this over with downstairs” he said sternly. I hate when he uses that voice… Louis has a really soft kind voice most of the time, so when he gets all big brotherish, and the tone of his voice changes like that… you know you are in trouble. I frowned and tried to move Harry, but he wrapped his arms around my neck and wouldn’t let go

Harry: “No! look how sad Joey looks Louis, he doesn’t need a spanking” we both looked up at Louis and gave him the saddest faces we could make

Joe: “yeah… look how sad I am?” I said pouting and giving him my sad puppy dog eyes. “I don’t need spanked anymore do I?”

Louis: “oh yes you do. Harry, get off of him” Harry shook his head no. and I laughed. It’s pretty cute that Harry is trying to protect me, but I know it’s not going to work… I messed up real bad. “do you need to come with us downstairs to join Joseph? I can spank both of you” Louis said crossing his arms. Harry and I both shook our heads no. I more forcefully got pushed Harry off of me, because I don’t want him to get in trouble. I stood up and kissed him on the top of his head.

Joe: “thank you so much for trying to Harry, but I’ll be okay” I said smiling at him, even though I’m incredibly nervous and I’m sure that him and louis can tell. He pouted and laid back down on the couch. And I sighed and followed Louis downstairs. I don’t wannnt to do this!!! Louis walked back over to the chair, and he picked up the dang paddle and he sat down, and he motioned me over to him. I bit my lip and walked over, and he frowned at me.

Louis: “You know I hate this right? I hate having to do this to you”

Joe: “you don’t have too…”

Louis: “you know that’s not true… I’m so disappointed in you. over my lap”

Joe: “wait louis” he glared at me… louis doesn’t have like any patience right now… so I’m digging myself into a deeper hole by trying to stall this. “I.. I know you have to punish me, I deserve this… and I know how much it hurts to have to punish your younger brother... I know it hurts just about as much mentally as it’s probably going to hurt me physically… and I’m sorry I disappointed you.. I’m sorry you have to do this” I said looking down. I was about to get over his lap, but he stopped me, and he stood up and pulled me into hug.

Louis: “I love you Joey… this isn’t going to be pleasant… for either of us, but once it’s over we will move past this” I nodded.

Joe: “I love you too” he held me for a second and then he sat back down in the chair and he bared my butt, and then I climbed over his lap, getting back into position. I’m so stinking nervous, my ass already hurts like bad. I took a deep shaky breath. he rubbed my back a little bit.

Louis: “ready?”

Joe: “just… hurry please?” I mumbled. he moved me a little bit forward, and then he held me down and begun my punishment for the second time today. ouchhh! tears started filling my eyes right away and I tried to stay quiet, but a whimper left my lips. He hasn’t even started with the paddle yet and I’m already a crying mess. He tipped me forward a little bit more and then he started assaulting my thighs and sit spots with even harder smacks. “ow! OWW! Louis! OUCH!” I whined, reaching back to try to block him.

Louis: “Joseph Adam! Move your hand”

Joe: “but it hurts!”

Louis: “well, obviously” he said grabbing my hand and pinning it uncomfortably to my back. SMACK! SMACK! SMACKK! SMACK!

Joe: “OWW!” SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACKK! I kicked my feet up to try to block him that way instead, but that backfired on me, because he pinned my legs in between his, and he grabbed the paddle and started spanking me with it and I couldn’t help but to scream. This really hurts a lot. “AHH! LOUIS!!! I’M SORRRY! I’M SO SORRY!” I tried to wiggle away from him, but he has me pinned tight, I can’t go anywhere.

Louis: “YOU” WHACK! “DON’T DRINK” WHACK WHACK! “YOU” WHACK! “AREN’T OLD ENOUGH!” WHACK! WHACK! WHACK!

Joe: “I’ll NEVER DO IT AGAIN!” WHACK WHACK WHACKK! WHACK! “OWW LOUIS! YOU ARE HURTTTTING ME!!” I said in between loud sobs. He slowed down a little bit.

Louis: “I know it hurts, I wish I didn’t have to do this to you, but you deserve this…” WHACK! WHACK! “when I tell you no, you better listen” WHACK! WHACK! I tried to respond, but I couldn’t. A few extra hard ones landed on my thighs and I broke down completely limp. I have no fight left in me anymore, all I could do is lay over his knee and take it. I tried to tell him that I’m sorry again, but I couldn’t form the words. I haven’t been spanked this hard before and all I want right now is for him to stop, and I want Kevin. If Kevin was here he would stop louis, I know he would. WHACK! WHACK! WHACKK! My butt and thighs are on fire! Right now he is focusing on the undercurve of my bottom, right where my butt meets my thighs and it hurts so bad. I know I won’t be sitting comfortably for a long time. I felt myself being moved, and before I knew it I was sitting upright in his lap, instead of laying over it. I held onto him and cried for a long long time. “Joey… it’s all over” he said trying to calm me down.

Joe: “I’m s-sorry” I cried, trying to cling to him, and get as close to him as possible. I could feel him crying too. “I.. I’m so-sorry”

Louis: “I know, I know you are sorry baby, it’s okay now, it’s over” he whispered.

Joe: “it’s not o-over, it… it hurttts” I cried.

Louis: “I know it hurts” he said kissing the top of my head.

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Louis POV:

UGH I hate having to punish my little brothers like this. I’ve been holding Joey for awhile now, and thankfully he has stopped sobbing hard like he was, but he is still struggling to get his tears under control and I feel awful. I love him so much, and right now I feel like the worst brother ever. I’ve been crying along with him because I just feel bad seeing him like this. After while he sat up and wiped his tears.

