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Mishi’s Blog
EST. MAY 2026
Welcome to my blog!
“Heaven is here. There is nowhere else. Heaven is now. There is no other time.”
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PARTY MONSTER
Trope: Enemies with Chemistry
Pairing: spy!jay x spy!female reader
Synopsis: You’ve always despised Park Jongseong - not because of the attention he’s garnered for his exceptional performance within the agency, but because of the burning jealousy within a small part of yourself that feels he doesn’t deserve such recognition. For as long as you’ve known Jay, you’ve concluded that he’s nothing but a careless jerk that’s always excessively clubbing and only managed through his multitude of missions by sheer luck. When the time comes for the both of you to be partnered up for a crucial mission, will such feelings change or will the heart harbor something entirely different?
Warnings: inappropriate language (cursing), explicit mature content - smut (MDNI), dry humping, sexual intercourse, unprotected sex (don’t even think about it), cream pie, mentions of slight violence and Jay is somewhat of an annoying prick
Mishi’s Thoughts: I love a good enemies to lovers situation so I truly tried my best to write well for this one. Not much to say but I hope you all love it! Oh it’s rather long, I feel like it’s shorter than Heeseung’s though so take note. Once more interactions are valued so please please please follow, like, comment and reblog if you enjoyed this. It’ll inspire me so much! I did proofread this fic before posting so any mistakes that you may find are probably what I potentially missed. Taglist is open for Jake’s upcoming fic as well! Also, gentle reminder this is purely fictional and is in no way connected to the person I’m writing about in real life. Thank you so much for reading!
“Where are you princess?” Jay’s deep voice rang out into your ear through the micro-spy earpiece. You listened over the light orchestrated music and faint chatter of guests surrounding you.
You were standing casually by the grazing table, sipping on a flute of champagne. Completely calm as your gaze scanned over the heads of the guests at the charity gala you and Jay were assigned to attend for the sake of an important mission.
“Stop calling me that,” you muttered while sipping on your drink.
You then added, “Grazing table.”
Jay’s now confused voice reverberated in your ear again, his question pissing you off further. As if it wasn’t enough the two of you had to work together tonight. Thanks Director Lee. You just wanted to get this over with.
“No I won’t princess. The nickname suits you. But where are you? Come again?”
“The table with all the finger food, Jongseong,” you let out an irritated sigh with an annoyed huff.
You rolled your eyes when you heard that infuriatingly deep, now calmer chuckle of his through your earpiece. You were so sick of this.
When his taller, handsome frame finally came into view amongst a few guests standing nearby - his toned body effortlessly clad in a well-tailored suit. Jay immediately froze when his eyes landed on you.
Standing a few feet away, you could clearly see him staring at you shamelessly and with obvious awe. It certainly surprised you but you didn’t appear fazed as you kept up your composed expression.
He finally stepped closer, seemingly overcoming his shock and looking you up and down in a way that made you want to slap him senseless.
“Damn princess. You didn’t have to go all out,” he teased lightly as he grabbed a flute of champagne for himself from a passing waiter carrying a tray full of them.
You were in a long strapless, off the shoulder dark red dress - ruched up in various places and pulled tight at the waist by a corset bodice, which only further accentuated your figure. Your hair perfectly styled and your makeup flawless.
You could tell Jay wasn’t complaining at the view at all. Even appearing to be quite distracted. Especially with that long slit up the left thigh’s side of your dress.
You rolled your eyes and crossed your arms, twirling a strand of your styled hair cascading down your shoulders just to taunt him further.
You were well aware of how extravagant the dress was that the agency made you wear for the gala. The sight had turned heads when you arrived and you could still feel people’s stares on you.
“Is that all you care about? Maybe focus on what we actually have to do and get this over with,” you muttered softly so only he could hear.
“Why the rush? I think I’m quite enjoying this gala tonight.”
His eyes still never left your body as he leaned against the table, sipping on his champagne.
“We got all the time in the world and we still have to act like an actual couple now don’t we? So, might as well get started.”
He extended his palm out to you at those words and you tensed up, already reading into his silent question.
“No.” You looked away, rejecting without missing a beat.
“Oh come on princess. People will get suspicious if they see me like this you know,” Jay prompted as he still kept his hand out for you to take.
You shot him a sarcastic glance, eyeing his hand thoughtfully as you responded in a mocking voice.
“Like what? A begging puppy next to me?” You could hardly fight the smirk creeping up on your glossy red lips.
Jay just scoffed under his breath while setting his half-finished champagne on the table beside him. Before you knew it, he had an arm firmly around your waist as he guided you towards the circle of dancers in the center of the beautifully decorated hall.
He didn’t even let you stumble in the silver designer heels you were wearing while pulling you, as you both somehow got into position on the dance floor.
Your hands instantly found his broad shoulders, whereas his hands grabbed your waist, holding you firmly as he skillfully guided your bodies in sync to the classical music playing.
You seethed under your breath, glaring up at him, “What the-?”
Before you could even finish your sentence, Jay cut you off by dipping his head down.
His lips brushed yours lightly as he murmured against them, startling you as your body froze.
“Target is in sight. He’s watching you.”
Your kept your eyes glaring straight up into Jay’s, trying your best to remain composed and fight the reaction his breath with yours made your body.
You didn’t pull away. Because that could potentially ruin everything and instead retorted, your lips brushing his still.
“So? Doing this is so unnecessary.” You huffed out.
“You’re not rejecting it though. Besides, I just don’t like the way he’s looking at you.”
“Like a piece of meat,” he added under his breath, in a darker tone that you couldn’t really decipher.
You glanced around the hall as you both swayed lightly to the music - bodies in sync. You eventually caught the not-so-subtle stare of a middle-aged man in the distance, amongst what appeared to be a rather large group of bodyguards.
You didn’t keep your gaze on the target for long as you turned to look back up at Jay.
“He sees me with you so I doubt it’ll be a problem right? He probably thinks we’re a couple or something,” you tried to reassure, but if anything you were only comforting yourself.
“You think he cares about that? This is Yoon Kang-dae we’re talking about. He’s the leader of one of the biggest gangs in the country at the moment princess. So yeah I doubt me as your supposed boyfriend would stop him.”
You frowned up at him as you muttered, “If you’re thinking to abort the mission because of that man’s stupid eyes that he can’t keep in his sockets - then you’re the most ridiculous spy I have ever met Park Jongseong.”
Jay merely laughed at that, though you could feel his grip on your waist tighten.
“There’s a reason I’m one of the best spies in AISA, princess. You trust me don’t you?”
You scoffed, fingers gripping his suit jacket tighter.
“Hell no.”
He chuckled softly, not listening as his hands snaked down towards your ass, not squeezing but resting there. His eyes were burning holes into the older male’s and you swore you caught something like possessiveness in his gaze.
“Jay!” You could only gasp as he pressed your body firmly against his, your bodies still subconsciously moving to the sound of the music. Jay’s attention suddenly snapped back to you. He had tensed up, making you pause yourself. However, both of you were still dancing smoothly amongst the others, neither faltering for a second or it might blow your covers.
You hastily continued, just so that he doesn’t point out that you used his nickname for the first time ever, “Um yeah so same plan right? Split up and you trail after him to get video evidence of the shady substance deals he’s doing with the other prims in here and I head to his office and look for documented evidence, deal?”
Jay nodded, his head tilted at you as he eyed you intently.
“Let’s wait for him to leave and then we move out.”
It was past midnight when things finally started getting intense.
You and Jay had stopped dancing a while back - with you claiming your heels were hurting your feet. Instead, you two were hovering near the grazing table again, somehow managing to strike up easy conversation while keeping an eye on Yoon. Jay however, had other plans as he was constantly snacking on finger food.
You rolled your eyes when you noticed him reaching for some weird looking block of cheese next. Smacking his arm and nearly making him drop the snack with a yelp - you scolded, “Do you have no shame? What if you get poisoned from that?”
Jay huffed, savoring his cheese without a care in the world, “Oh relax princess, this is a charity gala not some death show. Who’d be that stupid to put poison in finger food at a public event?”
“I’m not talking about that kind of poison Jongseong, I’m referring to natural food poisoning. Look at the condition of that thing you just ate.” You remarked as you scrunched up your face in disgust.
Jay smacked his lips, reaching for another treat, a mini brownie by the looks of it and you slapped his hand away immediately.
He turned to look at you with an offended glare but you weren’t focusing on him anymore, your gaze averted elsewhere.
“Fuck he’s gone,” you mumbled out, eyes swiftly scanning the people in the hall still.
“What? Already? But I just looked at him and he was-”
You groaned, already straightening up and adjusting your dress as you cut him off.
“Does it matter? He’s gone now and it’s all because of your greediness,” you huffed out angrily, not even bothering to look back at him as you moved to leave the gala.
You called out before disappearing out a side door nearby, which lead on to the winding corridor of the estate’s manor, “Let’s go.”
You two got into focus quite easily. All fun and banter set aside for the moment as you split up and followed through with your initial plan - only now Jay needed to hunt for Yoon before he could obtain any sufficient and strong evidence.
You headed up the winding staircase leading from the foyer of the manor, leaving the peaceful ambiance of the gala. Thankfully, the staff and guests were too caught up with the event to even bat an eye or notice intruders roaming around in restricted areas. Jay on the other hand, decided to scour the first floor to perhaps find Yoon and his potential clients.
You had already memorized the security cameras’ and patrol teams’ blind spots beforehand, so it wasn’t difficult for you to find Yoon’s office. Before entering you spoke to Jay, finger on the ear piece as you muttered, “Security cams in the office have been disconnected already right?”
“Mhm, Riki did a while back,” Jay’s voice responded easily.
You acknowledged the response and didn’t continue small talk - not wanting to distract yourself or Jay. So, you quickly slipped inside the office and immediately began hunting for incriminating evidence that could be used to throw Yoon in jail for good. This mission was particularly important because previous AISA spies have tried to thwart his criminal activities, but to no avail.
It was up to you and Jay now.
Using the small, indiscernible pocket knife you had hidden between your chest, the strong blade managed to pull open all the locked drawers of Yoon’s desk and even his safe after you found it. Turns out he’s awful at hiding stuff.
“Bingo.” You muttered to yourself as you scanned through all the files hidden within - a triumphant expression on your face, until Jay’s voice suddenly broke through the peace in your ear.
“Uh- princess? We got a problem.”
You paused, listening carefully and could’ve sworn you heard running footsteps and gunshots in the background over the ear piece.
“What did you do Jongseong?” Your voice was low and even, trying to contain the anger and panic as you realized what was happening as you whisper-yelled at him.
“N-nothing really. I swear it’s not- Ah!” Jay yelped between hurried breaths. Looks like someone got discovered.
“Just- abort okay?! I repeat - ABORTT!!” You could hear Jay screaming as he ran and the thought of it was exceedingly comical to you.
You groaned, shaking your head at his dramatic response. You knew by now that if Yoon realized Jay was an unwanted intruder in his business, then he probably figured out he’d have an acquaintance too.
And it didn’t help that the target saw you with Jay dancing at the gala earlier. His patrol team was probably searching this manor thoroughly as your mind raced with these thoughts.
“I’ll meet you at the car. For the love of God please don’t get yourself killed Jongseong.”
You added after a beat, scrambling up all the files and documents you found necessary to easily convict Yoon, “And stop screaming in my ear it’s annoying. You sound like a blender full of marbles. Stupid ass.”
Jay was speeding down the highway leading off from the Yoon estate using the black, tinted sedan the agency provided for the mission. You were clutching your seatbelt for dear life, your eyes wide as Jay constantly twisted the steering wheel - the car swiveling from lane to lane recklessly.
“They’re gaining on us!” You yelled over the screech of tires as he narrowly avoided colliding into one of the cars driving ahead.
In the rear view mirror, you could clearly see the fleet of tinted SUVs picking up speed as they chased the sedan down the road.
