Hafewa

But over time, we realize it's nearly impossible. Even if the person we're with has a pure soul, is perfect on many levels, and kind, and we envision a future with them, we find ourselves in constant conflict. We struggle to prove ourselves, deny all the good things in them, and can't express ourselves in a sane way without hurting others or being seen as horrible and heartless.

Everything becomes covered in anger, and we end up making ourselves seem unlovable. We push people to hate us because we couldn't understand that we can't force a connection from the start. We can't meet their needs anymore, and trying feels in vain. They will always see us as lacking something, always waiting for something more from us than just our presence. It's not their fault, nor is it our overthinking or overreacting. Love isn't for everyone, and maybe we are just not lucky enough with everyone.

Feeling that we are unworthy of love, that we are different and insane, won't help. Seeing them as horrible won't help either. They may have had the purest feelings for us and expressed them genuinely. Seeing the worst in ourselves and in them will only cause more hurt and create an unbreakable cycle of pain.

Our modern needs can overshadow any love or honest feeling, putting a weight on our souls. Instead of leaving, I kept trying and ended up hurting myself and them, making promises that sounded insincere and fake to them, while in reality, all my best was done. Sometimes we fail to do certain things regardless of our desire and love. We become unbearably violent, and they just don't understand they just see our negativity as it's coming from nowhere while it's the result of many uncomfortable feelings we could never explain. It's okay to disappear the first time we feel something isn't right, rather than trying, hurting ourselves, and hurting them..

Pic from Tarkovsky Polaroids

It's not always a good idea to give it another shot. People who try too hard are often seen as clingy and desperate rather than appreciated.

The way we communicate significantly shapes how others perceive us. It determines their love or hate for us, whether they listen to us, and whether they try to understand us right or not. If we speak irrationally and violently, even with good intentions, they won't take the time to understand us and see our essence ,,,

we are so far away, body and soul, and they can't get into our hearts to see. Instead, they will label us based on our reactions to things, our roots and where we belong or live as if that defines who we are. They won't see the love we have for them, the bright ideas we want to share, the plans we envision, or how inspired we feel by them. Over time, we become like enemies, feeling like a target for requests only. Suddenly, everything centres on specific issues, and lovers forget that being together is the most important thing to have. We forget that we are two souls that found each other somewhere,, that knew each other, even a little,, but they will always remember things about each other. Both pleasant and not pleasant. Both true and not true,, but they're always memories<3

لا يمكن لأي نقص أن يخفي قلبًا يضيء. كل منا لديه عالمه الداخلي الذي يحفظ جوهرنا الحقيقي، وليس الصورة التي نحدد بها هوياتنا. نحن جميعًا موضع تقدير، وعلينا أن نجد التقدير داخل أنفسنا فهذا ما يحدد كيفية إدراكنا لكل شيء.