Joe: “why are you c-crying? You a-aren’t the one who j-just got your butt b-beat”

Louis: “I don’t know… because I love you”

Joe: “I love you too” I smiled and pulled him close again. “I really am sorry… I shouldn’t have went to that party… I.. I knew it was t-the wrong thing to do… I-I’m s-sorry for breaking your t-trust in m-me, and I’m sorry f-for l-leaving the boys al-alone when y-you… when you trusted me to w-watch them…. C-can you trust me again? Uncle Josh d-doesn’t need t-to ba-babysit”

Louis: “um… I know you are sorry Joey, and I know you probably won’t do that again, but I think I would feel better about uncle Josh being here for now” Joey pouted and looked down. I sighed and kissed the top of his head. I had Joseph get up and I helped him put his boxers and pants back on, and then I let him climb back into my lap. Joey always wants to be cuddled after a punishment, and it’s not often that he is cuddly so I’m going to cuddle with him for as long as I can… and truth be told, I need his comfort just as much as he needs mine right now because It’s really hard being the older brother sometimes.

Joe: “you spanked me too hard” he whined, trying to rub his butt. I grabbed his hand.

Louis: “no rubbing… and I didn’t spank you too hard”

Joe: “Yes you did” he said pouting

Louis: “nope, I didn’t”

Joe: “my butt is black and blue… it’s g-got to be… it h-hurts really bad” I frowned.

Louis: “it’s not black and blue Joey, I promise” his butt and thighs are painted a painful dark red color, and I’m sure it does hurt a lot… but he won’t bruise. I did spank him harder then I usually do, but I think what he did called for a more severe punishment. I want him to remember this next time he thinks about doing this again.

Joe: “I stole your p-phone earlier” he mumbled.

Louis: “you stole my phone? When? For what?” I said confused. That’s not at all what I thought he was going to say.

Joe: “I c-called Elena… a-and we br-broke up… sort of… I t-told her t-that I couldn’t d-date her until I have your p-permission”

Louis: “you did?” I said surprised. I really thought he was going to fight me more on that. Joey nodded.

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(Later) Uncle Josh POV:

I went and surprised my nephews by picking up something for dinner. Everyone was excited except for Harry, because he doesn’t really feel very good. Joe and Louis tried really hard to get him to eat something, but he wasn’t having it at all, which makes me sad, I hope he feels better soon. Right now Louis is supposed to be leaving for work, he is sitting on the couch putting his socks and shoes on, while being distracted by the boys, they are dancing around, and singing, and they are all laughing, which is making Louis laugh at them. I’m not sure why they decided to have a dance off in the livingroom, but it’s pretty funny anyway.

Josh: “Louis, are you watching the time?” I said chuckling.

Louis: “no, but… I should be paying attention” he said pulling his phone out of his pocket. “Ugh, I’ve got to leave soon” he said putting his phone back. he leaned down to put his other shoe on, but Liam climbed into his lap, keeping him from doing so.

Louis: “well hello there” he said wrapping his arms around him.

Liam: “Hi” he said cuddling close to louis.

Louis: “are you okay?”

Liam: “Can I please come with you to work?” Liam asked, ignoring his question. Louis groaned.

Louis: “No!” He said shaking his head. “I already told you no last time”

Liam: “But I really can stay in the car and like sleep until you get done”

Louis: “absolutely not!”

Liam: “but why?”

Louis: “I would not leave my dog in the car, what makes you think I would leave my kid in there?”

Liam: “well… technically I’m not your kid”

Louis: “technically… you are” louis said patting his leg. “get up, I got to go”

Liam: “But I’ll be fine! We will lock Kevin’s car, and nobody will even know I’m in there” Liam whined. Louis shook his head no and picked him up off his lap and put him on the couch in-between us.

Louis: “No” he said in a no argument tone, and then he finished putting his shoes on and he got up. “I’ve got to go, be good guys… and Harry don’t stay up too late, you need rest” Harry nodded. and Louis gave everybody hugs and then he left and most of the younger kids pouted, and the music party stopped

Josh: “Liam” I said softly. he looked up at me. “why don’t you want to be here? I miss you, I want to hangout with you”

Liam: “I missed you too uncle Josh… I’m just worried about Louis”

Josh: “why? Because the car crash?” he nodded.

Liam: “He fell asleep driving, and he still works third shift, he is always so tired when he gets out of work…. What if he does it again and then he dies like our parents did?”

Josh: “I’m sure that Louis will be extra careful from now on, it scared him too, and I know he wont drive that tired again”

Liam: “I know... it’s just scary, I wish I could be with him in the morning and make sure he is okay.. I’ve had such a hard time sleeping since it happened, because I can’t stop thinking about how we could have lost him...”

Josh: “I’m sorry bud, I know that must be really scary…. how about we wake up early tomorrow and I’ll drive you over there. you all can go inside and get a snack, and we can wait for him to get out, if he is too tired, I can bring him home and we can go get Kevin’s car later”

Liam/Niall: “Really??” they both said surprised. I nodded

Harry: “I want to go!”

Josh: “we can all go in the morning if you guys are good”

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Harry’s POV:

I have been hanging out with my brothers and uncle Joshie for awhile. I’m in a lots of pain, and I don’t feel good, but I have been loving spending time with them. I wish Louis and Kevy were here. I miss Kevin a lot.

Josh: “Harry, go take a shower or a bath or something, and then it’s bedtime for you”

Harry: “but it’s summer time and my bedtime is later then this” I whined

Joe: “Harry, Louis told you to go to bed early tonight”

Harry: “but I don’t wanna”

Josh: “you are sick baby boy, you need your rest”

Harry: “but I’m not tired”

Josh: “yes you are”

Joe: “do you want Louis to make you stay in bed all day like he usually does when you are sick?” I shook my head no. I hateee that! it’s so boring!

Josh: “it’s important to get your rest buddy, so get up, go get cleaned up and ready for bed, and then I’ll come give you some lotion, and put you to bed”

Harry: “but nobody else has to go to bed” I said pouting.

Joe: “I feel exhausted, I’ll probably go to bed soon… is there any chance I could get lotion?” he asked looking at uncle josh innocently.

Josh: “absolutely not, I can give you a few more smacks as a reminder that you aren’t old enough to drink though, if you’d like” Uncle josh said smirking at him. joe shook his head no

Joe: “no sir, I would not like that at all” joe said pouting.

Harry: “Can I sleep in your bed Joey? I don’t want to be by myself” Joe nodded.