“I know that, stop reminding me!” Jay retorted, his voice a bit higher from how terrified he was just like you.
You felt like your heart was in your hands, pulse roaring in your ears as you constantly shifted your gaze from the vehicles at the back to the highway at the front.
“What the hell did you do to make them so angry?” You demanded, body stiff as you clutched your dress tightly.
“Fuck I don’t know- look it’s nothing it’s so dumb.”
You groaned, massaging your temples.
“It can’t have been ‘nothing’ if they’re on our asses like we killed someone.”
You paused and snapped your head over to Jay, his face distorting into a panicked grimace.
“Please don’t tell me you killed someone, Jongseong,” you were practically pleading that he wasn’t that reckless. He couldn’t be. Top spy of AISA?
Jay just cleared his throat, refusing to answer you as his eyes focused on something straight ahead.
“Forget that, I got an idea.”
You let out a startled scream, clutching the dashboard now as Jay suddenly made a swift turn - rounding a corner and ending up on a dirt road leading off the highway. The car nearly toppling from the force of Jay’s driving.
The vehicles trailing behind didn’t anticipate that move and instead sped past for fear of crashing if they made a risky turn like that. It wouldn’t take long for them to reverse and follow you both though.
“What the fuck was that for?!” You yelled as you took in the thick, dense trees on either side of the narrow path. Everything was pitch black as the sedan’s headlights flashed over whatever was ahead.
The sounds of branches scraping against the exterior of the car along with the tires going over shrubs and bushes on the path echoing around you.
“Bought us time didn’t I? Let’s just hope we can hide and they’ll give up the chase.” Jay replied, his voice much calmer now.
Any minute now the vehicles could return, Jay turning off the headlights of the car after finding a good hiding spot and parking between a tiny clearing amongst the trees - barely large enough to fit the sedan properly.
You could finally let out a relieved breath, your surroundings enveloped in complete darkness as he cut the engine so no noise could be made.
You kept your voice low as you spoke, head leaning against the window, “Lee is going to kill you for mauling a company vehicle like this.”
Jay let out a quiet laugh and when you turned to look at him could barely see him because of the total darkness around you. Yet you had a good feeling he was smiling despite the turn of events.
“He’s the reason we’re in this mess in the first place. All he had to do was raid Yoon’s manor with a search warrant. This whole disguise situation as a waste.”
You chuckled at that, then remembered why you both were here in the first place.
“I mean that’s why we’re spies right? Seriously though what the hell did you do?”
He shook his head even though knowing you could barely see.
“That’s a story for another day princess,” he murmured, clearly not wanting to talk about it just yet.
“But you didn’t kill him right?”
His voice trailed off, “Noo- but wait, actually in a sense-”
“Park Jongseong!”
He groaned finally giving in - although just slightly.
“Okay okay fine. I didn’t exactly kill him but I did shoot him. If he bleeds out he technically does die, but yeah.”
You stared at him in the dark, flabbergasted.
“Yep, Lee’s definitely going to kill you,” you managed out.
Jay tried to refute, “Listen in my defense-”
You cut him off, letting out a disbelieving laugh, “That’s the thing though, you didn’t shoot him because of self defense did you?”
Jay immediately fell silent at that, contemplating his answer.
“No but-”
“Yeah, you’re screwed. Company policy says you’re not supposed to shoot unless they’re a threat to you. A life or death situation.”
Jay let out an exasperated sigh, “You’re really not going to let me finish are you princess?”
“Nope.”
You crossed your arms - sliding down a bit further in your seat, getting comfortable as you continued mockingly, “Seems like I’ll be best agent now.”
“I’ll explain to Lee later when we get back don’t worry. There’s no way I’m letting this get me a suspension. I’m better than you princess you gotta admit that by now. Besides it was just by his hip he’ll be finee,” Jay drawled, seemingly unfazed and uncaring about what he did.
You didn’t get a chance to respond when you caught a flash of headlights in the distance on the path ahead, your heart almost stopping.
Jay noticed it too and immediately unbuckled his seatbelt.
“Backseat. Now.”
You didn’t hesitate, unbuckling yours as well while you climbed on to the center console. Ready to carefully slip into the backseat - being cautious because of how uncomfortable your dress and heels were, you let out a soft yelp when Jay wrapped his arms around your waist, using his body to push you both on to the car’s backseat floor.
You couldn’t even yell or utter a word at him as he clapped a hand over your mouth firmly. Your eyes went wide but you didn’t make a sound - taking in both of your positions as the headlights drew closer and the faint rumble of engines from vehicles approached.
Jay was hovering over you, body pressed firmly against yours. You could feel every inch of him and you tried your best not to think too much about it. Though your mind was beginning to spiral.
The backseat floor was extremely cramped - especially for a broad man like Jay, so it felt like his presence was practically consuming you, his scent the only thing your nostrils could register as he surrounded you. He was pretty much hugging you tightly to him and damn it did he smell really good.
His free arm remained tightly around your waist, sliding down after a few minutes to rest on your right thigh over your dress - where he knew your gun was strapped to after bolting into the car earlier as he sped off by Yoon’s estate.
The beams of flashlights suddenly drew closer and bounced off the barks of trees around the sedan. You could hear the faint murmur of Yoon’s men as they circled the vehicle, dead leaves and dry grass crunching under the surface of their boots.
Jay shifted his position, intending to use his broad back in his black suit jacket to shield you both from detection - lying flat against you now.
You both held your breaths as the brightness of the beams illuminated your faces in the dark from the sheer force of them. Thankfully, because the car was heavily tinted and the engine was off, it appeared that the men were beginning to think you guys had abandoned the sedan and fled.
One ray gleamed directly into a backseat window, another shining through the windshield. You tensed up even more against Jay, praying they wouldn’t detect you both. Your eyes met his directly as his gaze bore into yours, something in his eyes beginning to calm you.
“Clear!” You heard one of the men shout in the distance as the beams withdrew, growing dim by the minute as the men retreated.
You both waited until you heard the hum of the vehicles’ engines become fainter - until it was dead silent in the otherwise empty forest.
Jay didn’t move just yet, slowly removing his hand from your mouth. The position you both were in somehow made you feel a bit awkward and you cleared your throat turning your head away.
“You can get off of me now.”
Jay didn’t respond staying silent for a long minute, instead he simply buried his face against the exposed crook of your neck, making you freeze. Your body trembled slightly at the ticklish sensation on instinct.
“What the fuck-?”
“Shh,” he cut you off calmly - body completely relaxed over yours, his voice and breath hitting your skin which sent shivers down your spine.
You were rendered speechless for a moment, uncertain of what to say. In turn, Jay only nuzzled further against your neck, humming lightly with content against your skin. He wasn’t acting like the Jay you knew at all.
“You smell good,” he murmured, almost instinctively as he inhaled deeply.
You rolled your eyes, fighting a smile as you reached up and smacked the back of his head.
“Get off me Jongseong,” you demanded, though your voice was a tad softer than the usual annoyed tone you had while regarding him.
He groaned softly, “You’re no fun princess.”
He pressed a quick, light kiss to the base of your throat, making you stiffen as he pulled away. Effortlessly sitting up on the backseat and climbing back into the driver’s seat in front, he called back to you - still rooted to the spot while curled up on the sedan’s floor.
“You staying down there or what?”
“You gonna tell me how your mission went with Jay or what?” Yunjin asked for what felt like the hundredth time as you waited for her to finish getting ready.
You both were heading to one of the top clubs in the city to celebrate the success of your difficult mission partnered with Jay. Thanks to the documents you acquired, the government convicted Yoon easily and he ended up being sentenced to prison for life along with his substance ring and gang falling apart. The law holding all involved by mention of evidence, accountable as well.
Director Lee had organized the celebration party as he was extremely proud of the work you and Jay pulled off - and managed to survive too upon hearing about the high speed chase you two were involved in.
You were leaning against her bedroom wall, groaning to yourself at your best friend’s question as you watched her apply her makeup. Dressed in a sleeveless dark grey top that accentuated your figure and a short light grey miniskirt, you had accessorized your outfit with a black and gold belt hung loosely around your hips along with knee length black heeled boots.
“I told you it went fine, Yunjin,” you responded dryly.
“Besides it clearly went perfectly if Lee decided to go so far as to rent out a club. I told you multiple times in detail how it went.”
Yunjin chuckled under her breath as she applied her mascara, remarking slyly, “Doesn’t seem like just ‘fine’ to me. You’re even more jumpy than usual whenever I mention Jay.”
“And I know it’s not because you hate him, don’t lie to me,” she quickly added as you were about to open your mouth and argue against her words.
“You’re overthinking it. It was just one simple mission with that freak and as usual he was just being annoying the entire time.”
“He’s been eyeing you more than usual lately. And if you ask me it’s not really to tease you like before. There’s gotta be something going on with you two that has nothing to do with hate,” she replied, shooting you a quick glance.
You tensed up at that, your mind flashing back to the events of the previous night - even though nothing exactly happened per se, it was just harmless flirting from Jay. Or was it?
You cleared your throat, looking away immediately - a nervous habit Yunjin knew you had all too well, as you added hastily while flinging your hands dramatically, “Who Jay? Absolutely not. It’s only been one day since the mission. That’s not reason enough. Besides he’s this arrogant player, there’s no way he’s whatever you’re trying to imply because of me.”
Yunjin laughed, applying her favorite lippie before commenting, “He doesn’t really seem to care much about his admirers these days come to think about it. I don’t remember the last time I heard him gloat about himself since you two returned. And you know how dramatic he is.”
You scoffed, “The mission ended last night, Yunjin.”
She shrugged lightly as she fluffed her hair and took a once over of herself in her mirror before she deemed herself ready to leave, responding casually, “Fair enough. I guess only time can tell.”
“So you ready to go?”
She asked casually and you nodded not noticing her sly and knowing gaze as she took in your attire for the evening, following you out her bedroom.
The club was loud and stuffy when you both arrived. Mainly because of the multitude of trainees and agents dancing and drinking while having a good time tonight. Music blared through the large speakers lining the walls as you weaved your way through the crowd with Yunjin, occasionally flashing polite and strained smiles at people that recognized you and congratulated you on the successful mission.
Yunjin led you both straight to the bar as the crowd grew smaller, with only a few persons in groups littering the area while others lined the bar stools to order drinks.
You caught sight of Jay sprawled on a couch in a VIP booth nearby with his group of friends. They all looked like sights for sore eyes, from Heeseung all the way down to Riki. The only person that mainly caught your attention however was Jay - who didn’t notice you just yet.
And damn did he look fucking hot. He was lounging casually on one of the couches, swirling a glass of whiskey in his hand - classy and attractive at the same time. Wearing a simple buttoned black shirt - the first few buttons undone which exposed the faint skin of his smooth chest slightly, along with black slacks that covered his spread legs down to his ankles. His free hand was resting loosely on his thigh as he sipped his drink, calm eyes scanning the club until they eventually landed on you.
He raised his eyebrows, scanning your body from head to toe as his gaze lingered on the outfit you were wearing. His friends were all chatting away obliviously around him, but it felt like his eyes were burning holes straight into you.
He smirked slightly and eventually just raised his glass lightly at you before taking a sip. That same moment, Yunjin got your drinks and had returned back to you. She managed to catch the intense eye contact you and Jay were sharing as she nudged you to get your attention.
She teased lightly, “Go over there if you want to fuck him so bad. The sexual tension between you two is insane.”
You rolled your eyes, scrunching up your face in disgust and holding back the urge to shove her, “Shut the fuck up.”
She laughed heartily in your face as she took a sip of her drink, leaning against the counter of the bar as she scanned the club.
“Drunk idiots,” she muttered to herself.
“Couldn’t even wait for a toast to you and Jay. They just had to go and get high already,” she huffed.
“Where is Lee either way?” You asked as you looked around, trying to get a glimpse of your boss.
