blow me (one last kiss)

“You’re the ying, and I’m the yang.” Jude flicked the cigarette into the garbage can. His muscles hurt from the bus ride home. A snort fell from his nose as he laughed at the girl in front of him. “As if, you dont scare me, Hails. You’re about as intimidating as a mouse. A cute little mouse.” He chuckled, tapping the end of her nose with his finger.

Jude pulled his hand away, letting it lay in his lap before taking a long drag from his smoke, staring at her. “It’s whatever. Everything will work out the way it is supposed to work out.” He hoped, silently. “I guess it wouldn’t be too bad to sleep in a bed, instead of the bus stop.” It was nice to know he had a friend he could always rely on. He leaned his head over laying it on her shoulder. “I missed you, Hails.” He sighed, just glad to have a warmth in his presence. She was a breath of fresh air compared to the people he normally hung around. 

Jude made a face at her for stealing his lighter, snatching it back and pocketing it when she was done. Leaning in, so it was easier for them to talk. “No.. I expect he’s probably mad at me, for the whole vanishing thing.. He hasnt returned my calls.” Honestly, Jude wouldnt be surprised if Dylan didnt talk to him for a long time. “I dont know.. I mean, maybe. In the mean time, but I’m thinking about trying to find my own place. I saved up some money, and I think it will be good for me. I can sell to make up rent..” 

“I got back last night.” He called out, plopping down to sit in one of the old computer chairs lying around. “You’re the first person ive seen.. you know, besides the bartender.” He joked. The truth was though, Jude had been spending a lot of time at the bar. You know, for him. He leaned back, propping his feet up and lighting a cigarette. “Technically, its squatting.. which is I guess the same thing. But, I dont really give a damn. Its warm, and hidden. That’s all i need.” 

Jude smiled, reaching to take the umbrella from her hand and holding it up. He honestly felt bad for leaving, but it was only because of Hailey. He didnt feel bad about leaving his siblings, or his parents.. He other friends, his drug dealers. He didnt mind leaving them. It was leaving her that hurt. “Somewhere I found the other day.” He lead her down the dark sidewalk, behind the dumpster there was a door. He pushed it open, and stepped out of the rain, to revel an abandoned office space with old desks, and files all over the floor. “This way.” He murmured, shaking the rain off his coat before slipping it off and setting it by the door. He walked down the hall way, into a back office that had a couple of chairs and a trash can, with hot embers burning in the bottom where a fire had been before.   

Jude smiled as she hugged him, his heart filling with warmth. “Oh shut up..” He brushed her off, just like he brushed everything off: with a smile. He let his arms wrap around her, before stepping back and getting a good look at her face, water dripping from his. “Want to go find somewhere dry?” He asked, grabbing her hand, and motioning for her to follow him behind the alley way. 

With his foot against the wall he pushed himself off, and started walking towards the subway exit. Seeing Hailey in the distance, with her big yellow umbrella. Jude walked up to her, and bumped her arm, pointing to his ears. “Hearing aids.” He said to her, with a cheshire grin on his face. “I figured it out. We’ll just get you hearing aids, like Mr. Dunn, from history class. He wears hearing aids to hear. So we will just get you really strong ones. I saw a video about it.” He said, matter-of-factly, pulling the paper back to his lips and blowing it in her face as he realized just how much he missed her. 

Jude was standing on the rain soaked sidewalk, pulling his jacket closer to his chest. “Fuck..” He mumbled as he burned his finger on the lighter, leaning further into the darkness of the shadow that the streetlight caused on the building. Hailey should be there soon. It had been about thirty minutes since the last message they shared. Jude had been thinking about what she said, and how deafness couldn’t be fix. He would never admit it, but it broke his heart that she couldn’t hear. It was hard, but they worked through it. Jude brought the joint to his lips, and took a long hit wondering where his friend was. 

Meet me at the metro on 15th, in 30 mins?  I doubt that. There’s always something. 

Okay..

Come out with me, then. 

Are you sure its not worth it? There’s got to be something they could do… 

Where?

I guess.. 

Probably. Maybe you should tell them.. I mean, it will probably be for the best, i mean. 

I missed you..

I had to go.. I guess I can’t really blame you. I’ll fix that soon though.  I’m just shocked she hasn’t figured it out yet… I would say tell her, but I kind of want to see how long it can go, you know.. before she realizes. 

I know you had to go. I’m not upset about that, you’re back now. 

…but why? There’s no fun in that. Quitters never win, Hails.. 

What a coincidence. So am I. ;) 

Eh.. I dont need him anymore, I have you here. Hailsssssss, entertain me.