Joe: “of course you can” I smiled and hugged everybody, and then I went upstairs and got some jammies. I’m so cold! So I got the warmest jammies I could find and then I got a towel and I went into the bathroom and I turned the shower on. I’m so cold that I don’t even want to take my clothes off to get into the shower. Ugh. I stood there just staring at the shower for a long time, feeling cold and nauseous. I decided to lay down on the floor for a minute next to the bathtub, using my towel and jammies as a pillow. I groaned and brought my knees up and wrapped my arms around them, so that I’m laying in the fetal position. My tummy hurts, and I feel awful. I just want louis to come back home. My eyes started to tear up a little, so I closed them. I know that I need to get up and get ready for bed, because I’m going to get in trouble if I don’t, and I really don’t want to get in trouble, but I really don’t feel good either. the door opened and it kind of hit me, making me jump and open my eyes. Joe looked down at me confused and he closed the door. “what are you doing Harry? you are supposed to be getting ready for bed”

Harry: “I’m too cold to get nakey, and I’m nauseous, and my tummy hurts, and I want louis” he bent down and felt my forehead, and I pushed his hands away.

Joe: “do you want me to go get uncle josh?”

Harry: “noo! I don’t wanna get in trouble”

Joe: “you won’t get in trouble Harry, I’m just worried about you. it seems like you are getting sicker, maybe you need to go to the hospital or something”

Harry: “NOO! I don’t want to!!” I said with wide eyes. “I’ll take a shower now” I said standing up.

Joe: “do you want me to help?”

Harry: “No”

Joe: “do you NEED help?”

Harry: “No…”

Joe: “Harry… are you sure?” he said pushing my hair out of my face. “You don’t need to be embarrassed, I can help you”

Harry: “I want Louis” I said again. he frowned.

Joe: “sorry buddy, he isn’t here.” my tears finally pooled over and ran down my face. and Joey pulled me into a hug. “I’m so sorry you feel so bad, and I’m sorry Louis isn’t here” he whispered, rubbing my back. “let’s get you in the shower and get you in bed” he said pulling out of the hug and adjusting the water for me in the shower so it’s not too hot, or too cold. I picked up my clothes and my towel and I put them on the counter and Joey got everything ready for me. “take your clothes off and get in”

Harry: “but it’s cold”

Joe: “the waters nice and warm though, so it’ll only be for a second” he said grabbing my shirt and pulling it over my head, tossing it into the laundry basket. I shivered and quickly pulled my pants and underwear down, and then I jumped into the warm shower.

Joe: “I’m going to go get a wash cloth for you”

Harry: “thank you” I mumbled though clinched teeth… even though the water is hot, I’m still so cold. I can’t wait to cover up with so many blankets! Brr! I started washing my hair. and Joey came back and he started washing my body with body was and the wash cloth as I was doing that. And it was fine until he started washing my butt with it, I jumped and pushed him away. “Oww! Joey!” I yelled, turning towards him, Joey jumped

Joe: “what?!” he said confused.

Harry: “you hurt me! it hurts!!”

Joe: “I hurt you? how? What’s wrong?” he said looking me over with wide eyes…

Harry: “Joey!” I whined, “my butt” I said pouting and reaching back to try to rub. Gosh! That hurt so bad! it made my eyes water.

Joe: “I totally forgot that you got spanked today, let me see” he said grabbing my arm and turning me. “oh my gosh, your butt is almost as red as mine is… I’m sorry buddy, I wasn’t paying attention, I was just trying to help you get done faster, I didn’t mean to hurt you”

Harry: “it’s okay Joey, thank you for helping”

Joe: “I’m sorry… here, you do it” he said handing me the soapy wash cloth, I finished washing the bottom half of my body, while joey brushed his teeth and got ready for bed himself. “I’m going to go downstairs and make sure all the boys are going to be good for uncle Josh, and then I’ll come up and go to bed with you” he said from the other side of the shower curtain before leaving the room. I got all cleaned up the rest of the way, and then I shut the shower off and got out and I quickly grabbed my towel and I dried off fast, because it’s so freezing! I got dressed into my warm jammies, and socks. And then I brushed my teeths. By time I got done getting ready for bed, Joey was already in bed.

Joe: “you left your blanket, and your monkey downstairs, so I grabbed them for you” He said holding them out to me. I smiled and climbed into his bed and I grabbed them and hugged them.

Harry: “thank you Joey” I said laying down and cuddling close to him.

Joe: “Uncle Josh will be up in a minute, he is going to give you some medicine, and check your temperature”

Harry: “is he still going to give me lotion?”

Joe: “he said he would, you lucky ducky” he said tickling me. I giggled and pushed his hands away. and Joe laughed and hugged me. after a little bit Uncle Josh came up and he did make me take medicine and my temperature was high again, which sucks... I don’t wanna be sick anymore. After that I climbed over his lap, and he did take my pants down and he rubbed cold lotion into my sore bottom. which helped it feel a little better right away.

Josh: “do you want me to wake you two up in the morning to go see Louis at work?” he asked covering us both up. “Because I can take the rest of the boys, and Joey can stay here with you, because you are sick”

Harry: “I want to go see Louis”

Joe: “are you sure Harry?” I nodded.

Josh: “okay, I’ll wake you guys up” he said kissing both of our heads and tucking us in. “I love you both! Goodnight”

Joe: “Goodnight”

Harry: “Goodnight Uncle Joshie”

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(Next Morning) Louis POV:

I’m so tired! I am ready to go home and go to bed, but I have a little bit longer to go. right now I’m restocking the alcohol fridges, because nobody is here, so I’m trying to get stuff done before we start getting busy again. I’m still here alone, but my co-worker will be coming in pretty soon probably. I sighed. Tonight was so insanely busy so I haven’t had any time to do anything else all night. we needed two people tonight, but so many people were fired recently so needless to say, I’m exhausted. I heard the front door open, so I quickly made it back to the counter, but I was attacked with hugs by my brothers.

Louis: “whoaa” I said startled. It really freaked me out for a second.