“Who cares? We’re here for a party not work. He’s unimportant.” Yunjin downed the rest of her drink, surprising you at her quick pace.
“I’m gonna go get another one, need a refill or not yet?” She gestured sarcastically to your untouched drink.
You grumbled under your breath, shooing her away and she laughed to herself, walking back to the bartender.
“Did anyone ever tell you how much of a nice ass you have princess?” A familiar and always so irritating voice suddenly mumbled into your ear behind you, making you yelp with a startle and almost spill your drink.
Jay laughed, “Careful there, don’t want to ruin that pretty outfit of yours.”
You rolled your eyes, whirling around to glare up at him, “Jongseong.”
“Princess.” He responded simply, amused eyes boring into yours.
He raised his eyebrows while listening to your demand, “What do you want now?”
“Wasn’t it obvious? I just said it,” he responded calmly, gesturing to your ass in your skirt and his tone began to piss you off.
“My ass is none of your business so stop looking at it,” you snapped at him, taking a long sip of your drink as a way to calm down.
He chuckled enthusiastically, enjoying riling you up.
“I can look where I want. You can’t tell me what to do.”
His voice dropped to a whisper as he leaned down, murmuring against your ear, “And you weren’t that opposed to me feeling it last night were you? I have to admit it was rather soft.”
You scoffed, cheeks flushing as you sipped on your drink again. Refusing to let his proximity get to you as you retorted, “You’re behaving like we fucked or something when all you did was grab my ass just for the sake of appearances regarding our mission.”
He shook his head, chugging the rest of his whiskey, “So technical and for what reason.”
“Loosen up a little princess, tonight’s for us either way,” he nudged you lightly before winking, sauntering over to the bar to get a refill of his drink while you stood there, dumbfounded.
It was then that you noticed Director Lee stepping up on to the stage at a corner of the club, lights moving to direct on the middle-aged man’s figure.
He stood there, tall and imposing in a posh suit and you rolled your eyes while smiling to yourself. Always overly sophisticated in moments that didn’t call for it.
His booming voice spoke into the microphone presented on stage already, “Greetings everyone.”
That caught the attention of the people in the club, all eyes directed on him. Pleased that he got what he wanted, Lee continued.
“I hope you’re all enjoying yourselves. Just a quick toast to celebrate the reason we’re all here tonight.”
His eyes scanned the crowd of bodies, as if looking for you two.
“Jay. Y/N. Can you both come up here please? With your drinks preferably.”
You let out a quiet groan under your breath - not too fond of being the center of attention. Nevertheless, you made your way over to the stage, people parting for you with pleased and drunken smiles. You could almost feel Jay’s looming presence behind you, following from the bar.
When you both stepped on to the stage, a round of applause and cheers broke loose. You made your way over to Lee, flashing him a warm smile to which he reciprocated with a curt nod to you and Jay.
You stood calmly on the stage as the director continued to speak, discussing the importance of the mission Jay and you went on the previous night. Along with how risky it was for both of us.
Jay had moved to stand beside you and you suddenly stiffened when you felt his arm drape casually around your waist. You didn’t dare look at him, your cheeks burning as you kept your eyes on the crowd down below. Jay on the other hand, had a smug smirk on his lips as he paid attention to Lee, clearly aware of the effect he was having on you.
His thumb stroked absentminded circles along the curve of your waist and you hated your body for eventually relaxing into it.
“A toast,” Lee’s voice broke your thoughts as he raised his glass, “To two of the best agents AISA has seen within this generation so far.”
Everyone else raised their glasses in unison, including you and Jay.
Suddenly, Lee smiled. You caught it. The faint curve of his lips upward. And you blinked, trying to process what you were seeing. Lee rarely smiled unless he was up to something. Or it could be that he was just really pleased with the work you and Jay did right?
“Also, to commemorate such fine work that they’ve both been doing so far, I have decided on something.”
You finally shot a glance at Jay, whose grip had tensed just slightly on your waist. He met your eyes, clearly just as confused as you while murmurs broke through amongst the other agents.
Lee smiled a bit wider, sensing the confusion as he continued calmly.
“It is my pleasure to announce that I have assigned Jay and Y/N as partners permanently. Not just for this last mission they had, but they will be working together from now on - a combined force - for every other mission that comes their way.”
Your heart dropped. Gasps and shocked mumbles echoed in your ears as you processed what the director just said.
You? Working alongside Jay? Fuck no.
Even Jay looked horrified. You could tell by the way his grip on your waist went completely slack. His expression aghast as he stared at a smirking Lee.
“Cheers agents!” Lee announced calmly, raising his glass to you both and taking a sip casually.
You and Jay barged into one of the club’s back rooms, following Lee. Both of you have been complaining to him since you stepped off the stage and it only pissed you off further that the director looked completely unfazed.
“I work solo, Sir!” Jay whined as he tried to convince Lee to change his mind.
“You could’ve assigned me with anyone else but you chose Jay?! This is ridiculous!” You added sulkily.
“Please change your mind, Sir!” You both were practically pleading with the older man.
Lee simply laughed while shaking his head.
“This is exactly why I think it’ll be good for you both to work together. You both need to set your differences aside.”
You widened your eyes, trying to act innocent.
“Differences? We have no differences. Jay and I are great friends aren’t we?” You nudged Jay, who straightened up and nodded in response.
Lee chuckled, “You two can’t fool me. I know a good pair when I see one.”
“With all due respect Sir, the only reason I agreed to work with Y/N on the Yoon case was because you said we had to play a fake couple.” Jay remarked.
“But other than that she’s a complete waste,” he added slyly, shooting you a glance. This man knew exactly how to rile you up.
You immediately started on him, whirling around.
“Excuse me? Who was the one that almost got his head blown off while running away from a bunch of Yoon’s men? Hollering like a screaming baby the entire time all the way to the car might I add!” You gritted your teeth at him.
Jay’s smirk faded slightly, “Oh please, it’s not like I would’ve gotten myself killed. I was overreacting for the fun of it.”
You huffed, crossing your arms, “Sure yeah. Fool around like an idiot in the middle of a crucial mission. You could’ve gotten both of us in serious trouble or even wound up dead!”
“Nonsense. I saved your pretty ass with my amazing driving skills,” Jay retorted, his arrogant tone frustrating you.
“That doesn’t change the fact that you had people chasing us in the first place because of some outrageous and unnecessary stunt you pulled! We’re spies for God’s sake, Jongseong! Not dramatic actors!” You yelled at him.
Jay raised his own voice in return, “You wouldn’t understand why I did it. Stop making me out to be a bad person when the mission literally went completely fine. We’re here and unharmed aren’t we?”
You frowned, “That’s supposed to make this all okay? I don’t want a reckless attention-seeking partner!”
Your eyes scanned the dimly lit back room, eyes adjusting to the contents of the area as you blinked not finding the director or hearing his voice anywhere. Of course, he probably slipped out when you two began arguing. Typical Lee.
Jay didnt seem to notice nor care as your insult had hit him deep. He instead yelled out angrily.
“I only shot him because of you!”
That made you pause, your eyes snapping up to his blazing ones. Confused, you managed out, “What?”
Jay seemed to realize what he said and for once in your life you noticed Park Jongseong looked nervous. He was fidgeting with his hands until he eventually shoved them into the pockets of his slacks. You weren’t sure if it was because of the glowing red lights in the room or your mind playing tricks on you, but was he also blushing?
He cleared his throat, tapping his polished black shoe lightly against the floor, “Nothing.”
“Don’t give me that, Jay. Spit it out. Why did you do it?” The anger in your voice was slowly dissipating.
Jay glanced sheepishly at his feet as he mumbled, “He was talking to his clients about you. It seems they all had their eyes on you that night.”
You frowned, listening while not saying anything.
“I overheard him. It’s like drugs weren’t that important to them at that moment. Only you were.”
You furrowed your eyebrows, “What do you mean by that?”
Jay let out an exasperated sigh, massaging his temples, “They were planning to take you from me Y/N. I couldn’t help it. The way they were talking about you. The things they wanted to do to you. I got so angry I-”
He took a deep breath, trying to remain calm.
“I know it wasn’t right for me to shoot him. But somehow he had photos of you from the gala and he was showing it to them. If you only heard the nasty things they were saying. I couldn’t help it. I had to.”
He added wryly, “And truth be told, I was aiming for his dick but oh well.”
That made you laugh. A light, airy sound that surprised both of you. Your amused eyes met his startled, widened ones, his cheeks flushed from his confession.
“Didn’t think you liked me so bad, Jongseong,” you teased lightly, no longer upset at him.
Jay rolled his eyes, his gaze boring into yours, “You know I could never hate you right?”
You hummed lightly, nodding.
“All you had to do was choke him or something for a bit you know,” you joked softly.
He laughed, shaking his head, “That wouldn’t have been enough trust me. Even just shooting him once didn’t calm me down. I wanted him dead.”
You rolled your eyes laughing, “You’re so damn dramatic.”
“Only for you princess,” he winked, both of you cringing at that.
“Partners?” You held out your hand for him to shake eventually.
Jay stared at your manicured fingers for a solid minute before he nodded. Grasping your hand, instead of shaking it, he used his strength to pull you closer. His free hand instantly cupped your face, soft lips meeting your glossy ones easily.
Your fingers intertwined with his and surprisingly enough, you let yourself melt into the kiss.
It started off sweet and hesitant at first, both of you trying to get familiar with the taste and feel of each other’s lips. Until, the kiss escalated, growing more passionate and intense as you snaked your arms around Jay’s neck, his own toned arms wrapping around your waist - crushing your body to his effortlessly.
You tilted your head slightly as the kiss deepened - a clash of tongue and teeth as you both made out.
He squeezed your hip, a silent gesture and you responded easily. Not breaking the kiss for a second, you walked backwards, knees hitting the edge of one of the couches in the back room. Jay carefully laid you down, hovering over you as his lips trailed down along your jaw - your head tilted to give him better access.
The sounds of both your ragged breaths echoed in the room, the bass of club music outside now faint and muffled to your ears. You could only think about one thing and that was Park Jongseong.
You let out a breathy gasp when his teeth nipped lightly at the sensitive skin of your neck, your body shivering. Your fingers tangled in his soft, thick, dark locks of hair while tugging slightly. Earning a muffled groan against your skin as he sucked a hickey along the edge of your collarbone.
Jay lifted his head, eyes boring into yours as a teasing smile played on his lips, “Where’s all that mouth you had now, huh princess?”
You rolled your eyes, shoving him off you as he fell back on the cushions of the couch with a surprised yelp. You then proceeded to climb on to his lap, legs settling on either side of his thighs as you straddled him.
Jay’s eyes went wide as his hands gripped your hips firmly, his gaze traveling along the sight of your body on top of him.
“Gorgeous,” he breathed out, as his lips found your neck again trailing searing kisses while you leaned your head back.
Your body began to feel all hot and bothered. The lighting in the room only adding to the intimacy of the moment. You griped Jay’s broad shoulders tightly, trying to ground yourself to reality instead of losing yourself to the moment too fast.
Your mind and body had two different ideas though. Because your hips jerked slightly against Jay’s, his lips pausing his work on your neck.
A soft chuckle escaped him as his breath hit your skin lightly, “Eager aren’t we?”
He reciprocated lightheartedly, your breath hitching when his hips lifted up to meet yours for a split second.
You grumbled softly, clearly desperate for him, “Tease.”
He laughed, “Just say you want me that bad princess. I’ll give you what you want.”
You huffed, stubborn as you rolled your hips against his, earning soft groans from both of you.
“No.”
He shook his head, matching your pace and lifting his own hips to grind his clothed erection against your concealed core.
“Two can play that game princess,” he rasped out, both sets of breathing growing shallow as the grinding continued, sending pleasure straight down both your spines.
You purposely grinded a bit harder against the hard and obvious bulge in Jay’s slacks, resulting in him squeezing your hips as he let out a strained grunt.
