Come As You Are

Find yourself first, like yourself first, love yourself first, and friendship, companionship, and love will naturally find you.

Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn’t love me. But they lost someone who loved them.

All suffering originates from craving, from attachment, from desire.

People don’t come back. Part of me still hopes you will.

I lost him once when he told me he didn’t want us anymore. I lost him again when he stopped being my friend. A twofold blow. It’s hard to sleep at night.

1. I still fall asleep in your shirts on the days where the memories of you become too vivid 2. In my head, I still tell you about my day, and for once, it feels like you actually care. 3. I still love you, even with her on my side of your bed. 4. I still love you, even with him on your side of my bed. 5. Sometimes, when life hits too hard, I lie in bed with the thought of your arms around me, and for a blissful moment, it feels like reality, and calmness flows through my veins- You always did say I have an unrealistic imagination. 6. Your sharp words still cut into my every fucking day. Part of me is glad because this way, I still get to hear your voice. 7. I don’t love him, I just want you to think I do. I don’t want you to know I still care. I don’t want you to know the effect you have on me. 8. I hope you think of me half as often as I think of you. 9. I don’t know how to stop loving you.

one day you are going to look for me in all the places you could find me before  but i’m going to save you the trouble: i’ll already be gone

We need not to be let alone. We need to be really bothered once in a while. How long is it since you were really bothered? About something important, about something real?