Joe: “did we scare you?” he said laughing. I nodded

Louis: “yeah, it freaked me out! I didn’t even see you guys pull in?... how did you get here? Is josh here?” just then I heard the door open again, and I looked over and Josh walked in carrying Harry. Everyone is wearing pajamas, and Harry is carrying his blanket and his little monkey. I can tell they all just woke up. “what are you guys doing here?” I asked confused as my brothers let me out of our group hug.

Nick: “we are getting a snack!”

Louis: “are you serious? Why do you need to come get a snack at…” I glanced at the time “5:30 in the morning?? You all should be in bed sleeping!”

Niall: “but we’re nottt” he said happily. I rolled my eyes and I walked over to uncle Josh.

Louis: “what are you really doing here?” I asked suspiciously. He put Harry down and Harry immediately reached for me. so I picked him up and hugged him and he laid his head on my shoulder and I rubbed his back and rocked him a little. He feels warm still. He needs to get his temperature checked when he gets home.

Josh: “the boys were really sad and nervous when you left last night about you driving home by yourself this morning, so I told them if they were good, we could wake up and come check in on you”

Louis: “you guys… I told you I’m fine. That was just because I was working way too much, and not sleeping, but I’m not working as much anymore, so I’m totally fine”

Josh: “well you look exhausted, so we are staying, I’ll let them pick a snack, and then we will go outside and wait for you” I groaned

Louis: “seriously? Uncle Josh! You don’t have to do that! I’m fine!”

Josh: “I don’t mind waiting, do you guys?” he said looking at the boys.

Joe: “we don’t mind” he said walking over and patting my back and smiling at me. I rolled my eyes. I love my family to death, but their overprotectiveness is slightly annoying sometimes, but I know I’m just as annoying and overprotective, so I just need to suck it up and accept it.

Louis: “okay, fine, but if you are buying all them a snack, I want one too” Josh laughed and nodded.

Joe: “I can do that, pick something out”

Louis: “okay, thanks Uncle Josh” he nodded, and he went over to the snacks with the other boys, and I cuddled close to harry. “are you feeling any better Harry?” I asked softly. he shook his head no. “Aw Babyy boy! You need to get better!” I said rubbing his back.

Harry: “I’m so nauseous, and my belly hurts” I frowned.

Louis: “I’m so sorry, we will take you to the doctors, or after hours or something today, okay?” he shook his head no.

Harry: “I don’t want too”

Louis: “I know, but I don’t want you to be sick anymore” I said kissing his cheek. “It’ll be okay, I promise. Do you want to pick out a snack for later when you are feeling better?” he nodded, and I glanced outside as I saw headlights. “Joe, take him to pick out a snack, I got a customer” Joe nodded and walked over to get him, and I tried to hand Harry over to him, but he wiggled a little bit. Probably too embarrassed to be carried around when other people are around. so I put him down on his feet, and Joe grabbed his hand and they walked over to the rest of the family, and I went back behind the counter and I helped the customer. He was pretty chatty, he talked about the weather and gas prices. And my co-worker came in finally, which means I get to go home pretty soon, which I’m super excited about. After the customer left I went back over to my family and I picked myself out a snack, and then I restocked the rest of the alcohol that I had gotten out while Josh chatted with me about how last night went. I was glad that all the boys were good.

Co-worker: “Yo Louis, someone’s trying to buy gas with a check and I don’t remember how to do it” I laughed and nodded.

Louis: “okay, I’ll show you how to do it.” I said walking over with him. I feel like I always have to show him how to do stuff even though he has been here for a month or more. I don’t know what my boss is going to do when I leave. I went and helped. And Josh and all the boys came over.

Josh: “when do you get out?” he asked as they all put all there stuff down on the counter. My co-worker started ringing up the stuff.  

Louis: “I have like 20 more minutes before I’ll be ready to go”

Liam: “do you like working at a gas station?” I nodded

Louis: “yeah, I don’t mind it”

Co-worker: “really? I’m ready to go home already, and I just got here!” I laughed.

Louis: “well I’ve been here for 12 hours, so… I’m ready to go home too”

Co-worker: “12 hours?? dude, I haven’t ever been scheduled for more than 6” he said before telling Josh his total.

Louis: “yeah, I asked him for more hours, because we are moving soon, and I need them”

Co-workers: “so are these your brothers that you are always talking about?” he said as he took the money from Josh and gave him back his change.

Louis: “yes, except the old man, he is my uncle Josh”

Josh: “Hey! I’m not that old”

Niall: “you aren’t that young either” we all laughed.

Co-worker: “who’s who?” when we work together I talk about my brothers all the time, so he knows them sort of. But he has never met them. I pointed to all of them and told him their names.

Co-worker: “where’s Kevin?” I sighed

Louis: “Kev moved already, he needed to set up some things with college and stuff, so he is currently living with our grandparents until we all move out there”

Co-worker: “you are like our best worker, it’s going to suck when you leave”

Louis: “yeah, the boss said he isn’t too happy about me leaving, because he just had to fire so many people”

Co-worker: “at least I know that my job is safe” I laughed. His job is totally not safe, and he knows it. some more people walked in. it’s starting to get busy again.

Josh: “will be outside waiting for you” I nodded and they all went outside. And I finished up everything I needed to get done, and then I clocked out and got my stuff. I missed a couple calls from Kevin, that I didn’t even see, so I need to call him back later. I went outside and walked over to where I’m parked, and John was parked right next to me. a couple of the kids are standing outside next to the car, probably because of there sore butts, I don’t blame them.

Joe: “do you feel awake enough to drive home?”

Louis: “yes, I’m okay, I promise” John leaned out of his window

John: “are you sure Louis? We can come get your car later if you need to”

Louis: “no, it’s okay uncle Josh, I’m a little tired, but I can drive home no problem”

John: “alright, some of the boys want to ride home with you, I’ll follow you”

Louis: “okay” I grabbed my keys and unlocked Kevin’s car, I bet he is missing his car a lot, I miss my car already. Joe, Liam and Harry got into the car with me, and after everyone was buckled up, I safely drove home. I would NEVER fall asleep with them in the car for sure. I would never even get in the driver’s seat with them in the car if I felt like I was too tired. I really need to learn to do the same when I’m by myself.