His eyes snapped up to yours, blazing with desperation and need. His voice hoarse as he asked, “Can I?”
You nodded, lifting your hips slightly as he hastily unbuckled his belt, you doing the same so he can access your skirt better. He unzipped his slacks, tugging them down a bit on his thighs along with his boxers.
His thick cock sprung out and your mouth went dry at the sight. Long and leaky at the tip, with obvious veins pulsing on either side of it, Jay didn’t hesitate to rub himself lightly against your thigh while hiking up your skirt.
He groaned softly at the sight of your black lace panties, soaked with your arousal and clinging to your folds enticingly. You finally snapped out of your supposed trance at the sight of his cock and straightened up, prying his hands away from your panties.
Eager to take control, you shot him a glare and he just smiled while rolling his eyes. He gripped your thighs instead as you reached down tugging your panties aside exposing your bare pussy to his gaze before immediately sinking down on his cock. The stretch was painful, burning your walls as you took him in but you couldn’t care less. You were determined to prove you can handle him.
Jay let out a strangled moan, his head falling against the back of the couch, feeling how tightly you were squeezing him. His hands traveled up to grip your hips, thumbs subconsciously grazing against the fabric of your skirt while waiting for you to adjust to him.
He breathed out voice laced with concern, “God you’re so impatient princess. You doing okay?”
You nodded with a quiet whimper, fingers gripping his shirt tightly as your body finally relaxed and adjusted - letting him in completely and damn was he deep like this.
You rolled your hips lightly against his, a quiet gasp spilling past your lips at the friction and Jay took the cue, his own body responding.
The two of you set a slow and pleasurable pace together, bodies falling into sync. The sensational feeling made your eyes flutter shut as you began to moan and whimper - unable to hold back the way you felt, Jay’s own groans mingling with your sinful sounds.
His hands were steady on your hips sliding down to your ass, lightly guiding your body as you both moved. He thrusted up a bit harder than intended to meet your movements, resulting in a breathy whine of his name to leave your mouth.
Pleased, he picked up the pace, thrusting up into you as you began to bounce on his cock following him. You threw your head back - moaning and crying out in pure bliss while Jay’s hands snaked up, squeezing and massaging your breasts lightly over your top.
You were losing control of yourself and he felt it, your movements growing shallow against his quickened pace. He gripped your waist tightly and flipped you over easily, sprawled out on the couch as Jay began to pound into you from above, spreading your legs wider.
“Making you feel so good aren’t I?”
You were a moaning mess, unable to respond as he chuckled lightly between his own groans, “Still hate me princess?”
You whined out, nodding your head even though you both knew it was anything but, especially with the way he was fucking you so good.
Your eyes rolled back, body tensing up, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoing in the back room along with your sweet cries and the breathiest whimpers that Jay only wanted to hear for the rest of his life.
“Close?” He rasped out with a smirk, as he shifted slightly - angling himself deeper into you, making you moan his name loudly.
You nodded, blindly holding on to his back, fingers gripping his shirt for dear life as you felt something in your stomach contract.
“J-Jay-” you tried to speak as your voice broke into a desperate moan right after.
“Mm?” He responded sweetly, eyes roving over how wrecked you looked like this as he thrusted up hard into you, hitting that sweet spot that made you see stars.
“It’s okay princess I got you, come on,” he coaxed softly, fingers reaching down to rub your clit which only overstimulated you further.
“F-fuck too much-” you didn’t get to finish as you came hard around him, screaming his name. Walls clamping down on his cock, squeezing him so tightly, you heard him moan with his own body tensing up. Your back arched off the cushions as your orgasm ripped through you.
Jay followed right after, shooting thick ropes of his release into you, both your bodies shuddering. Helping to ride through your highs together.
You lay there, dazed as you slowly recovered from your intense orgasm. Panting heavily as you remained sprawled out on the couch - clothes a mess on your body, eyes closed and swollen lips parted as you took deep breaths. He took in how amazing you looked wasted like this as he pulled out, watching your mixed releases dripping sloppily out of your spent hole with pure satisfaction.
Jay - being careful not to put too much weight on you, then slumped against your body. He rested his head lightly against your chest, listening to the rapid pace of your heartbeat.
He managed out while snuggling close to you, “Partners for life?”
You rolled your eyes, laughing breathlessly, “Oh shut up.”
He laughed heartily in response, arms snaking tightly around your body - clearing not wanting to let go.
And as your fingers subconsciously found his messy hair - stroking the soft locks thoughtfully, you realized that wasn’t such a bad idea.
“You’re paranoid” - Party Monster, The Weeknd
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STARBOY
Trope: Golden Boy With A Dark Side
Pairing: spy!heeseung x spy!female reader
Synopsis: Deemed AISA’s Golden Boy - the most talented secret agent known within the organization for his charismatic nature, intellectual skills and of course his effortless attractiveness, no one would’ve ever suspected Lee Heeseung was harboring a dark secret under his skin. It’s only when his past catches up to him - threatening to ruin his life and tarnish his reputation within the agency, that he is forced to seek help and team up with the one person he’s been avoiding the most the entire time - you.
Warnings: inappropriate language (cursing), explicit mature content - smut (MDNI), oral sex (female receiving), sexual intercourse, unprotected sex (please don’t), cream pie, multiple orgasms, breeding kink, violence, death, in-depth discussions of murder and Heeseung is lowkey manipulative
Mishi’s Thoughts: I actually managed to finish this earlier than I expected (mainly because my finals were postponed, thank God). But it’s finally here! My first fic! And I do genuinely hope everyone can enjoy reading Starboy! A lot of time skips and it’s mostly in Heeseung’s perspective for the sake of the plot. I feel like it’s a bit ass and it could be better, however I am probably overthinking things and yes, it’s pretty long. I feel like it could’ve been longer too, yet I can barely keep track of how I managed to get this fic to the amount it has right now. Please don’t hesitate to interact and let me know how you feel! Likes, comments and reblogs are extremely appreciated! Constructive criticism is valued as well so I can improve my writing! I proofread countless times but it’s possible I might miss some things. Also don’t forget this fic has no affiliation in any way to the person I’m writing about. Treat my work as purely fictional please! I’ll be releasing Jay’s fic soon after this one so if you guys want to be tagged please please please let me know and I’ll be so happy to add you. Thank you so much for reading and I hope you all love it!
Loud cheers and applause bounced around the walls of AISA’s lounge room when Heeseung entered with the rest of his friend group. Clearly the news of his seamless success regarding his latest mission has already reached the ears of his fellow colleagues.
However, as the young man’s bambi eyes - calm and pleased at the moment scanned the lounge, he froze upon meeting a pair of younger somewhat unfamiliar pretty dark eyes.
Wait.
It felt like his heart had dropped to his stomach - he’d seen those eyes before, years ago when it happened.
Before he could properly react however, Jungwon nudged him. The younger boy’s wide boba-like cat eyes gazed intently at Heeseung - studying his reaction.
“You okay hyung?” Jungwon’s voice mumbled softly with concern as he and Heeseung subconsciously followed the rest of the group towards their usual spot - a cozy resting area in the lounge with bean bags, vending machines and comfy couches.
Heeseung nodded distractedly and silently averted his gaze from the young woman sitting across the lounge with a group of her own friends. She was beautiful, sure, but that wasn’t the only reason why she was on his mind. Asking Jungwon almost thoughtfully, knowing the younger boy caught where his gaze once was, “You know that girl?”
Jungwon cast a curious glance in her direction and nodded, responding casually, “Somewhat. All I know is her name is Y/N. Kang Y/N. I heard she’s pretty talented too. Transferred into AISA at the request of her parents or something like that.”
Jake, who was sprawled casually on a bean bag near Jungwon, apparently heard their conversation and pitched in while nonchalantly biting on a plastic straw, “Beomgyu told me she’s apparently from a mafia family. But I mean realistically speaking there’s no way a government agency would hire a person like her now would they?”
He paused, nibbling on his straw as he glanced at Y/N in the distance, Riki grimacing at his best friend and shoving him. Making the guys snicker as the youngest boy plopped down heavily beside Jake on purpose - nearly sending him flying off the bean bag.
Sunoo - always one ready for gossip, chimed in lightly as he sipped on a soda from the vending machine, “I think it’s true. I mean we all know about the Kang mafia family right? It’s highly possible she’s connected to them. They probably just had connections with the director and paid a shit ton of money or something.”
“Besides I heard Danielle, who’s apparently her best friend here now, was ranting on about how gifted she is. And about how it’s been her dream to work here since she was kid. So it’s only natural for her doting parents to bribe her in.”
He shot a knowing glance at Heeseung while adding. “She’s almost on Heeseung hyung’s level from what I heard.”
Sunghoon barked out a disbelieving laugh at that while Jay nearly spat out the water he was drinking. Sunoo shot them both pointed glares. “I’m not lying, I’ve even heard the trainees talk about her with awe. Why do you think she’s an official agent so quickly? She barely trained.”
“Or more like she just paid a lot of money to skip proper training,” Sunghoon mumbled under his breath.
Jay shot Heeseung a grin, joking in a mocking tone, “Looks like somebody’s got competition.” Earning a mumbled “Shut up” from a disgruntled Heeseung and hearty chuckles from the guys.
Riki glanced at the oldest as he also teased with a wide smirk on his lips, “Didn’t think that was Heeseung hyung’s type,” - gaining widespread laughter from amongst the others.
Heeseung didn’t respond to any of them, clearly lost in thought. Instead, listening to the rest of their conversation without inputting anything.
His eyes - now darker and silent, drifted occasionally towards the woman in the distance who was laughing and chatting amiably with her friends.
Completely unaware of the burning tension welling up inside Lee Heeseung.
Time flew as Heeseung began to spend majority of his free time locked in his study. The room was situated in the sprawling penthouse he resided in and typically locked whenever his friends visited to hang out. No one except him knew what was inside and as of lately, he’s been spending more and more of his time within that room - calculating his first move.
Since seeing you that day in the lounge, Heeseung couldn’t get you off his mind. It was difficult really. What with the fact that your family was responsible for the termination of his. Though an unwilling part deep within him viewed you as some gorgeous angel who he can’t shake his head of. Your growing popularity within AISA wasn’t helping either, which was bad. His revenge plan wasn’t supposed to end up taking you and your safety into consideration and frankly speaking he didn’t know what to do about that.
He sat there sprawled on the desk chair centered in his dimly-lit study - wrinkled white shirt half-unbuttoned and black slacks covering his spread legs. His chin was propped on his arm as he gazed intently at the large corkboard ahead of him littered with photos, clippings of newspaper articles and string connecting everything. Lots of red string.
Could it be a sign? If his friends were around he would’ve gloated by now on how creative his evidence board was. It was a thing amongst them to make one for each important mission they worked on. However, they didn’t know about Heeseung’s past. And this wasn’t their battle to fight regardless.
Heeseung wanted the personal satisfaction of terminating the Kangs on his own.
His dark eyes were fixated intently on a photo in the center - the prestigious Kang family. Though he couldn’t help but stare silently at your smiling face for what felt like an eternity.
Before he could stop himself, his mind traveled back to the past - old, painful memories that he’d spent years trying to bury but to no avail.
The trauma was always present - lingering like an incurable disease he couldn’t rid himself of.
It felt as if it were yesterday - when his parents were unsuspectingly ambushed and kidnapped by your father’s masked men, including himself and his older brother. His father tried his best to protect his family, yet it couldn’t be helped. Their reinforced security teams couldn’t stop the men in time.
Not when the Kangs found the Lees to be their greatest competitor and were hell-bent on crushing them.
Heeseung’s dark bambi eyes grew glassy as he recalled the way his parents pleaded for Kang to at least let their children go - to let him and his brother go. The way they all screamed out in agony as they were tortured brutally before being killed one by one.
