Neveah

Here I'm waiting to see you again and to tell you everything is going to be okay💜

Here i lay in bed, sleep isn't coming easily. So many memories are coming to my mind, I can remember so many things about my past. I feel so much nostalgia right now, but it's not making me feel sad, I feel a warmness on my chest. Most of the things I have written here were always sad, about me suffering, you can think that I've suffered for a long time, but don't get me wrong. I still suffer, it's an inherent part of me. My past wasn't the best, I know. But in a way, the fun and happy moments, the calm and gentle ones, made life worth it. This is not a really good year and even the previous year was worse. Life is just so unpredictable, it's always everything in a constant change, so many unexpected things have happened in life upon the years, although I'm grateful for everything, for every little experience that I've been through. The world is mysterious and full of unending stories. At first things feel not to make sense, but all comes up to an end to give meaning to all of it. I'm still on my way, looking for endless knowledge and wisdom, searching for much more experiences and adventures. All has to make sense.

I've been feeling so lonely, it's like no one's longer by my side

It's ironic the fact that i have the mindset of an adult and a child at the same time