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KEVIN’S POV:

Grandma is knitting a blanket or something, and I’m cuddling on the couch next to her eating an apple and listening to her and grandpa talk about our new house. they are really excited for us to move into town closer to them, and it’s really cute. They have wanted this for a long time for us. the phone rang, and grandpa walked over and answered it.

Grandpa: “Hello?... Hi louis! How did work go last night?” he said walking out of the room with the phone. I pouted. I miss my family. I tried to call louis last night because I was missing him, and he didn’t answer, and none of the boys at the house answered either.

Grandma: “what do you have that little lip out for young man?” she said pulling me out of my thoughts. I sat up a little and looked at her

Kevin: “nothing grandma” I said kissing her cheek. She smiled, and I cuddled back into her.

Grandma: “you miss Louis and the kids, don’t you pumpkin?” I nodded.

Kevin: “even though they drive me crazy sometimes, I really do miss them a lot. I think I miss Harry the most, because he is sick, and nobody is keeping me updated, and I just want to be there” I said looking down.

Grandma: “Harry will get better soon, Josh told me that they are taking him to the doctors or something today”

Kevin: “Harry’s not going to like that”

Grandma: “probably not, but he will be okay” I nodded. and grandpa came back into the room and he held the phone out to me

Grandpa: “Louis wants to talk to you” I smiled and grabbed the phone and I also got up and went into another room.

 (Phone conversation)

Kevin: “Hey Louis”

Louis: “hey buddy” he said softly. he sounds so exhausted.

Kevin: “did you just get home from work?”

Louis: “yes. I noticed that you called last night, I’m sorry I didn’t answer”

Kevin: “it’s okay.. I.. I was sad about it, but I knew you were working”

Louis: “are you okay?” he said picking up on my sad voice. Louis can always tell, even when over the phone.

Kevin: “yes, I’m okay”

Louis: “mhm.. truth please?” I sighed.

Kevin: “I just kind of miss you guys” I mumbled… “it feels like I was kicked out of the family or something”

Louis: “that’s silly Kevy, you will never get kicked out of the family.”

Kevin: “I know… it just feels weird to not be there”

Louis: “it’ll just be for a couple weeks”

Kevin: “I know… but I miss you guys now”

Louis: “I miss you too Kevy”

Kevin: “I miss my car too”

Louis: “Yeah… I miss my car too, your car is an absolute mess! Why do you keep your car such a mess?” I laughed. Louis kept his car spotless. He has always taken really good care of his car, And I always just throw my junk in mine.

Kevin: “because it’s my car and it can be messy if I want it to be… maybe don’t crash your car and you wouldn’t have to steal mine from me and deal with my messy car” I said with a little bit of attitude.

Louis: “Hmm.. keep that attitude up, and you won’t get your car back, it’s under my name not yours” that is an empty threat. Louis wouldn’t take my car away… unless I crashed it like he did, then he probably would for awhile.

Kevin: “I’m just saying… if you wouldn’t have crashed your car, you wouldn’t even probably care that my car is messy”

Louis: “well I’m making you clean the car out when we get there”

Kevin: “ugh. you clean it out! You are the one who wants it cleaned”

Louis: “you are right, I do want it clean, and you are cleaning it the DAY we get there”

Kevin: “nah, I think I’m busy that day” Louis laughed.

Louis: “busy going over my knee if It doesn’t get cleaned out”

Kevin: “ugh… you are annoying! It’s my car! why does it matter?” I whined

Louis: “because it’s so unnecessarily messy, and stuff falls on me sometimes, so I feel like it’s a safety issue at this point” I rolled my eyes. he is dramatic.

Kevin: “okay… whatever”

Louis: “still miss me?”.

Kevin: “yes, I do still miss you”

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I know you guys want me to update the Jonas/Lautner story, I just have been struggling to write, but I’m trying! meanwhile I hope you enjoy this story. -hannah

Louis: “I know it hurts baby, but you can’t do stuff like that”

Harry: “But I th-thought.. I thought” he let out a loud sob.

Louis: “you thought it would help you feel better?” I asked, he nodded. I can feel his tears leaking through my shirt. Ugh. Harry is the youngest, he is definitely the baby boy of the family and his tears kill me.

Harry: “I d-didn’t kn-know it wass b-bad” he said grabbing unto my shirt. “Uncle Joshie is m-meann”

Louis: “Uncle Josh isn’t mean”

Harry: “yesss he iss” he cried.

Louis: “no, if I would have caught you doing that I would have spanked you too, because that really was dangerous, and you need to never do that again” he just let out a little sob and he reached back to rub his bottom. I caught his wrist though. “No rubbing”

Harry: “b-but it HURRRTSS!” he sobbed. I sighed.

Joe: “is harry okay?” he said softly. I looked over and Joey is standing there awkwardly. he put his boxers back on, but that’s it. “I’m sorry I came up… I wanted to make sure everything was okay…”

Louis: “it’s okay… I’ll finish up with you later” he pouted and nodded. he still has tears in his eyes from the first part of his punishment. He walked over and kneeled down next to us, and he started playing with Harry’s hair.

Joe: “what’s wrong with our little baby boy?” he said smiling and tickling Harry a little. Harry started wiggling around, and he giggled a little, which made me smile and join in, soon harry was doing a mix of laughing and crying, which was actually kind of funny. He started wiggling more and he screamed and laughed while trying to push our tickly hands away. “do you want us to stop tickling you?”

Harry: “YESSS!!!”

Joe: “then no more tears kid”

Harry: “okkaaay okay!” I laughed and we both stopped tickling him. Harry pulled his blankie up over his head to hide. At least he isn’t sobbing his heart out anymore.

Joe: “what happened?” Joey asked, looking at me.

Louis: “He thought he could make himself feel better faster by taking a bunch of medicine at the same time” Joey’s eyes widened, and I saw the panic in them. “Uncle Josh caught him before he could though, he was crying because he got a way harder spanking then he is used to getting” Harry looked up

Harry: “can I has some l-lotion? Please big brudderrrr!!” he said giving me his big puppy dog eyes, which is a thousand times worse with all his sad tears.

