I don’t want to seek a friend, a lover , a mother, father , sister or brother in another. I only want God and I only want me. I want everything that I lost. I want my energy returned to me. All I want to do is heal and be concealed. I know I’m no good for another right now because I’m no good for me. But if I put my all into into it I know that I can be. I want to be free from the desire of outside validation and praise. The daydreams of being seen , protected and saved. I want to stand on my own . And as far as it’s possible owe no one and be self made. I can’t go back in time and erase the past but I don’t want to hold shame, guilt and grief and a permanent highlight reel of my past. I want to move forward to travel my true path. I want it to be true that this isn’t who I really am. That im better than this and that ill be crowned.