Long ass story to explain my situation with Nyles.
If you've been following me for the past couple of months, you'd know I had a close friend, @nylesfuckingdiesblog, his other acc is @nylesfuckingdies.
I've known him since December, he had a crush on me, which was fine, but anyway. We were friends, he didn't have to admit that he liked me, it was pretty obvious. Despite his crush, I was still perfectly fine with being his friend, he was fun to be around and liked the same shit, even if I felt a bit awkward for not liking him back.
On Valentine's Day he asked me out, to which I politely said no because I was focusing on myself and not looking for a relationship. After that we went back to friends, but he didn't really take no for an answer. He asked a couple more times about dating, after the first time, along with asking to be friends with benefits, TWICE. I originally brushed it off, but after he asked for friends with benefits a few days ago, I kinda just lost it and explained to him I was uncomfortable and then shit went down.
Throughout our entire friendship, we'd fight over stupid little shit, but we'd get over it and stay friends.
At some point though, I was close to genuinely ending our friendship because he was just being a piece of shit.
Anyway. I get that he has a lot of trauma, and I'm not telling you what it is because its respectful to not tell you that, but he was always a bit of a dick. Whether he realized it or not, he'd make me feel like shit for having interests in shit he didn't like. For example, when I told him about the bbno$ concert I went to, he just told me that he didn't like bbno$ and it started a whole fight. Another example is that, maybe a few of you saw these comments, but before he liked Caine he'd always comment under my posts saying, "fuck Caine," and he kinda made me feel like shit for liking him. Even if he didn't do it on purpose, it wasn't a nice feeling.
Before I tell you what happened two nights ago, I wanna admit that at some point I did willingly send him a photo of my tits because I was in a bad position at the time and just wanted to feel good about myself. I feel gross and uncomfortable towards myself for doing such a thing and I do regret it. That wasn't him, that was completely me.
Anyway, two nights ago, we got into a fight. Before that though, he did ask for friends with benefits once more. I told him no and added, as a joke, "the most you'd get out of me is pussy asmr. Not even." I put myself in a position, so when he asked if he could have it, I kinda felt like I had to. So I sent it, and I immediately regretted it. I feel disgusting with myself. But, back to the whole fight thing... It started as me simply explaining to him that I was uncomfortable with him not taking no for an answer and then asking for friends with benefits. He got upset about that, causing a huge fight. The fight lastest from three hours. By the end of it, I told him I was done and we weren't friends. His friend was there at the time, heard everything, and was actually the one that started texting me, telling me to stay friends with him cause it wasn't a good time to not be friends, and then he started to tell me id regret not being friends with Nyles anymore, which isn't true, ngl.
Anyway, the morning after the huge fight, Nyles texted me a small, "sorry." I didn't reply till today. All I said was, "I know you are, and I am too. That won't change anything." He replies with telling me that he didn't even text me so he doesn't understand why I texted him, telling me he doesn't wanna talk to me, and then starting a huge fight.
A good chunk of the fight was just him telling me he hates me and shit, which I didn't really care about. Anyway. The other half of the fight, the half I didn't delete, I decided I'd take screenshots of.
Here are the screenshots.
I know the huge paragraph, and a few other things, I sent to him wasn't mature or a good idea, and there's no excuse for me saying it.
I'll have to reblog this post with the remaining screenshots.