Josh: “No” he said walking into the room. “you may not have lotion Harry, you almost hurt yourself, and maybe a sore bottom for a few days will help you remember not to do it again” Harry pouted, and more tears rolled down his face. Ugh, Joey almost got him to stop crying. Harry hid his face in my chest again.

Joe: “but Uncle Josh, it-“

Josh: “Shush Joseph. I said no”

Joe: “But Louis is his legal guardian, not you, and-“

Louis: “Joseph Adam Jonas!!” I said glaring at him. “You better get rid of that attitude! I already talked to you about that today, do we need to discuss it further?” he looked down.

Joe: “no sir…”

Louis: “then apologize” he looked at me, and then he looked over at Josh

Joe: “I’m sorry Uncle Josh… I… just feel bad for him” he said rubbing Harry’s back “He has been so sick and... he is the baby, and…. I know your spankings hurt a lot” he said cringing. Uncle Josh does spank harder than anybody in our family… including grandpa, not counting the spanking I got from Grandpa when I crashed my car though, that was the worst. So I can kind of understand where Joseph is coming from, I was worried about our little brother too. It is really cute that Joey is so protective of Harry. but that doesn’t give him the right to be so disrespectful towards Uncle Josh.

Josh: “he is the baby… he is so young, and small. His body can’t handle all of the medicine that he was planning on taking. I think you both agree that he is better off with a sore bottom, then ending up in the hospital getting his stomach pumped or worse…” Joe and I both nodded.

Harry: “Louis?” harry said in a small voice. I looked down at him and moved his crazy hair out of his eyes. “I’m sorry I’m so stupid, I ju-just don’t feel good, and I wanted to make it better”

Louis: “why didn’t you come tell me? or tell Uncle josh? or anybody…?”

Harry: “I d-didn’t want you to k-know that I’m still sick”

Louis: “why?? baby boy, don’t ever hide something like that from me!” I said kissing his forehead

Harry: “I don’t want to be in bed no more” he said pouting.

Josh: “I think baby boy needs to go to the doctor… I don’t know if you guys have taken him already, but He doesn’t seem to be getting better” I nodded, Harry was doing a little better, I thought he was anyway… everybody always calls Harry baby boy, because that’s what our parents have always called him, but it totally fits, because he is 100% the baby boy

Harry: “I don’t want too!” he whined.

Louis: “well you don’t get a choice baby boy” I said bopping his nose. He scrunched up his face.

Harry: “I wish I was the older brudder” he said pouting.

Joe: “trust me, it doesn’t change too much, Louis and I both have a sore butt, don’t we louis?” I groaned and nodded.

Louis: “we sure do. Even if you were the oldest brother, uncle Josh or our grandparents would make you go to the doctor still”

Harry: “this family is-“ Joey covered Harry’s mouth before he could get himself in trouble.. again.

Joe: “such a blessing! Huh?” Harry rolled his eyes and I laughed. These kids crack me up. Joey uncovered Harrys mouth and he stood back up. “Can I go upstairs for a little bit Louis?”

Louis: “umm… I think we were in the middle of a discussion downstairs”

Joe: “yeah but… now you are too busy cuddling with Harry, he doesn’t want to be done cuddling yet” now it was my turn to roll my eyes.

Louis: “Fine, but I have to work tonight, so don’t get too comfortable up there, you aren’t getting out of this”

Joe: “yes sir, I know” I nodded, and he leaned down and kissed Harry’s head and then he left the room.

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Joe’s POV:

Thank God Louis got distracted with Harry because my ass is already hurting so much! I am sooo freaking relieved to get off his lap! But it did make me sad to see Harry so upset. I saw Louis phone, so I quickly grabbed it and then I headed upstairs. I was going to go into my room, but I share a room with Zayn and Liam and they are probably both in there, so I stayed in the hallway and I called Elena because I haven’t been able to talk to her in awhile.

(Phone Conversation)

Elena: “Hello?”

Joe: “Hey!”

Elena: “oh my god! Is this Joe??” I smiled

Joe: “Yes! it’s me! how are you?”

Elena: “I’m doing good, but I miss you! I am sooo happy you called! did you get a new phone?”

Joe: “no..” I said frowning. “this is my older brother’s phone”

Elena: “ugh! I miss talking to you!!!”

Joe: “I miss talking to you too, I’m sorry we got together and then I kind of went MIA”

Elena: “it’s okay, I understand! I just am really excited for you to move here! and your brother is going to work for my dad, so I think we will see each other a lot more”

Joe: “ehh… about that… I need to talk to you about something” I said biting my lip...

Elena: “oh.. what’s up? do you not want to be with me?” she said awkwardly

Joe: “No! I do! I really like you, but…” I hesitated.

Elena: “what’s wrong?”

Joe: “this is a little awkward, because I feel like dumb… But my brothers are kind of… we he is protective of me, in such an annoying way” she giggled

Elena: “that’s cute”

Joe: “noo, it’s… embarrassing!”

Elena: “I think it’s adorable”

Joe: “well, it’s not… Louis told me that I’m not allowed to date you until he gets to know you better, and he wants to talk to your father too about it.” I said leaning up against the wall. I really am embarrassed that I am 18 years old and I have to wait for my older brother’s permission to date a girl. it’s sooo awkward, I didn’t even want to tell her…

Elena: “so… we can’t date?”

Joe: “I.. can’t. I’m so sorry, but I want to! Please wait for me?”

Elena: “but what if Louis doesn’t like me?” she mumbled.

Joe: “you are amazing! He will love you”

Elena: “could we just date and not tell him?” I looked down… I could just lie to louis and just pretend that I’m not dating her… but… I don’t want to lie to him, and I don’t want to go behind his back and date her… I know that that would probably disappoint him a lot, and I hate doing that! I really do want his approval… I know that’s probably lame…

Joe: “uh… My brother does a lot for me, and he.. works so hard to make sure me and my little brothers are taken care of, and I respect him a lot, and… I know it sucks, but… but his approval is kind of important to me….” I said trailing off. Ugh… I wish Louis and Kevin would just… not care.