He tried his best to push the thoughts away as they continued to flash through his mind. His brother who was killed first, then his mother and finally his father. Each and every single one of the people he cared about the most died at the hands of your father. And he had to witness everything as a young child - barely the age of 7.
And Kang’s wicked face. Contorted with pure malice as he committed each murder himself. A sight that always burned like angry flames in the back of Heeseung’s mind. How could he ever forget? No matter how much he tried to get over it, it felt as if the memories were stitched into his brain.
He was next. ‘Saved the best for last’ as Kang claimed.
The snobbish man started some ridiculous monologue. And Heeseung was forced to listen. Body burning from pain and his head spinning as he grew weaker and weaker. He just wanted the agony to end - blank eyes staring at his family’s dead bodies as he faintly caught your father’s words about a daughter the man had around his age and how pitiful it was that a young boy like himself was reduced to such a state as compared to her.
As if by fate or just pure coincidence, Heeseung recalled the sleepy little voice ringing out moments later, as a little girl appeared at the end of the staircase. You were half-asleep and too tired to notice anything but your father and Kang’s men hastily blocked the sight of the bodies lying motionless on the blood-soaked ground.
Heeseung remembered how he viewed you as a sight for sore eyes. Adorable and bursting with innocence. You didn’t really seem to care about anyone but your father and barely caught a glimpse of him as you were scooped into the older man’s arms and carried away.
Kang’s men let you go later that night. Heeseung never questioned why but you knew Kang was responsible for the order.
Maybe he wanted Heeseung to remain traumatized for life? Or he had plans to properly kill him after putting him through silent suffering for years before eliminating him?
He could never be sure.
And Heeseung could never forget that innocent little girl standing on the edge of the basement staircase all those years ago.
As if the Kangs were somehow keeping tabs on him the entire time, though Heeseung really couldn’t be certain - the threats began.
First, it started with weird texts and constant phone calls. Both of which Heeseung never answered. He wasn’t stupid - he knew exactly what was going on. He’s a spy after all. And quite frankly, he couldn’t care less.
He couldn’t fathom how these ridiculous people even managed to kill his family to this day. He had a good feeling it wouldn’t be difficult to finally get his hands on revenge.
One afternoon, his phone was vibrating constantly beside him as he sat in the lounge with Jay, who had some free time as well. He was poring over some reports from a few missions he’d completed in the past. Really just as a way to evolve his strategies for future tasks. Maybe even his revenge plan, but Jay didn’t need to know that though.
Jay - annoyed by the vibrations of the phone, let out an exasperated sigh and put his magazine down, “You answering that or what hyung? Seems important.”
Heeseung finally snapped out of his train of thought and glanced at Jay. Smiling sheepishly, he played it off and adjusted the settings on his phone to silent mode instead - not even glancing too long at the endless texts building up on his notification bar and the multiple missed calls from unknown numbers.
“Sorry man. Obsessed fans you know?”
Jay just laughed and went back to what was he doing while shaking his head.
When the digital way didn’t work, the Kangs resorted to physical threats. But Heeseung was already anticipating this and in turn, their efforts were futile.
It started off with threats delivered to his office at the agency. Almost risking exposure to his past.
Riki entered his office one morning with a sealed envelope, casually speaking to Heeseung.
“Yo hyung, you got mail.”
Ever the nosy one, he added casually, “That’s strange. It has no address. Need me to open it for you?”
Before Riki could even think to rip the seal, Heeseung snatched the envelope - surprising the younger boy and tossed it into the small paper bin near his desk.
Trying to brush it off, he responded casually, “It’s fan mail I’d suggest you don’t open it unless you want glitter all over you or something. These trainees are getting unbearably creative now.”
Riki accepted the response and chuckled, overcoming his shock. Heeseung’s popularity especially amongst the new female trainees within AISA wasn’t a surprise either way. Naturally, the guy ignored them but everyone knew how persistent they could get.
Good thing they were around to give Heeseung proper excuses.
When Riki left, Heeseung retrieved the envelope from amongst all the discarded paper in the bin and opened it, frowning at the contents of the envelope. It was a recent photograph of himself taken when he was out on a walk one evening with a bright red X on the blurry picture.
Heeseung rolled his eyes. Is this the best they could do?
All the other small signs of their presence surrounding him? He ignored them. All the shadowy men he knew were stalking him wherever he went? He pretended they never existed.
He was trained to always keep a vigilant stance and these men knew better than to provoke him. They’d never see the light of day again.
And the thing that finally pissed him off and made him decide he was ready to start fighting back?
When he came back home one day and found his penthouse absolutely ransacked. He didn’t care about anything but his study. The door was busted open and all his files and reports ripped apart. Some important ones about confidential information he’d dug up on the Kangs even stolen. His evidence board slashed through with a knife by the apparent gash on it.
Heeseung was pissed as hell that was sure.
He ran a hand through his hair, gazing around at the scene before him as he breathed out, “Fuck.”
The first thing he thought about as he took in the scene was that same time when he stumbled all the way back home all alone from the Kangs. After he was released.
The house was abandoned - the servants and bodyguards most likely had fled after realizing what happened to the Lees. He remembered what his father had taught him in the case that he was ever badly injured. Reaching for the only first aid kit he could find in his weakened state and administering what he learnt.
He remembered lying in his parents’ en-suite bathroom taking shallow and labored breaths, leaning against the edge of the bathtub. The evidence of his trauma beginning to weigh heavily on him, yet couldn’t even cry. Too numb at the moment to feel much.
The next day, he had fallen asleep in the same bathroom until he awoke to hurried mumbling and soft cackles. When he cautiously peered out from a crack by the door, he could see an unfamiliar woman. Though by your resemblance to her, he could now assume she was Mrs. Kang. The woman was taking whatever she could find for herself that belonged to his mother. Other people, supposedly Kang’s men, apparently circling the rooms of the manor and taking whatever they deemed as valuable.
From her favorite jewelry his father had gifted her - to family heirlooms and vintage desinger clothing she had adored collecting. Heeseung still remembered the immense rage he felt as he secretly watched the obnoxious woman prance around and take whatever she wanted like nothing was wrong.
Carelessly tossing away the things she didn’t want all over the floor in a messy state. He was too weak and still too young to act though and he was certain they ruined the other rooms too just like her.
So instead, he had to sit and watch the scene unfold with silent, angry tears streaming down his bloodied cheeks.
He pulled himself back to the present again, feeling that familiar rage burning within him once more.
It was time for a new plan.
One that included you this time.
You had a rather lazy day at work today. After finishing up on the report regarding your latest mission, you decided to take a walk as your friends were all busy currently.
Heels clicking as you calmly strode down the hallway leading to the lounge, you suddenly felt yourself being pulled into one of the storage closets leading off the corridor. Startled, you let out a soft yelp, only for a warm hand to clap quickly over your mouth. Your eyes went wide as you stared up at your supposed captor, heart quickening for other reasons than fear once you realized it was none other than Lee Heeseung. The renowned, hot agent of AISA. And the thing is, you’ve never even spoken to him before.
So why was he here now? Pulling you into a closet as if you both were acquainted or something? Your mind began to spiral with multiple thoughts.
You paid no attention to the boxes of case files and broken technology scattered along the shelves of the dusty closet. The dim light of the afternoon sun coming in from a window allowed you to take in his taller, handsome frame. Once he figured you wouldn’t scream, he took a step back, shoving his hands into the pockets of his slacks.
You raised your eyebrows - a silent question as to what he wanted. He caught it instantly, his eyes growing darker while unconsciously roving your body in the tight buttoned shirt and short skirt you were wearing today.
“I need you to do something for me,” he spoke bluntly.
You stared at him for a solid minute, mind reeling at his nerve before responding, “We’ve never even actually met or spoke to each other. I don’t owe you any favors.”
He nodded concededly - his gaze never leaving your figure still, before stepping closer once more. His arms braced against the wall on either side of you as he gazed down. He wordlessly took in the way your body tensed just slightly even as you tried to maintain a composed expression. And after what felt like forever, he leaned down - sharp nose brushing against your cheek as warm breath hit your skin, his voice dropping to a velvety murmur, “I think you’ll help me nonetheless, won’t you?”
You didn’t respond. Mainly because you didn’t know how to. It was as if your mind had short-circuited and your body left you in an embarrassing mess in front of him instead just to mock you. Your breathing had grown shaky, your heart rate had picked up and you were faintly aware of the fact that Heeseung definitely knew what he was doing to you. His voice echoing in your head.
You felt your stomach churn when his teeth gently nipped at your jaw - repeating himself in a firm, hoarse whisper to get you to answer.
“Won’t you Y/N?”
Your body answered before you could stop it. Trembling with sensitivity as shivers ran down your spine. You eventually nodded, a faint, breathy sigh leaving your lips subconsciously as his traveled further down to kiss the skin of your neck.
“Mhm-”
A soft chuckle left his lips, making your knees buckle slightly. His mouth leaving your neck as his forehead rested against yours momentarily - his breath mingling with yours now. Dazed, you parted your lips just slightly, making him laugh lightly again.
“Not yet. I’ll give you what you want when you do what you have to for me okay?”
You could only nod once more, barely thinking straight at the moment. Your eyes were transfixed on his soft pink lips while your mind raced when you realized how pouty and irresistible they looked on a man like him up close.
“Good girl. I need you to leave your bedroom window open for me tonight.”
He added without much thought to it, “I want to show you something.”
He didn’t wait for you to respond this time, knowing damn well you were going to comply and fulfill his request. He let his lips brush yours for a split second - sending sparks through both of you, before disappearing out of the closet.
Leaving you a complete wreck.
It was already close to midnight as you remained awake in the otherwise silent manor of the grand Kang estate. You were in your bedroom - your personal space that always gave you the comfort you needed, waiting impatiently for Heeseung.
You hugged your knees to your chest - gazing thoughtfully at the ceiling to floor bedroom windows with its pale pink curtains pulled aside. The open windows allowed a cool and gentle breeze to seep through, sending goosebumps along your exposed skin.
Your mind replayed the intense moment you and Heeseung shared earlier that day. And you hated yourself for the way you reacted to a man you barely even knew.
When you finally saw black, gloved hands sliding the window open and a figure dressed to resemble the night slipping through - you immediately sat up. Your eyes gazed intently at Heeseung, your stomach twisting just slightly as you took in how his fitted attire accentuated his toned frame.
Neither of you spoke for a long moment - the tension crackling like static in the air between you two. When he finally closed the window and approached your bedside, you nodded your head at the empty spot beside you, signaling him to have a seat as he got comfortable and peeled off his tactical ski mask.
Only then did you notice a bulky black backpack sitting on your crumpled sheets beside him, and you gazed curiously.
Your voice intrigued as you asked, “You wanted to show me something?”
Heeseung didn’t answer you. It was only when you glanced back at him did you realize where his gaze was. Your cheeks flushed slightly once you took in the way he was eyeing you shamelessly.
From the lace of your thin-strapped black cami top all the way down to the tiny silk shorts you had on. When his eyes snapped up to meet yours - the reaction was instant. Your breath hitched as you held eye contact with him, clearly seeing that now familiar pool of darkness swirling within. The same gaze you noticed back in the closet earlier today.
He clenched his fists at his sides for a moment, seemingly trying to restrain himself. Before instead, unzipping and reaching into his backpack, pulling out a few photos and files from within and tossing them over to you. Still not saying a word, but signaling you to read and go through them nonetheless.
You flicked through the files first wordlessly - when your heart tightened in your chest. Kang Dae-ho and Chung Seo-jin. Your parents. Listed within these files on multiple occasions along with in-depth details on the way they tortured and eliminated one of the most powerful and important families within the country at the time. Leading to their downfall.
It was talked about amongst people for years and even more so now as no one really knew what happened to them.
