Always Keep Fighting

This is one of my favourite smiles of Ben. EVER

∞ Scenes of Sherlock

As long as we’ve known him, he’s always been reckless with his own life. He’s willingly put himself at fatal risk so many times - yes, sometimes for love but also sometimes just a solve the puzzle, as we see in the ASiP.

His revelation here, and the moment when he breaks, is when he sees his own death in intimate terms, slow moving and close up, cruel and ugly and enjoying his terror and pain, with no redeeming motive of sacrifice just joy in destruction, demanding his attention and not allowing him to deflect or dissociate or intellectualize.

Sherlock breaks because he finally realizes that he is not ready for his life to end. It’s not even about John or Mycroft or anyone else close to him. It’s him realizing that death is the END, and he is not ready to end. He’s been suicidal and flirted with death for so long that he ceased to take death seriously. Now that he must, he knows for sure that he DOES NOT want it.

Sherlock does not want to die. And now even Sherlock knows this.