Elena: “is his approval more important to you then I am?” my heart sunk a little…

Joe: “please don’t make me lie to him” I said softly.

Elena: “would you?” ugh I really like Elena… like a lot… a lot! a lot! but this is not how I expected this conversation to go…

Joe: “I would, but... I don’t want to.” I said honestly. “you would rather me lie to my entire family, then just… wait for me?”

Elena: “I just don’t think it’s fair… your brother isn’t protective, he is controlling”

Joe: “it’s not like that…”

Elena: “yes it is… you are an adult now, he can’t control you anymore if you don’t let him”

Joe: “I don’t think it’s a control thing… I-“

Elena: “He told you that you can’t date me until he approves… doesn’t that seem controlling to you?”

Joe: “He loves me, he wants to make sure that you are good for me…”

Elena: “he loves controlling you” is louis just being controlling?

Joe: “I wouldn’t let my little brother date a girl that I didn’t know either… do you think I’m controlling?”

Elena: “that’s different”

Joe: “it’s not different”

Elena: “you are making excuses for him… do you not want to date me? you could just tell me that you don’t”

Joe: “I do want to date you! I just want to do it with my brother, and your fathers’ approval”

Elena: “but why?” she kind of whined. “they don’t have to date, it should be our decision”

Joe: “but don’t you want them to like… be happy for us and stuff?”

Elena: “being with you is more important to me then what they think about It. I really like you…”

Joe: “I really like you too”

Zayn: “is that your giiiirlllfriend?” he said loudly, making me jump.

Joe: “Gosh! Zayn!” I said putting my hand on my chest. He really did scare me, probably because I know I shouldn’t be on Louis’ phone right now. ugh.

Zayn: “Tell her I said Hi!” he said happily. I rolled my eyes.

Joe: “go away” I mumbled.

Elena: “you want me to go?”

Joe: “No! my little brother is being annoying, I don’t want you to go away, I want him to” I said glaring at Zayn.

Zayn: “you are so grumpy. We should change your name to Grumpy Adam Jonas, instead of Joseph” I rolled my eyes.

Joe: “Hold on a sec Elena” I said before pulling the phone away from my ear and covering up the speaker. “I think you had a long enough break, go clean, because your part of the room is a disaster” his little annoying smirk totally fell off of his face.

Zayn: “Noo! Joeee” he whined. he HATES cleaning. “I’ll stop bugging you, I promise!”

Joe: “I know you will stop bugging me, because you’ll be too busy cleaning, go!” I said pointing to our room. He shook his head no. I sighed. “come here and get a spanking then, if you don’t want to listen”

Zayn: “I’ll listen” he said pouting. I pointed to our room again and he lowered his head like a sad little puppy and he went back into our room. I put my phone back up to my ear.

Joe: “Elena?” I asked softly

Elena: “Yes, I’m still here”

Joe: “I’m really sorry about all of this… I know it’s annoying, and I wish it wasn’t like this, but… it would mean a lot to me if you would just wait for me a little bit… but if you aren’t okay with that… I will do whatever makes you happy, because you also mean a lot to me”

Elena: “I can wait for you… but I don’t like it”

Joe: “I don’t like it either”

Elena: “so… we are broken up?”

Joe: “nooo don’t call it that! that makes me sad”

Elena: “we will just call it ‘waiting for louis’” I laughed

Joe: “sounds good”

Elena: “but…. If I see your cute face, it’s going to be really hard for me not to kiss you”

Joe: “Ugh… that’s going to be really hard for me too!”

Elena: “I hope your brothers don’t make us wait too long” she said sadly “I like you a lot, and I want to be with you”

Joe: “I like you a lot too, and I will be bugging Louis constantly until he lets me date you, I promise”

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Louis POV:

Josh: “I noticed that the boxes are on the verge of tipping in the garage, so I’m going to rearrange them… and I’m going to check and see what Nick is doing.”

Louis: “okay, thank you Uncle Josh” he nodded

Harry: “Can I go play with Nicky?” he asked looking up at me. he is still kind of crying, so its kind of funny that he wants to go play.

Louis: “I thought you didn’t feel good?”

Harry: “I don’t, but… I wanna play with Nicky”

Louis: “I don’t think I want you to be running around outside right now”

Harry: “but I won’t run around... I can color on the driveway with sidewalk chalk.”

Louis: “the sidewalk chalk is probably already packed buddy”

Harry: “but I want to go outside” he said pouting

Josh: “it’s a nice day outside, a tiny bit of fresh air might do him some good, and I can keep an eye on him and make him come back inside if I think he needs to” Harry has been cooped up in this house sick for awhile, so I can understand why he wants to go outside.

Harry: “please Louis?” I sighed

Louis: “I guess, but be good, and don’t overdo it out there” He smiled

Harry: “thankkk you louis!” he said kissing my cheek. He then sat up to get off of me, but he yelped and jumped off the couch when his sore bottom touched my legs. “Owwie” he said pouting and rubbing his bottom. Before I could even react, he started sobbing again, really hard. I sat up

Louis: “Harry, it’s okay buddy”

Harry: “it h-h-hurrrtts” he cried. I looked over at Josh, and he is frowning. I know disciplining them is very important, but It’s so hard to see them in pain... I’m like really tempted to give Harry Lotion, or an ice pack, but I know that Uncle Josh would have none of that. Harry doesn’t get really hard spankings like he got today, we all baby him way too much

Louis: “I don’t think Baby boy should go outside today” I said to Josh, he nodded in agreement, and Harry started crying even harder. Josh walked over, and he picked Harry up and hugged him.

Josh: “tonight at bedtime I’ll give you some lotion, okay buddy?” Harry nodded, and he clung onto Josh. I smiled, Uncle Josh can try to be strict all he wants, but not even he can handle seeing Harry like this.

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*later that day*

Joe’s POV:

After I got off the phone with Elena I quickly went downstairs and snuck Louis phone back to where I found it. I thought about staying down here and hanging out, but… I honestly don’t want to chance Louis seeing me and deciding to finish my butt whooping right now, it already hurts so much. I hope he forgets!!! but I know that he won’t… I pouted and made my way back upstairs to my room. Liam and Zayn are using an old beanie baby bear and throwing it back and forth.