You tried to wrap your head around all of this. You knew your parents were violent - that’s not a surprise to you. What’s shocking is that you immediately recognized the family in the photos - memories resurfacing in your mind at the sight of a bright little boy. You couldn’t believe it. You made the connection easily. The audacity of your family to do any of the horrid things mentioned within this. And to Lee Heeseung’s family of all people?
“Why did they do it?” You managed to choke out a hoarse question.
Heeseung finally stopped staring at you and let out a heavy sigh, looking away from you. He didn’t answer at first, waiting for the initial shock and guilt you probably felt to ease somewhat.
“They wanted to be the best, I guess,” he responded simply, though the words cut something deep within him.
You frowned deeply. “Best at what? Being mafias? That’s stupid and I’m sure your parents weren’t a threat to them.”
“That doesn’t matter. Your parents are thirsty for blood and greedy for immense power, Y/N. They have been for longer than you think.” Heeseung’s calm voice grew slightly cold at the mention of how covetous your parents were.
“So why are you showing me this in the first place? I doubt I could do much.”
He let out a sharp laugh, shaking his head. You were gazing intently at the tattered Lee family photo in your hands.
“Isn’t it obvious? I want revenge.”
You snapped your head up to him, your eyes narrowing slightly at the way he said it so carelessly.
“And so what? You’re going to try and kill all of us?” You scoffed lightly and rambled on.
“This family cannot be targeted that easily Heeseung and you of all people should know that you’ll only get yourself killed-”
He cut you off before you could continue, his response making you stare at him with shock.
“The only people being killed here are your parents.” He added slyly, “And mark my words, you Y/N, will help me.”
Your jaw dropped as you gaped at him. Did he really expect you to just turn against your family and hurt them?
Even the thought of it sounded outrageous.
Fuming, you snapped back evenly, “I will do no such thing. I’m sorry for your loss but I will never help you carry out such vile shit. So get out of my room. Now.”
Heeseung tilted his head slightly, intrigued that you were defying him, especially with the way you acted in the storage closet beforehand.
He knew it would’ve only been a miracle for you to agree in the first place, but he needed to see your reaction just for the pleasure of it. A knowing smile played on his mouth and it only pissed you off further. He packed up the files and photos to leave while laughing darkly to himself and before he slipped out of the window he corrected - so calmly you almost regretted the way you spoke to him.
“Worth a shot. And it’s losses sweetheart. Plural.”
Heeseung sat in his study once more, contemplating the events of the past few days. (He definitely didn’t crash out trying to fix everything in his residence back to place.)
You on the other hand, have been ignoring him at AISA and he expected that obviously. Well you were more like refusing to even look at him, as if he wasn’t there at all. Not like he spoke to you either way. The only reason he even tried to pitch the idea for you to help him was because your parents were still bothering him and he wanted to act fast somehow.
The memories resurfaced and replayed in his mind like a tape record on loop. The way his parents were tormented right in front of his young eyes by Kang.
From the harsh punches and bleeding cuts by sharp inhumane objects slit into their skin - even to the brutal attempts of electrocution as they were strapped to chairs. Their bodies jolting and burning as static crackled around them.
His brother was a few years older than him, yet the teenage boy was stabbed multiple times to death - a cruel sight that he and his parents were forced to watch as he screamed and bled out to death.
He remembered his mother was led away - his father fighting against his restraints to protect her, as if he knew something extremely bad was going to happen. Heeseung never wanted to think about what occurred when multiple of the men carried her away to some other sealed-off room for a few hours, returning with her appearing empty and dead in expression before she was choked to death.
His father was the last to die before him and Heeseung was never sure why it ended up that way. Kang putting a bullet straight through his father’s skull, killing him instantly.
While he, a bruised and battered little boy - in immense pain and could barely keep his teary eyes open was forced to watch everything.
He wished he had died that night with them.
Every single day since then, he lived in silent agony as he planned to avenge their names and their deaths.
The recollection of all their screams echoed once more in his ears as if he was transported back to that night. Heeseung forced himself to snap out of his thoughts when the image of your face suddenly swam into his mind.
He twirled his pocket knife he held between his fingers as he thoughtfully gazed at his newly re-made evidence board. Pinned in the center directly over the photo of your family was a note scrawled in blood.
Heeseung didn’t care to know whose it was as it read, ‘’Leave your memories behind. They’re not yours anymore.”
The piece of paper was crumpled in front of his door when he found it one morning, days before he spoke to you. It was safe to say he was extremely fed up of the Kangs’ behavior now - thus leading to him acting irrationally regarding you. He doesn’t regret it that much though.
Using spyware he had acquired from the agency, he’d been secretly keeping tabs on you at the estate and was extremely pleased at how jittery and confused you appeared to be. You weren’t acting like yourself and the thought as to how much his intel affected you delighted him.
He’d catch you while staring at his computer screen every night - pacing in your bedroom every few hours or sitting on your bed zoned out. It was adorable to him really. The way he had gotten into your head. He didn’t expect a supposedly ‘tough’ agent like yourself to crumble at something that was normalized within your family.
They were mafias for God’s sake. Once he even thought you’d go so far as to confront your parents about everything. But you seemed to adore them unfortunately. It was disgusting in his eyes. The way you can love people blindly like that. Yet for some reason, he couldn’t ignore the strange feeling always bubbling up in his chest at the thought and sight of you - no matter how much he tried to fight it.
He shook his head, snapping out of his thoughts and let out a soft scoff to himself muttering sarcastically under his breath as a sudden wicked idea seeped into his mind, “Some agent.”
If you asked him, he found you to be a rather pathetic spy. You weren’t that tough or impassive as he’d thought you out to be. People in the agency were just glazing you because you were pretty and from a renowned family he’s sure.
Or was it just his effect that had you personally melting?
Thinking about this, Heeseung brewed up a brilliant change of plans in his mind. He knew exactly how to get to your parents - and you were going to initiate ‘Phase 1’ for him first.
He was certain of it.
You had just taken a hot shower for the evening, steam crawling out of the adjoining en-suite of your bedroom when you stepped out. You walked calmly towards your vanity dresser, glancing at yourself in the mirror as you were about to take a seat - dressed in a short thin strapped slip black nightgown with your hair tied up into its usual messy bun during the evenings, loose strands framing your face. It’s only when you noticed the figure lounging casually on your bed behind you did you flinch - clapping a hand to your mouth as you let out a startled scream that came out softer than intended when you recognizing the person.
You hastily rose to your feet while whirling around. And you demanded, anger beginning to rise up within you, “What are you doing here?”
Heeseung didn’t answer for a moment, a small smirk playing on his lips as he eyed you with that typical dark gaze of his. He wasn’t in his tactical spy gear like last time, instead he was dressed as if he was allowed to be here. Wearing a hoodie and sweatpants and sprawled comfortably on your bed as if he owned the place. Leaning back against the headboard, arms folded behind his head and long legs kicked out on your sheets.
“I wanted to see you,” he responded calmly. His tone infuriated you further.
“For what? I told you I’m not helping you.” You crossed your arms.
“It’s not that. I didn’t come because of my desire for revenge.” He paused, his dark eyes flickering up from your body to meet yours earnestly and they softened into that usual bambi gaze of his that could always capture hearts.
“I came for you.”
That made your serious expression falter, the fury beginning to quell within you - though you weren’t exactly sure why. You cleared your throat, looking away, trying to keep up the tough facade, “You expect me to believe that?”
He nodded as if the answer was obvious.
“Come here for a second.”
You didn’t move, gaining a soft exhale and a desperate plea from him.
“Please Y/N.”
After hesitating for a second, you stepped closer until you reached the edge of your bed. Before you could react, his arms reached out - pulling you on to the sheets and moving to quickly hover over where you lay.
You were so surprised that you couldn’t even think to move or fight him off. And deep down, you didn’t want to admit it but you were liking the way things were going.
He gazed deep into your eyes once more and spoke - his deep voice dropping to a soft, sincere murmur now, “I came to apologize to you. It was insensitive of me to think you could help me do something so low and cruel to the people you love.”
You listened silently - your eyes searching his. And he took it as a signal to keep going.
“It’s just- I’ve been so caught up with my intent on revenge. And I failed to realize I should’ve been focused on what was right in front of me the entire time - you.” He breathed out slowly as if debating on saying his next words.
“I’m sorry for everything. For how ignorant and cold I’ve been to you and for how I disrespected you. I’ve been trying to bury my feelings regarding you for months since I saw you at AISA and try to use the hatred I had within me against you. When the reality is that you didn’t even do anything wrong.” He shifted slightly, his hands finding their way on either side of your head as he continued.
“Can I ask you something?” He waited patiently for a response and when you nodded, he proceeded.
“Do you remember me? From when it happened all those years ago? I don’t think you realized what was going on but-”, he let out a quiet exhale, almost a laugh. “I was right there and you were so cute and innocent, happy despite everything going on and-”
You cut him off before he could finish. Wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him in for a firm kiss.
Heeseung didn’t expect that - his eyes growing wide for a moment. Until he squeezed them shut and reciprocated, kissing you deeply, his hands moving down to grip your hips tightly.
You both made out passionately until neither of you could breathe much longer. Heeseung breaking the kiss as soft panting echoed around the otherwise peaceful bedroom - his eyes searching yours deeply with a silent, burning question in them. Noticing his gaze, you nodded immediately and he didn’t hesitate to lean down, trailing soft kisses from your jaw and traveling even lower.
Your breathing grew uneven, fingers moving to tangle in his soft thick dark locks of hair as his lips kissed and sucked the soft skin along the slope of your neck.
You smelled divine to him - like vanilla and lavender combined into a faint heady scent.
A soft gasp escaped your lips as you felt him kiss along your collarbone - one of his hands reaching up to tug a strap of your nightgown off your shoulder. Your own hands shifted from his hair - snaking under his hoodie when his free hand played with the hem of your nightgown, sending a spark through you.
Heeseung lifted his head, his eyes searching yours once more as he spoke this time asking with a gentle, gravelly voice, “You okay?”
You nodded - breathless as you gazed up at him. He looked like a vision to you. Messed-up hair and hoodie lifted up just slightly from your touch to expose the faint ridges of his abs running along his stomach, the sight tempting you to pull the fabric off of him - to which he obliged.
Your breath hitched as you stared up at him, your eyes tracing the lines of his toned torso - acquired from years of training and missions with AISA. Your hands subconsciously roamed his body and you could’ve sworn you heard a soft moan from under his breath.
Heeseung hovered over you again, his hands on the hem of your nightgown as he asked almost urgently, “Can I?”
“Mhm,” you nodded once more.
He didn’t hesitate to tug the nightgown off of you, his body sliding back to sit on his knees as he breathed out a quick curse, his eyes scanning your half-naked body with awe - eyeing from your chest all the way down to the red lace panties you were wearing intently, “Oh fuck.”
He leaned down and captured your lips in a rough kiss. Need overriding his system as his tongue prodded at the seam of your lips. His warm hands sent shivers down your spine as they slid down from your neck to your chest - squeezing the soft and supple mounds of your breasts, eliciting a sweet moan from you as your lips parted, allowing his tongue to dive greedily into the caverns of your mouth.
Heeseung’s thumbs pinched lightly at your hardening nipples - the sensitivity making your back arch slightly as you whimpered into his mouth, tongue tangling with his. He smiled into the kiss continuing to provide ample attention to your chest as he squeezed and caressed your breasts, enjoying the way they felt.
He broke the kiss, his forehead resting against yours as you both breathed heavily. His eyes dropping down to watch the way he was touching your chest, murmuring in a husky tone that made fireworks erupt in your stomach.
“Fuck your tits look so perfect in my hands baby.”
That earned a breathy moan from you, your eyes fluttering shut and your thighs squeezing together as he took in your reaction eagerly. He kept going, riling you up further.
“You like that? Hm? You like it when I call you baby?”
You only blindly nodded. Losing yourself to the pleasure - whining when he pulled his hands away from your chest to slide them along your stomach instead. His voice was a seductive whisper against your ear as he leaned closer.
