“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”
-Carl Jung-
"If you want to create yourself, then you do not begin with the best and the highest, but with the worst and the deepest." - Jung
How do I face those truths I don’t want to live in an illusion
Have you journeyed to the depths of your own hell? Have you spoken with the demon that resides in your soul? Do you see the dark intent behind the actions you take rather than what you allow your conscious mind to see and believe? What are the things you enjoy that would be repulsive to others? What are the lowest qualities about yourself that you can identify?
This isn't an exercise in feeling shame. It is simply a matter of looking at what is true and real.
"But it is the same with man as with the tree. The more he seeks to rise into the height and light, the more vigorously do his roots struggle earthward, downward, into the dark, the deep - into evil." - Nietzsche
“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious” - Jung
Even though that is one of the most famous quotes of Jung, people still don't understand what he is saying because this sub and the main Jung sub is inundated with fools who believe they are motivated by love and light and act like they are some grand crusade to achieve perfection. They will talk about the best aspects of humanity and how we should all strive towards them without giving the devil his due so to speak.
The reason Jung says to start at the worst and deepest parts of ourselves is because that is where the truth resides. Our soul is that of a beasts. We love to fuck. We love to eat. We love to dominate. We love to satisfy our animal urges above all else, because that is what our actions reflect. Our "higher selves" mostly consist of wishful thinking of the person we could be if the reality of who we are wasn't so. Most people use their higher selves (think in terms spiritual gurus who end up sleeping with their students or using them for their own personal gain) to satisfy their animal desires. Why is Lucifer a being of light? Because that is the easiest place for evil to hide itself.
So called truth seekers or spiritualists fall into this trap for the most part. They want the aesthetic of being wise and sagely without ever having to journey through hell to attain it. Right now you are waking up to the fact that this is what you have been doing and it is causing you to unravel. It goes back to what I said in the previous post. The next step is for you to make the choice as to whether you genuinely want to live in truth or not. Doing so will require you to sacrifice almost everything you have built your life around now, because it is all based on lies. You don't know yourself. Your friends and loved ones don't know the real you because you are unable to articulate who you are since you don't possess the vocabulary to do so. The closer you get to the truth, the further you will be pushed away from others unless they themselves also thirst for it which 99.999999% of people on this planet do not.
"Sorrow is knowledge: they who know the most must mourn the deepest o'er the fatal truth, the Tree of Knowledge is not that of Life.". - Byron
It isn't a pleasant journey, and most people who undertake it are either driven insane or are broken in some manner or another. But what is the alternative? Do you want to continue living with a confused soul? Always having to put on an act and acquiesce to the whims of others? Or would you rather be as close to yourself as you can even if it means sacrificing everything else in order to do so?
The greatest danger of shadow work is finding out that everything you believed yourself to be is based on lies. It's the reason people tend not to make it very far when it comes to this process.
“You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame. How could you become new if you haven't first become ashes?” - Nietzsche
The further along you progress, the more isolated you will become. You will realize things about yourself that you won't be able to share with those close to you because the truth you see would destroy them. You feel drained of vigor for life because now that you are able to step into the depths somewhat you can see the illusions more clearly.
Every person you know is living an illusory life. Think about how far you've come with your inward journey. At the point youre at you should be able to recognize the delusional mind set you held before beginning this journey. If you don't continually look back at yourself and think "boy, was I fucking idiot", then you've stopped growing. Do you even know a single person who genuinely understands even the basics of shadow work and who also is looking to break out of their illusion in a serious manner? Do you see how those who don't try to understand these things relegate themselves to an automatic, low conscious life? They have no real self. They are nothing more than an amalgam of whatever programming they were subjected to in their upbringing.
Deep down you know these things which is why you feel drained of your vitality. This is just a part of the hell that real shadow work will put you through. So ask yourself if this is something you really want to keep pursuing even if it ends up costing you your relationships with your loved ones.
They can be integrated.
Every human is a sinner, correct? You try to abstain from sinning as much as possible and yet you still slip up. If that weren't so, then you would be the second coming of Christ. Why is it exactly that you fail at your endeavor? Because you do not bring the light (consciousness) to the dark (shadow). You sin without allowing your mind to be conscious while you're doing it. Why not be conscious of it instead. Before you sin, say "I am choosing to sin. I don't believe that what I'm about to do is right, but I'm doing it anyway".
When you're aware of your sin, you can take action to feed your darkness in a way that is less destructive to yourself and to others. If you feed the beast in your own way, it won't break free from the chains and feed on its own.
‘And yet it is almost a relief for us to come upon so much evil in the depths of our own minds. We are able to believe, at least, that we have discovered the root of the evil in mankind. Even though we are shocked and disillusioned at first, we yet feel, because these things are manifestations of our own minds, that we hold them more or less in our own hands and can therefore correct or at least effectively suppress them. We like to assume that, if we succeeded in this, we should have rooted out some fraction of the evil in the world’ - Jung
I grew up in a fundamentalist church. Let me tell you that every single family I knew - all of my friends, all of my relatives, almost all members of my church/school - they all had horribly dark secrets within their family but on the outside acted like God's perfect creations. I'm sure anyone else that grew up around fundamentalists will have had the same experience.
It was as though they were all split in two and refused to acknowledge or put an end to the horrible things they were doing because they couldn't allow their conscious minds to ever think upon it otherwise the weight of their sins would crush them. This same cycle plays out with the nonreligious as well.
It isn't like you embrace your shadow and suddenly become more evil. Instead by having a dialogue with it you are able to mitigate the effect it has in the world just as Jung suggested. It is simply a matter of how real are you willing to get with yourself and are you strong enough to bear the weight and pain that knowledge will bring you.