Joe: “Zayn.. I told you to clean” Zayn looked over at me just in time for the bear to go flying into the side of his face. Liam and I both laughed at him, and he picked it up and chucked it back at Liam.

Zayn: “sorry Joey, I got distracted, I am cleaning” I rolled my eyes. it’s so hard to get Zayn to clean, because well… he hates it! but he does get distracted easily.

Joe: “I’ll help you for a little bit”

Liam: “I will help too”

Zayn: “thanks guys” we started out by pulling everything out from under his bed, and I was shocked by how much stuff he fit under there. it was the biggest pile of stuff I ever seen. We started working on separating it into different piles. We have one pile of stuff we are going to pack for him, and then stuff he wants to sell at the yard sale, or donate, and then a pile of stuff we need to throw away. and Liam was actually kind of more help then Zayn is being. I had to give Zayn a couple little bottom smacks to keep him focused on the task at hand.

Liam: “aw! Look! It’s Harry’s old monkey” he said holding up this little tiny monkey stuffed animal.

Joe: “I forgot about that thing!” I said grabbing it. it’s only got one eye, and his got stuffing coming out of his ear. Our grandma gave Harry this monkey a long time ago, and he carried it everywhere with him, and then when he lost it, under Zayns bed apparently, he freaked out and cried about it for weeks. Louis got him the blanket that he chooses to carry around with him now. he isn’t as obsessed with it as he was with this monkey though.

Liam: “should we give it back to him?”

Joe: “I don’t know, it would probably make him happy, but it was so annoying having to deal with him freaking out when we forget to bring it someplace”

Zayn: “he is older now, maybe he won’t be so attached to it anymore”

Joe: “lets…. Let Louis decide” I said walking over and putting it on my bed. “okay, so we need a trash bag, and some boxes”

Liam: “I’ll go get them” he said jumping over a pile of stuff and leaving the room. thank god because I definitely don’t want to go down there.

Zayn: “I don’t want to pack my stuff yet! What if I need something?”

Joe: “all of this stuff was lost under your bed for who knows how long, and you haven’t needed any of it you’ll be fine without it for a few weeks”

Zayn: “but look at all this stuff I forgot about! It’s like Christmas!” he said as Liam came back into the room with some boxes and trash bags.

Joe: “was louis still cuddling with Harry?”

Liam: “no, I saw Harry in the kitchen eating some Jello. He was all pouty and sad though”

Zayn: “why?”

Joe: “he got in trouble with Uncle Josh, and I think it was the hardest spanking he has gotten so far”

Zayn: “is he okay? wait… Uncle Joshie is here?”

Liam: “Joey messed up and now we have a babysitter”

Joe: “well… you guys always have a babysitter, I messed up and got myself one”

Zayn: “HA HA and you are 18!” I picked up Harry’s little stuffed monkey toy and I threw it at him

Joe: “shut up” I mumbled. Zayn is ALWAYS the first one to pick on me. but… I deserve it because I pick on him just as much. Liam and Zayn started talking about their friends, and I got back to work, and they joined me. after about a half an hour of cleaning/packing, I picked up this blue notebook and I opened it up to the first page to see what it is, and I chuckled. It’s Zayn’s Journal and the first page says ‘Dear Joe and Liam’ but before I could read it Zayn tried to grab it from me.

Zayn: “DON’T READ THAT! IT’S MINEE!”

Joe: “But look, it’s got a note to me in it”

Zayn: “Give it to mee!” he whined.

Joe: “dear joe and liam” I said holding it out of his reach “if you find this do not read it! this is private and for my eyes only-“ I read out loud

Zayn: “JOEEESEPH! Stop it!” He said jumping up to try to get it.

Joe: “But I wasn’t finished reading the note you wrote for us shorty” I said laughing at his failed attempt to get it. I’m not going to read any more of his journal, because I would HATE it if someone invaded my privacy like that, and I will never do that to my brothers. but it is kind of funny to mess with him.

Zayn: “you are meann! Please give it back Joey?” he asked softly. “it… it’s my journal about mom and dad” my heart sunk a little… when mom and dad died we were all given journals because writing can be a really good coping mechanism. I haven’t written in mine in a long time, but I can tell that this book is really important to Zayn and I feel horrible for even touching it.

Joe: “I’m just kidding buddy, I wasn’t planning on reading it, I won’t ever read your journal, I promise” I said handing it back to him. he closed it and hugged it.

Zayn: “close your eyes so I can hide it… both of you” Liam and I both covered our eyes, and I heard Zayn moving stuff around, and then he told us we could open our eyes. our bedroom door opened.

Louis: “wow, you guys need to clean your room”

Zayn: “Ugghh Louis! I’ve been cleaning our room most of the day” he said groaning and falling onto his bed, burying his face into his pillow.

Liam: “we pulled everything out from under his bed, and we have been separating it into different piles so we can figure out what to pack, sell, or throw out… it looks like a disaster, but we are cleaning”

Louis: “Zayn, did you tell them thank you for helping you?”

Zayn: “Yes I did… thank you” he said looking up

Louis: “thank you guys” he added.

Liam: “your welcome”

Joe: “no problem”

Louis: “I hate to interrupt all this cleaning, but… I need you downstairs Joe”

Joe: “right now?” I asked trying not to whine.

Louis: “yes… I have to work tonight, and we still need to finish up our discussion”

Joe: “but… but Zayn needs my help”

Louis: “well Zayn looks like he wants to take a cleaning break” UGH!

Zayn: “YES! no more cleaning!”

Louis: “come downstairs Joseph” he said sternly

Joe: “but Louis! I-“ he walked in the room and I flinched away, but he grabbed my arm and started dragging me “WAIT! we found Harry’s old monkey!” like thats going to save me from this...

Louis: “well, good, you can give it to him first” Zayn gave it to me and then Louis started pulling me downstairs. I just hung my head and followed him.

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