“C’mon Y/N you can do better than that can’t you? Answer me when I’m talking to you.”
Your eyes were half-lidded as you gazed up at him with that annoying smirk plastered on his face. Of course he just to be gorgeous and infuriating at the same time.
And you finally managed to whimper out, legs spreading eagerly at his guidance, “Yeah.”
“Good girl. You want me to keep going? You sure?” He asked with a mock-innocent tilt of his head and a teasing smile on his lips.
You nodded, whining desperately, “Mhm. Please.”
He didn’t need to be told twice. The next thing you knew Heeseung was between your legs - head buried against your thighs as he licked a hot stripe along your soaked panties with his tongue, making your back arch off the bed and your body jolt with pleasure - a startled moan slipping from your throat.
He inhaled sharply at the scent of your arousal, a pleased smile on his lips, “This wet for me already? I haven’t even done much baby.”
You didn’t respond - only fisting his hair and shoving his face back against your panties, earning a muffled laugh from him. He nudged the red lace with his nose for a moment before grabbing the waistband with his fingers, pulling away slightly to tug them down your legs and off of you entirely. He took an intent look at your body - the glistening folds of your pussy completely naked to his eyes, enticing him, before he dove back in.
The moment his mouth landed on your bare, sensitive area, your hips jerked up against his face before you could help yourself. Moaning loudly, your fingers pulled at his hair - keeping him closer as his warm hands firmly held your hips down to keep you from squirming too much.
His tongue and teeth were merciless - lips pressing against your folds as his tongue delved in towards your entrance along with his teeth nipping lightly at your clit.
The sensational feeling sent butterflies erupting within your body as it trembled - all while your breathy gasps and sweet, needy whimpers echoed around the bedroom from the way he was satisfying you.
It didn’t take long for your orgasm to approach. You felt it before you knew it - a knot tightening in your stomach. Heeseung noticed it too from the way your body tensed up against him - your hips subconsciously grinding against his face to seek further pleasure while chasing that release.
He squeezed your thighs as a signal and continued to tongue-fuck your walls ruthlessly, your fingers pulling sharply at his hair - earning you a few muffled groans against your pussy. The feeling making your mind go blank.
You came with a shudder, moaning his name with the sweetest and breathiest whimper Heeseung had ever heard. And he gently lapped up your juices while helping you ride through your high - not wanting to overstimulate you too much.
When he pulled away from between your legs and sat up to take a look at you, a proud smirk pulled at his lips seeing the state he left you in from just eating you out.
You were sprawled out beneath him, panting heavily as your chest rose and fell rapidly. Your body eventually sinking into the sheets as you slowly recovered from your high.
Heeseung licked his lips clean, tasting your release on his tongue as he mumbled - leaning down against your ear with a whisper that sent shivers through you from further sensitivity, “Done for the night?”
You slowly shook your head ‘no’, your first orgasm barely satisfying the burning desire still within you for him.
You were greedy.
He let out a breathy laugh, “No? You want more of me baby?”
It didn’t take long for him to kick off his sweatpants and boxers, his long cock - thick and leaky at the tip, flying free and slapping against his stomach from how painfully erect he was. The sight made your eyes grow wide and you could’ve sworn you felt drool at the corner of your mouth.
Heeseung stroked himself for a bit, his eyes never leaving yours. The tension between you both crackled within the air once more - the intensified desperation and desire evident between you both.
“You want this baby? You want me?” His voice was a hoarse whisper, barely restraining himself.
You could only nod, your voice catching in your throat.
The sight of the Lee Heeseung - naked and ready to fuck the living shit out of you made you get even wetter. He laughed to himself at your dazed expression, rubbing his leaky tip against your folds purposely. The action sent sharp spirals of pleasure straight up both your spines and you didn’t even bother to insist he use protection.
You wanted to feel him completely.
Heeseung didn’t really take his time. Pussy still dripping from your first orgasm, he used the remnants of your release as leverage. He bottomed out into you, earning a sharp whine from your mouth. The stretch was unbearable at first given his size, but Heeseung didn’t move just yet, feeling how stiff you were. Waiting for you to adjust to him, he stroked a few damps strands of your hair away from your face due to sweat, as your bun had fallen apart a long while back now. He nuzzled his nose against yours, not minding when your arms found their way around his neck to hold on to him.
“Easy baby I got you. You’ve done this before right? Relax for me, I promise you’ll feel good. It’ll be okay in a few.”
You relaxed after a while - especially when he kissed you to distract you. Your body melted against his and he groaned softly into your mouth, now really feeling how tightly your wet and warm walls were clenching around him.
He broke the kiss, forehead resting against yours, as he began to move slowly at first. Taking his time, he rolled his hips lightly against yours and you moaned out in response - eyes rolling back as you felt every inch of him moving within you.
The pleasure only intensified as the moment grew hotter after a few minutes, with Heeseung picking up the pace steadily. You were a moaning mess - whimpering and crying out, occasionally whining his name when he hit that sweet spot deep in you that made you see stars.
Your nails dug into his back as he pounded into you, waves of ecstasy reverberating through you as you moaned his name breathily - the sound so sweet Heeseung swore he could’ve came at just that.
“Making you feel so fucking good, aren’t I Y/N?”
“Yeah- right there? I know- I know baby,” he spoke between soft grunts as he continued to thrust deeply into you.
He winced slightly at the sting of your nails burning into his skin, though a pleased smirk pulled at his lips knowing he was making you feel amazing.
You couldn’t even speak. Completely lost in the moment. Only able to moan his name over and over amongst the other sinful sounds of your desperate whimpers and shaky gasps.
Your incoherent babbles only encouraged Heeseung to thrust faster into you, his hands spreading your legs wider to look at his cock disappearing into your sopping hole.
“You look gorgeous like this Y/N. So beautiful.”
“God, I want to put a baby in you so bad.”
His warm hands gripped your hips tighter. The dirty thought made you clench tighter around him and he felt it.
“Yeah? You like that? Would you be a good girl and let me? Hm?”
“Wanna knock my pretty girl up so fucking bad. Wanted to since the moment I saw you again.”
You whimpered desperately, fingers pulling at the hair by the nape of his neck.
“Answer me baby c‘mon. You know the rules. You want that? You want me to fill you up?”
“Teach that son of a bitch for your father a good lesson?” he mumbled out, still keeping up his brutal pace into you, between the heavy pants of you both and the sound of the bed creaking.
Both of you were approaching your releases by now and fast too. Your body tensing up again and Heeseung feeling heat pool low in his stomach.
You mumbled out a shaky ‘yeah’, followed by a sharp cry of his name.
That nearly did it for him.
The sound of skin slapping against skin growing loud and obscene as Heeseung reached down, his fingers rubbing at your clit - while still murmuring to you and praising you.
The combination of the sensational feeling and his words made you come instantly, screaming his name as your orgasm ripped through your body - your back arching and your eyes rolling back.
Heeseung took it all in with glee, still moving, knowing he was close too as he helped you ride through your high.
“Good girl. You’re doing so good.”
He let out a quiet moan as he came, shooting thick ropes of his release inside you. His hips jerking and your body shuddering as he rode through his own high before pulling out of you slowly.
Your mixed releases dripped steadily out of you and Heeseung reached down, using his fingers to push any escaping substance right back into your abused hole.
You were a vision tangled amongst the sheets as he gazed down at you. Spent and glowing after your two orgasms - with a small satisfied smile playing on your mouth. You had your eyes closed, your eyebrows furrowed and your swollen lips parted as you panted heavily, trying to recover from your high.
You were so exhausted from the intimate encounter and dozed off shortly afterwards. You didn’t even realize when Heeseung cleaned you both up and tucked you in comfortably under the covers of your bed before lying beside you.
Your body instinctively craved his warmth and shifted closer to him. He allowed you without hesitation, pulling your body against his as he wrapped his toned arms securely around you. He shifted to lay on his back, with you sleeping blissfully on his chest. Curled up into his side, with your breath hitting his neck gently, occasionally tickling his skin.
He gazed up at the ceiling of your bedroom, lost in thought as his absentmindedly stroked your hair.
Phase 1: Complete.
You stirred a few hours later, frowning slightly in your sleepy state when you felt the bed empty next to you. Your eyes snapped open and your twisted your body to look at the time on the digital clock sitting on your bedside table. It was barely 3:10 am, but you could’ve sworn you felt Heeseung’s warmth next to you as you slept.
Your heart dropped when you noticed his clothes were missing as you took a glance at the floor.
Did he leave at some random hour earlier in the night? Maybe he needed a sip of water and decided to get something from the kitchen?
As these thoughts sailed through your head, you suddenly tensed up.
Oh shit.
Your stomach dropped.
He definitely couldn’t be trusted wandering this house alone.
You scrambled off your bed and hastily grabbed your silk robe hanging on your bathroom door, tossing it on carelessly and barely managing to tie it as you slipped out your bedroom. You tiptoed silently through the mansion, not wanting to alert any of the bodyguards most likely keeping an eye on things through the security cameras.
Your parents would kill you if they knew what was happening and you’d be certain the men would report to your father if they detect an unfamiliar man wandering the hallways along with you creeping around. It’ll probably be so obvious you slept with him too.
You wanted to slap yourself.
How could you have been so stupid?
Heeseung was a spy just like you, therefore you had to put yourself in his shoes. Where would he be in a house like this? With your parents as his enemies nonetheless?
When the memory of what he showed you that day resurfaced, your heart started to pound in your chest. You didn’t waste time, picking up speed and bolting straight for your parents’ master suite - the sound of your bare feet against the cold hardwood floor a constant reminder that you might not have been quick enough.
You flung your body against the double doors and it gave easily, already unlocked. The sight that caught your eyes made your body tremble from shock.
Sitting there on the bed, side by side, were your parents.
You were too late.
Their dead eyes were wide as they stared blankly ahead, their empty gaze on the suite entrance - directly at you. The light from their eyes gone as you took in how they were tied to the bed posts with their own fancy satin sheets. The pillowcases stuffed into their mouths as gags. Their arms were bent at unnatural angles that would’ve definitely been uncomfortable and painful when they were still alive.
That wasn’t what brought the tears to your eyes though. They blurred your vision as you stared at the multiple stab wounds along their bodies - as if whoever did this had a personal grudge and took it out on every body part they could find.
Blood soaking the mattress from both their bodies that most likely bled out. They were forced to die slowly and agonizingly, suffering through the pain. You couldn’t even scream - trying your best to convince yourself this was a horrid nightmare.
That was when you noticed the fresh bullet wounds embedded right in the center of both their heads. Blood spattered on the walls behind them and the headboard of the bed. Your father’s gun, which he probably used to try to protect him and his wife, sitting on the floor beside the bed.
You could tell that whoever did this to them shot them for extra measure and pure spite after they bled out.
A choked sob ripped out from the back of your throat as you clapped a hand over your mouth, the other going to clutch the neckline of your robe by your aching heart. You let the tears and grief consume you, ashamed and filled heavily with guilt knowing you were accountable for this.
You let the monster in.
And you felt entirely responsible.
Your knees buckled, preparing yourself to hit the ground as you let out a pained wail. However, a pair of strong arms caught you from behind. You didn’t need to turn around to know who it was. He was probably hiding amongst the shadows of the suite the entire time.
Your body and mind acted on instinct while writhing and trying to pull away from him as you screamed out.
“Get away from me! Let go of me!”
“I fucking hate you, Heeseung!”
“How could you do this to me?! I trusted you!”
“Get off of me!”
Heeseung just held you silently as you screamed and yelled at him. Trying your best to pull away from him but he was stronger and overpowered you easily - crushing your body to his chest.
He couldn’t deny the pang of sympathy he felt hearing your screams and pained sobs until you finally gave up and cried into his chest.
Yet he didn’t regret what he did.
He slowly began to rub your back, his lips pressing soft kisses to to top of your head.
The fucking audacity of this man.
You tried to push him away again but he only held you tighter, almost squeezing you painfully now. This made you cry harder and louder, your wails reaching the bodyguards of the house, now stunned and speechless at the scene before them as they stood by the entrance to the suite.
Your fists held Heeseung’s hoodie tighter, bunching the fabric in your hands so tightly he thought it might tear as your shaking body sank against him.
He didn’t let go of you for a second, still comforting you. He ignored the men standing there rooted to the spot, his focus entirely on you.
Leaning down to whisper against your ear, murmuring underneath the loud echoes of your uncontrollable weeping.
“Shh it’s okay baby I got you. No one is going to hurt you.”
“I’m here. You’ll always have me.”
“And you’re stuck with me now,” he breathed out, soft breath tickling your ear as you trembled uncontrollably in his arms, his hands still rubbing your back.
He lifted his head slowly to gaze at the dead bodies lying there, motionless before his eyes. All while still comforting you with his silent gestures.
He didn’t smile - not yet.
He was internally pleased with his work though, even if he didn’t show it.
Up to now, the manic gleam that you couldn’t notice reflected deeply in his bambi eyes.
This was what they deserved.
His plan had worked.
And revenge sure is sweet.
Mission: Success.
“I’m a motherfuckin’ starboy” - Starboy, The Weeknd
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Coming Soon…
STARBOY (MAKNAE LINE)
Seven guys. Seven sides. All types of crazy love meant to be memorable.
Okay, so I’ve been struggling to decide what to base this series on, as I wanted to kick off my blog with a series featuring all the guys. Since I’m a huge fan of The Weeknd, apart from ENHYPEN, I thought it would be a great idea to connect the two. One of my favorite Weeknd albums is Starboy and most of my favorite songs are from that album. I hope you guys will enjoy this series!
In this captivating fanfiction series, seven young men navigate the thrilling world of a secret spy organization known as the Artificial Intelligence Systems Agency (AISA). Amidst high-stakes mission and covert operations, these agents find themselves entangled in unexpected romantic antics. Each story blends action, humor and romance, while the men balance their dangerous careers with the complexities of love, leading to comedic and heartwarming moments. As they reveal mysteries and encounter obstacles, their relationships and individual development become crucial to their adventure within the mysterious AISA.
Mishi’s Thoughts: I’m super excited to show you guys this series, I do hope you wouldn’t be disappointed! Seeing as I’m still navigating about Tumblr I’ll have to figure out how to create a taglist but if anyone is interested please don’t hesitate to comment or even message privately to ask! I’m not certain when I’ll be able to release this series for sure but it’ll be one member at a time. For now, I’ll just provide brief synopses for each based on what I’ll be working towards. Also quick note, I had to split the series teasers into two because for some reason my limit for photos on the mobile app is up regarding one post and I’m way too lazy to use my laptop. Once again do enjoy everyone!
STARGIRL INTERLUDE
Trope: Muse x Artist
Pairing: spy!sunoo x spy!female reader
Release Date: To Be Determined
Synopsis: When your best friend Kim Sunoo discovers your secret talent for art, you thought you’d never hear the end of it within AISA’s walls. However, surprisingly enough, he makes a strange request to become your source of inspiration when you admitted you had artist’s block. What you didn’t expect to realize while working on your pieces was how truly gorgeous Sunoo actually was, as it begins to stir up unwanted and unforeseen feelings within yourself for this young agent. He wasn’t just beautiful - he’s majestic, mysterious and hiding a loneliness you never thought he possessed. Your art becomes a way of understanding him and he becomes the motivation for your hobby you never knew you needed. But what’s going to happen when a new obsessed agent tries to steal your best friend from you?
DIE FOR YOU
Trope: Protective Love
Pairing: spy!jungwon x spy!female reader
Release Date: To Be Determined
Synopsis: Yang Jungwon has always been protective - of his best friends, of his responsibilities and especially of you. You’ve been close friends for years, but lately his protectiveness feels - different. Softer. Warmer. More intense. When an escaped criminal incident forces the agency to assign you a temporary bodyguard - even though you’re certain you can handle yourself, Jungwon steps in before anyone else can. Suddenly you’re spending every waking moment together - late-night talks, shared meals, quiet confessions. As danger closes in, Jungwon’s feelings become impossible to hide. He’d do anything to keep you safe, even if it means risking everything he’s worked for. And when you realize you feel the same, the line between friendship and something deeper disappears completely.
I FEEL IT COMING
Trope: Smooth Flirt
Pairing: spy!riki x spy!female reader
Release Date: To Be Determined
Synopsis: Riki is the kind of boy who can make anyone blush - confident, charming and effortlessly teasing. You swear you’re immune to your partner, but he seems determined to prove you wrong. Every training session, every shared joke, every lingering touch feels like a challenge he’s winning. But beneath the playful flirting, Riki is hiding real feelings he’s too scared to admit. When someone else starts showing interest in you, Riki’s facade cracks. Suddenly the smooth flirt becomes the boy who’s terrified of losing you. And when he finally confesses, it’s not with a smirk - it’s with a trembling voice and eyes full of hope.
Coming Soon…
STARBOY (HYUNG LINE)
Seven guys. Seven sides. All types of crazy love meant to be memorable.
Okay, so I’ve been struggling to decide what to base this series on, as I wanted to kick off my blog with a series featuring all the guys. Since I’m a huge fan of The Weeknd, apart from ENHYPEN, I thought it would be a great idea to connect the two. One of my favorite Weeknd albums is Starboy and most of my favorite songs are from that album. I hope you guys will enjoy this series!
In this captivating fanfiction series, seven young men navigate the thrilling world of a secret spy organization known as the Artificial Intelligence Systems Agency (AISA). Amidst high-stakes missions and covert operations, these agents find themselves entangled in unexpected romantic antics. Each story blends action, humor and romance, while the men balance their dangerous careers with the complexities of love, leading to comedic and heartwarming moments. As they reveal mysteries and encounter obstacles, their relationships and individual development become crucial to their adventure within the mysterious AISA.
Mishi’s Thoughts: I’m super excited to show you guys this series, I do hope you wouldn’t be disappointed! Seeing as I’m still navigating about Tumblr I’ll have to figure out how to create a taglist but if anyone is interested please don’t hesitate to comment or even message privately to ask! I’m not certain when I’ll be able to release this series for sure but it’ll be one member at a time. For now, I’ll just provide brief synopses for each based on what I’ll be working towards. Once again do enjoy everyone!
STARBOY
Trope: Golden Boy With A Dark Side
Pairing: spy!heeseung x spy!female reader
Release Date: June 5th, 2026
Synopsis: Deemed AISA’s Golden Boy - the most talented secret agent known within the organization for his charismatic nature, intellectual skills and of course his effortless attractiveness, no one would’ve ever suspected Lee Heeseung was harboring a dark secret under his skin. It’s only when his past catches up to him - threatening to ruin his life and tarnish his reputation within the agency, that he is forced to seek help and team up with the one person he’s been avoiding the most the entire time - you.
PARTY MONSTER
Trope: Enemies With Chemistry
Pairing: spy!jay x spy!female reader
Release Date: June 12th, 2026
Synopsis: You’ve always despised Park Jongseong - not because of the attention he’s garnered for his exceptional performance within the agency, but because of the burning jealousy within a small part of yourself that feels he doesn’t deserve such recognition. For as long as you’ve known Jay, you’ve concluded that he’s nothing but a careless jerk that’s always excessively clubbing and only managed through his multitude of missions by sheer luck. When the time comes for the both of you to be partnered up for a crucial mission, will such feelings change or will the heart harbor something entirely different?
REMINDER
Trope: Soft Player Falls First
Pairing: spy!jake x spy!female reader
Release Date: June 19th, 2026
Synopsis: Sim Jaeyun was widely known within AISA for his flirtatious skills. You could never take him seriously when he tried his antics on you, already aware of the multiple times he’d flirted with the other female agents. It’s only when you’re both paired up and forced to work undercover together as a married couple, do you begin to realize that Jake is much more than a player. You start seeing the real Jake: the one who stays up late to help you, the one who remembers your coffee order and the one who looks at you like you’re the only person in the room. And when he realizes he’s falling first - and falling hard - he’ll do anything to prove he’s not the player everyone thinks he is. He just wants to be yours.
TRUE COLORS
Trope: Cold Boy, Warm Heart
Pairing: spy!sunghoon x spy!female reader
Release Date: To Be Determined
Synopsis: Park Sunghoon is known for being distant - polite, quiet, unreadable. Most people assume he doesn’t feel much at all. But when you transfer as his new partner, you end up noticing the small things: the way he listens more than he speaks, the way he softens when he talks about his favorite hobby, the way he looks at you when he thinks you’re not paying attention. Slowly, he lets you into his world - late-night training sessions, quiet walks home and secrets he’s never told anyone. So when life hits him harder than he expects, you become the one person he can’t push away.

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“하지만 이젠 내가 뭘 해야 하는지 알아” - Fate, ENHYPEN
But now I know what I have to do
Library
Lee Heeseung
STARBOY
Park Jongseong
PARTY MONSTER
Sim Jaeyun
REMINDER - coming soon
Park Sunghoon
TRUE COLORS - coming soon
Kim Sunoo
STARGIRL INTERLUDE - coming soon
Yang Jungwon
DIE FOR YOU - coming soon
Nishimura Riki
I FEEL IT COMING - coming soon
“너를 만족시키게 해줘” - Royalty, ENHYPEN
Let me satisfy you
Guidelines
Just some important rules to note:
01. Given the current situation, I will not tolerate ot6, solo fans, or haters. Please refrain from interacting with my work if you are aware of your affiliation with any of these groups.
02. While most of my content will be mature and suggestive, I won’t write about certain controversial topics such as cheating, rape, incest, grooming, or pedophilia. There is the possibility that I may include some dark themes such as extreme violence. However, if I miss any trope I’m not comfortable writing about, I’ll make it clear to anyone who requests it. Also, MDNI!
03. I only write for ENHYPEN and in the female perspective of the reader. Therefore, my deepest apologies but no ships between the members or any requests for any other gender will be recognized. I’m not homophobic, I just write with what I’m familiar with.
04. Please refrain from plagiarizing my work or taking credit for work that doesn’t belong to you.
05. I value respect and gratitude, and naturally, you will receive the same in return, so feel free to engage with me! Please refrain from being disrespectful or unmannerly in any way. I am open to potential moots and even friends!
06. I’m not entirely sure about my feelings regarding writing extensively for the maknae line of ENHYPEN at this point. However, that doesn’t mean my posts will be limited to the hyung line. I’ll do my best to come up with creative ideas for each member.
07. You may potentially see me writing mostly for Heeseung and I can assure you I’m not a solo stan. He was originally and still is my bias which is why I tend to lean towards him mostly.
“내 발길 따라서 너도 날 따라와 줘” - Foreshadow, ENHYPEN
Follow my footsteps and follow me too
Author
Dear readers,
Hi! You guys can just call me by my nickname, Mishi! Just some quick information about me:
I’m fairly new to Tumblr and at first I was just a silent reader. However, I feel like picking up a new hobby and decided to try out writing here for a bit so I hope you all can enjoy my work! I am a female born in the year 2008 with an MBTI of ISFJ. Yes, I am an ENGENE and have been for years so please excuse me if I still can’t get over what happened in March. I prefer to be delusional and still associate Heeseung with the other guys so forgive me if you don’t understand or approve of that. Also, extremely excited for Heeseung’s future so I am entirely supportive of that! The enemy is the company guys I swear! I am a university student so I intend to post during my off-hours and when I’m not occupied with assignments or my studies. I am so excited to grow this page and share my thoughts and imagination with everyone and yes, of course I would love to interact with each and every one of you so I’ll take requests when I can. I look forward to your support and getting to know you all. Thank you!
Much love,
Mishi